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I'm really discouraged. I need some support, but it seems hard to come by... I'm up 6.5 pounds after my surgery that corrected the misplaced band that was causing me to vomit 3 - 8 times per day. Now, I don't feel any restriction and my body is bent on craving after craving.... I feel totally out of control. My new doctor says I'm not supposed to weigh every day and that I'm not supposed to track my calories - it's a total lack of accountability and this is the first time I've actually gained weight for 14 months! What do I do? I'm so emotional and hormonal that I'm driving myself crazy. If anyone has some suggestions for me, I'd love to hear them. In the mean time, I'm going back to my wicked, obsessive ways. Counting calories was the only way to loose with my screwed up band and until they figure out how to get me some restriction, they shall just have to deal with my way (or the highway!!!).

Well, my working out appears to be catching up with my metabolism . My dad is here for a few days and went on a colosal Costco shopping trip, returning with new york strip steaks 2" thick, giant scallops, broccoli salad, fruit platter, etc. He asked me to entertain a friend of his last night with a giant bbq. I ate 4 bites of steak, 4 scallops and 3 pieces of my award winning (in my mind ) focacia bread. Then we had desert... 2 home made chocolate chip cookies... I had been really on task with food all day prior, but I definately went over on the calories.

In spite of the feast, I'm down to 186 this morning. I can only credit it to the daily work outs, cause that stuff was NOT on my diet! 

I knew when he brought all that stuff home that it would be a struggle, and for some reason, I just let myself off the hook and ate till I was full. I guess what I'm getting at here is that I feel guilty loosing after eating like that.

The up side is that I had done 30 minutes of lap swimming that morning before I ate anything. And I've worked out the last 6 days straight (except for Thursday) before that. And it's the first real working out I've done since surgery 14 months ago. I'm really active - I train horses by trade, so it's not like I'm a couch potato, but this is pretty hard core cardio, so it's a bit different... 

I want to be able to occasionally eat a meal like that... I feel great when I'm consistently exercising... Is this what they call balance????

Does bitterness and disapointment weigh in on the scale? I think it must. I poured out my heart here and to God and lo and behold I moved down a bit on the scale. PRAISE GOD!

Yesterday I ate 1387 calories, biked in the morning for 15 minutes and did lap swim before dinner for 30. My combined total calories burned in exercise was 1012. My weight this AM was 187 and my body fat content was 42%.

I just came in from a 25 minute jog. I'm amazed at how easy this is compared to exercise before loosing all this weight. I love seeing how many calories my activites burn and being able to be encouraged by that number. I know how valuable each calorie is to eat, so seeing the negative ones really makes me feel like Something Is Happening in a positive way!

Now, I just have to keep working and distracting myself from the constant pangs of hunger until next Wednesday when I get my first fill... over 14 months from the original Lap-Band surgery! Whew!

GARG! Jogging, biking, and journaling. Yesterday, I burned 450 calories before eating anything by jogging - 70 to 95% of my target heart rate - then my grand total calories for the day came in at 1015 and guess what? NOTHING. In fact, I was a 1/2 pound up on the scale.

The excersize feels amazing - I don't remember it feeling anything like good before and now, I'm bouncing all day on the energy rush I get from excersize... I just wish the scale would budge. I'm still up from 184 to 189 from starting back on solid foods. And I have to get on the stupid scale at the doctor's office on Thursday! I'm having a major melt about that.... I'm so ashamed and I cant figure what I did or am doing wrong!

Anyone have any suggestions?

So after almost a  year of throwing up several times a day, I'm a couple of weeks post-op after having the cause of the vomiting repaired. My stomach is so accepting of food - especially protein... I just havent been able to eat protein or veggies or almost anything for so long.... Now, with no fluid in my band (I've only ever had 1cc for 1 month before the vomiting began and they emptied it) and my stomach repaired, my body is going crazy!  I dropped 10 pounds in the last 2 weeks and now that I'm eating solid foods, I've picked up 6 of them! I cant seem to control myself! It just feels so good to eat chicken breast and turkey and all the things I've missed. Healthy things, but my body isn't used to this many calories (around 1200). I feel like I could eat salad all day every day. I'm freaking out! I'm over a year post op Lap Band and I'm like a kid in the candy store with food.

I'm hoping that just getting this out there and fessing up will help me get my control back.

On the bright side, I jogged for the first time this AM (since High School) I only made 18 minutes, but that's 330 calories burned before I ate! That really felt good. I figure 18 minutes at less than 3 weeks post op isn't too shabby :)

I just hope it makes a difference on the scale! I go in for my first fill on the 7th and I'm embarrased to face the doctor with only 4 pounds down since surgery...

Sorry for the big whine. I'm working on it!

Check my photos if you want to see my possible 100 pound celebration prize

Anyone know how to insert tickers here? Thanks!

Hi there. I'm here to find friends and support for this monumentous journey. I had surgery just over a year ago and now, with 80 pounds gone of the 130 that I want to loose, I'm cruising at past half way. I just had surgery to correct the band positon and a small complication, so it's a bit like starting over again. Liquids for several more weeks followed by soft and mushy for a bit, then it's back to the calorie and protien count.

Anyone interested in swapping encouragement or just telling stories, feel free to contact me.