lillian34
Well my story may be a little different from some others, but here goes...As a child I hated food especially meats anything I had to chew I hated, sounds wierd I'm sure unlike some people I was under weight, my mom took me to my pediatrician and asked what should she do to increase my eating habits, the Dr says dont force her just make sure she is getting enough liquid intake she will eventually start, well that went in one ear and out the other I can remember my biological mother forcing me to eat even to the point I would cry and she would be so angry that she would sling food around some hitting me, now my legal gaurdian would take her time with me and find strategies that would get me to eat, my siblings were even in on it. Up until I was about 13 I had a hard time wanted to eat after that I felt like I had to eat everything on my plate because if I didnt that meant something was wrong with me eventually I ate myself to obesity and here I'am 23 years later struggling with my wieght, now dont get me wrong I'm not blaming it on my mother, because at some point I knew what a balanced meal should look like and what over eating felt like, but I have decicded to do something about it that why I'm having RNY thats my story.
Things To Do Once Im On The Loser Side:
1.Run in the Peachtree Road Race
2.Climb Stone Mountain to the top
3.Go on a Mountain Bike Trail
4.Join a local Swim Team
5.Join a local Baseball Team
6.Go Hiking
7.Start a Girls Track Team
8.Volunteer as a asst. Gymnastic Teacher
9.Buy a Mountain Bike
10.Race my 13 yr old and win
March 12,2004 I have not yet went through the process, but I do have a session with Dr.Scarborough I beleive this is when I get to decide if this is really what I want, so please all be in prayer for me, its funny every since I made my session appointment its seems that it all I can think about, can you imagine what I'll be like if everything goes through WOW!!!! beleive or not my appetite is very little because I cant stop thinking about if its Gods will for me to have this surgery I would have to lose 129 pounds to reach my ideal weight. God bless and many prayer for you all.
March 16, 2004
Grace and Peace to all, my seminar takes place today and as of right now I have no idea how Im getting there i dont have a car right now and usually my brother allows me to drive his car and sometimes take me where ever, but his work hours has changed and Im not sure if he's going to be able to take me I even asked a old friend of mine and he said that he originaly had plans but he would see what he could do nobody knows what Im doing yet Im not yet ready to tell them, maybe because I dont think they will support me not because they dont love me but because I made some poor judgements in the pass, but this is different they dont know the pain of being overweight I beleive this is the right path for me I really just need to pray about it and allow God to minister to me, oh well Im signing off as of now hopefullly I'll get away there talk to you soon.
March 17,2004
Grace and Peace to all, well I missed the seminar and I was quite disappointed and it really made me feel like maybe It's not meant to be, I beleive that the surgery would really help me physc,and mental. I went to the gym this morning and got on the treadmill for 30min and then I did the stair master for about 10min excercise is not a problem losing the weight motivates me and when I dont see the weight falling I fall out of the gym, in the last couple of days I had lost 3lbs but when I weighed myself this morning I had gain it back, but thats ok because from now on Im going to push and strive to continue to workout. Its funny Its very easy for me to lose stimunant is my friend it just getting in there and doing it peace out talk to you all later maybe the next time Ill be able to say Ive lost some weight or I 've started the process for surgery.
March 17, 2004 Well yall I've been on the memorial page all morning didnt even get a chance to get any work done reading those story really got me thinking I've decided not to have the surgery oh my!!!! it really frighten me Im 277lbs and stand at 5feet and 11 inches I dont have any medical conditions as we speak and i just dont feel comfortable about the surgery any more I read where this lady died a year after her surgery man!!!! that just messed me up. I beleive with God I can do all things that strengthens me, well what Im going to do is start eating better and exercising and Ill make sure I update you all every chance i get until then God bless and please be in prayer for the whole wls members that all is well and that we should always seek Gods answers when trying to decide on something as important as this. Trust God with your life.
March 24, 2004
Grace and Peace to all I know its been a minute but I have good news even though I decided not to have the surgery I still needed to put the junk foods down as of today I have lost 7lbs cool huh!!!! yeah my motabolizm is great its always been good I just want stop eating long enough to lose weight so I've been working out four days a week and walking to work instead of catching a taxi Im starting to feel beeter already I threw away all the junk food and started my life all over again see you all later God bless.
