Lifad
I have been overweight the majority of my 41 years. As a child I was plump as my Mother said and remained so through the younger years and in my teens moved into the overweight category. I was an active child, played allot of sports, and was always outdoors, as a teen I slowed down but did maintain some level of activity. In my mid teen years I starved myself on any and every diet there was, and lost some weight and would regain it again. At one point I lost too much and was far to thin for 16yrs old, of course my Mother fed me non stop and soon the weight was back.
As I grew in age I grew in weight. I hit obese and have stayed there. I don't blame anyone but me, lack of activity, poor eating habits and unhealthy eating habits, along with over consumption just added on the pounds. Again through 20s and 30s tired every diet under the sun and would lose some but always gain it back - I wasn't making any real changes outside of starving myself. Why should I often thought, I work hard every day I deserve treats!
Well 2005 came along and at 340 lbs without notice I got seriously ill and suffered an extreme pancreatic failure, barely survived this. After 30 days in hospital, hearing how all the organs had shut down and the diabetic shock I had gone into - I guess it opened my eyes. I had lost 40lbs in the month, and upon returning home (now diabetic and on full medication) I managed to lose another 20lbs. It took me 4 months to recover, I was weak and had lost all muscle control, I could barely walk up and down the stairs.
I was fortunate having the time off from work, I worked hard everyday to regain my strength and get active and change my lifestyle. I dropped all white from diet, no white breads, rice, pasta, sugars of course. I got rid of junk food and fast food and hadn't smoked since my hospital stay. Summer I was swimming daily, sometimes 2 or 3 times, walking and my diet was being managed well. Winter was bit of struggle, i kept up the walking but overall the activity decreased some.
Withing a year I started noticing problems with blood sugars - no matter what I did they were climbing. My GP didn't react, I had to fight for referral to specialist and got one. Good thing, the meds weren't working , time to change to Insulin. Long run it has been easier to manager, but I hate needles and sorry but even after years they still hurt!! 
Fast forward to today, the Insulin helps control the blood sugars but have had to continually increase the amounts I take. They warned me about the weight gain, and yes I have gained all 80lbs back. I am now at my heaviest I have every been. I am inactive because I can barely do anything without pain and allot of discomfort, I had lost faith and thus lost focus but I did remain eating healthy foods! I just increased the portions.. a real no no.
I can't continue as is, I know it. I'm afraid I won't be around in a year if I leave this any longer. I have all the other medical issues that go with being Obese.. (Diabetic, Sleep Apnea, Kidney Problems, and so on). I have researched WLS for years and I know the risks and what it means, but I feel the risk out ways the gain overall. I need help, I need the tool, the start... for an opportunity to live life the way I want to.. to it's fullest
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