lindam116
Looking ahead
Mar 07, 2008
The one thing that I am noticing though as we discuss my possible surgery is the fact that I won't be eating the way we enjoyed. We both love food. We both find pleasure in it. I am in the process of retraining my brain that food is for maintaining my body and not for pleasure. It's not an easy process. I've always used food for comfort. If I was happy, I wanted to eat and celebrate. If I was sad, I wanted to drown myself in food. If was nervous or bored, I reached for the bag of potato chips. THAT is how I got to 309 lbs.
So, before I even go to talk to the Doctor, I'm trying to find other ways to comfort myself and my emotions. I'm finding other ways to stay busy. I may go for a walk or read a book instead of heading to the kitchen. It's not easy.
I wish I could make my husband understand that you can find pleasure at a restaurant from other things than the food. You can enjoy the conversation and the company. The ambiance and the scenery. I can still go out with him but the entire focus will not be on the 12 oz steak, baked potato, salad, and chocolate cake. I know he's scared. I'm scared too. But I know that together we will make it through this process.
The next step...
Feb 27, 2008
My referral was approved yesterday and I have a date for my initial consultation. I'll be meeting Dr. Jawad and the office staff on March 11th. I'm excited as I start down this path to a healthier life. I'm scared as well. I think what I am frightened the most about is the change. It's easy to get comfortable in the life that we have and here I am about to "rock" my world as well as my family's. I have a wonderful support system and I know they will be there for me as we take these small steps one at a time... together. I'm also a little saddened. My Sister needs WLS as well. Because of some of her medical conditions, she needs it as much, if not more, than I do. Unfortunately, her insurance company will not pay for it. And that makes me angry. I know she will be happy for me but I know it will be a reminder to her that her health is being dictated by an insurance company. Hopefully, after my surgery, I can give her the courage and the strength to continue to fight them until they approve it.
So, the next step has been taken...
Taking the first step(s)...
Feb 25, 2008
I have contacted my insurance company and since I meet their requirements of being 200% over my ideal (and for now, unrealistic) body weight, they will pay for the surgery with nothing out of my pocket (hopefully) as long as I use a network provider. For that, I am thankful. I went yesterday to see my PCM for a referral to Dr. Jawad. As of this morning, he has submitted the request for my referral and it is pending. So, I have taken the first steps...