March 26,2004
Grace and Peace everybody today looks to be a wonderful day everyday is wonderful if you woke up,but today is just special for some reason i can feel it in my spirit, well as you know I 've been trying to lose the weight with out surgery I decided not to weigh myself for another week or so hey!! guess what my son and I are competing to see who lose weight the fastiest I thought it would healthy if he started eating right now his fourteen and 5'9 and weigh 179 actually he lose 4lbs in the last week his Dr says he needs to stop the junk food so that when I cleared out my cabnet and fridge and started over with all low fat foods It really works working out is a must we both go and work out everyday Oh man!!! let me teel you the trac master bike is good you can really tell the difference as soon as you get off you legs feel swollen and that is whats really happening you are pumping muscle and you get a swollen feeling in your thighs and calf i really need it for my rear it use to be nice and firm but know man i dont know what it looks like, but you know what just in the last couple of days I can see shape forming in my thighs again not dramatic but enough to know it works, my mian concern is my stomach,thighs, oh yeah!!! my rear. I do this movemnet with my double chin that really works you stretch the muscle from you neck to your chin up to as many times as possible I do 100 in the morining after I brush my teeth it tigthen the muscle in the fat between your neck and chin and some you double chin is gone i know because I done it before oh well I guess I will see you all later i just ordered some chicken and vegetable and I think I may be just a little munchie
I dont say hungry ant more read Lamentations in the Bible and thats what you call hungry.
April 14,2004
Grace and peace hey everybody It's been awhile but all is well we had a home going service for my grandma yesterday yall I tell you I know that it was nobody but God keeping me from losing my mind a year ago I would have been stting in a corner pulling my hair out BUT GOD!!!!! whoa he's real yall God gave me enough strength to do a reflection of my grandma I cant believe it my grandma was a loving ,caring lady she would always want to know how was evrybody doing such a sweet spirit grandma I m going to miss you I love you grandma Winnie I will do my best to take care of granddad.
Well you'll I ve lost 16lbs altogether and inches to just dont know how many but I know I put on a pair of jeans this morning that use to fit pretty tight and today I've got space between my belly and the pants coming off slower, thats just because with my grandma going home and all I've missed the gym all last week, but any way I must go now its back to work for me.
God bless
May 20, 2004
Grace and Peace everyone man I know its been a while, I hope everything is well guess what I haven't los eany more weight, but Im no longer single me and my childhood friend met back up during the time my grandma pass away and it really felt good seeing him again he's saved love the Lord he's in college to obtain his theology degree he's also an appraiser and drive trucks on the side as you can see he's a really busy man, but that's a good thing because of the attraction between he only continuing to work as hard because we are planning a wedding YEAH!!!! a wedding well we use to date back when we both first got saved but because we were new in Christ God had other plans for us at the time so we were apart for about four years and God has brought us back together I really love him and continue to pray for us.
August 27, 2008
Guess who? yeah it's me well it's three years in the marriage and everything is wonderful, it's so wonderful I've gained 35lbs, Lord Jesus help me. I've got so much going on that it's not funny, well really mentally I've got to much going on. Guess what I have a 11month old and she's beautiful my middle chid is in middle school my oldest have gone off to college my husband have a really good job. Im at home a lot, a lot meaning the past year and all I do is eat sleep tend to the baby make phone calls, keep the house clean and maintain the family affairs I'm really cosidering the surgery again I need it to live now. I looked into another Dr. Dr Duncan here in Atlanta I heard he's really good I'm going to talk to omy husband about it and see what he says, he just want me to live a healthy life and out live him...how selfish, God is still good I've just been dealing with a lot only because my weight has brought me to some depress days, but I'm reminded that "Let this mind that be in me be also in Christ Jesus"
God Bless
October 10,2008
Hello WLS family, well I talk to my hubby and he gave me the go I'm so excited. We had a serious talk my husband love me and he's seen the way my weight have become more than I can manage he have seen me try every diet pill every get fit program and just plain old "just eat right and you'll lose the weight" none of these things have seem to work for me even excecise we have a membership at the YMCA and I just can't seem to get motivated enough to put in the work... besides my knees hurting so bad, and my lower back... with a lot of presure on it, it begins to hurt if I sit down to long I some times can barely walk I can feel my body taking a blow because of my weight. I would just love to be aroung for a long time I refuse to died from obesity complications, heart desease, high blood and diabetes no!!! not me I'm going to live live and live some more. Well I called my PCP and made an appt. so that I can get the ball rolling check in with you all later
God Bless
October 13,2008
Well today I had an appt . with my PCP and all is well, first off I noticed a knot under my breast that was the first thing I brought to his attention then I wanted him to know about the frequent urination even after the antibotics, so he done another urine test and my urine looked good he gave me an referal for an ultrasound of my breast, he said he don't believe it's anything, but just to be sure I'll get checked out . After we talked he ask me if I had ever thought about Bypass Surgery I knew it was something I was suppose to do I didnt even have to bring it to his attention he refered me to Dr. Duncan and get this he's in the same blg as my PCP as soon as i left his office I went down to Dr. Duncan and set up for my seminar it's this Sat. @ 1pm me and my husband are going to attend it. I'm so exicted I know I have a long ways to go but I'm looking forward to it all.
God Bless
October 18, 2008
Grace and Peace, Oh my goodness Dr. Duncan is so cool, me and my husband went to one of his seminars today and it was very interesting very informative, but he really didn't talk about possible complication during sug. and after sug. but I'm sure that will be discuss when patient decides to have sug. but anyway can you all imagine Dr. Duncan singing "Dream The Impossible Dream" to funny oh my I really enjoyed myself my husband squim a little when Dr. Duncan showed a clip of an sug. he had proformed I liked it... ok call me mobid...not mobidly obese lol!!!!!
God Bless
October 21, 2008
Grace and Peace to all, today I took my registration worksheet and drop it off at Dr. Duncans office everything was in place, the young lady at the front desk said to look to hear from the office within 14 business day that call would let me know if the Dr's that review my work sheet feel I'm a candidate for surgery and also arthorization from Ins. company is needed before clearences are requested I have an appt for labs already and medical clearence from PCP on Mon. I pray that all is well and everything gos according to the Lords will.
God Bless
October 23, 2008
Grace and Peace today is my oldest B-day he turned 19 I'm so proud of him he's in college and I'm so happy for him he been having a hard time with biology but he knowsthat he's going to have to work hard in order to succeed. Well the lady at the front desk said it would take 14 days for the doctors to review my paper work u already know I'm counting down i just saw this girl with the skinny leg jeans with some cute steletos I guest that's how u spell it, and I imagine myself wearing that same thing I'm so excited I promise I wont turn hoochie
my relationship with the Lord changed the way I use to dress when I was younger I love modesty it say's so such more than being half naked plus my husband ony need to see my body. "Peace Out"
God Bless
November 8, 2008
Grace and peace WLS family well today I recieved my letter from Dr. Duncans office stated that i could start my clearence appts. I'm so excited I'm so ready hopefully I all gos by really fast the ony thing is as of the 12th of Nov. I am an official postal employee an dI'm afraid i wont be allotedthe time I need to have surgery i have just been thinking how it's going to work and all would i need to let them know are just take those days for sugery anf came back and take it easy dont know.
God Bless
December 1, 2008
Grace and Peace WLS family, I know it's been a while , but I've been so busy well actually I'm always on the site there's just not really anything worth posting or logging in, but today I decided to post an update today I had my labs done ppl it's really happening this time over the last month or so I've really seen the need fir this surgery I feel like a old lady most of the time and that's not a good feeling at all I'm so ready to start feeling better. My son come home for thx given and I decided to inform him before he went back to school he seem to be okay with it, I know how my son is he wants what 's best for me, but at the same time if he dont know much about it he's not for it, but he was reasured when I told him Alan ( my husband ) okayed it and did his own research, because he know how Alan is he's always optimistic about anything he seems to be ok my daug, is all for it she makes little comments like we'll be able to shop together I'm excited well I must go now the 14 month old is getting hungry.
God Bless
January 4, 2009
Grace And Peace and Happy New!!!!!!!!! to all of my WLS family well I'm very close to the end of my clearance process, I wish I would have started right after the seminar, but oh well it still seem to be going smoothly I pray my approval goes just as smooth. Tomorrow is my last appointment it's with the pyhcologist, then Wed. I have to sleep over night for the sleep apnea test, the pulmonogist said he did'nt believe I had sleep apnea, but before he clear me for surgery he would like to now for sure I hope to have my surgery no later than my birthday which is in March, Feb. would be good.....really it would be grrrrrreat!!!! I have not yet told anyone besides my husband,son and daug. oh yeah my play twin, my sister in-law it's amazing I was at her house for Thanksgiving and we were just causually talking I mention that I really need to try and lose some wieght she responded: "why not try surgery, I'm having Lab Band done" I screamed she said what! why are you screaming? I said: I'm having RNY, then she started to scream, then she asked who's doing your surgery I said: Dr. Titus Duncan and she scream again lol, lol, lol, lol she said he is doing mine also. She's one of those type people that dont care about what people think I wish I was like that I'm not ready to say anything yet because I know how some people can be judgemental and say stuff to try and make you change your mind, now dont get me wrong my mind is made up because I want to live not matter what someone says it's already written in stone I just donjt feel like going through the drama more than anything someone would say something because they would want to have done it themselves but didnt have the courage oh yeah it takes a lot of courage to have this surgery done. I love my family and I would not want them here after I'm gone hurting from the pain of my death, just because of my bad eating habits well I must go now keep me in your prayers and I'll do the same.
God Bless
Jan. 24, 2009
Today I went to the Georgia's meet n greet i really enjoyed myself I got a chance to meet others that either is or have gone through the surgery I got some vital info hope to meet again
God Bless
