LeAnne B.

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Okay...5cc's full on 2/14/08 - Valentine's Day! Woke up with swollen eyes from my big cry the night before...not able to stuff down my feelings with food after a frustrating evening at home with the family. So, my first fill...hurt a bit with the needle going in, but it was much faster than I expected. My abdominal muscles were a bit crampy for most of the afternoon afterwards, and I think I was still catching up with my water intake and was a bit dehydrated. So, I ate some soup for dinner and went to bed. Next day went well...didn't eat much of anything, but continued to be constipated! Had been taking stool softner lots, took a dose of Citrucal (did nothing)...with lots of water...but nothing. So, I took some Dulcolax given to me at NWWLS...and the next day, finally, some relief. I think I'll stay away from crackers, pretzels...things that gum up in my intestines. I'm going to get some Benefiber too... lots of folks on here are recommending it.
So, Friday was a busy day, with a lunch date, memorial service (Remembering Sarah Plants, 22) and family stuff. Tried to find a councelor that would take my insurance...2 have said no, even though they were listed by the insurance company as providers. It's teadious and I want to give up. I really need some pro-help though...my ups are really up and my downs are really down. Maybe I'll go back to my VM pshyc dr.
Oh, and I got stuck today. Tried to eat a cheeseburger that I made...on a whole wheat roll...so I thought it would be fine...has been before the fill...but I think I ate the first bite too fast and didn't chew enough. Hurt sooo much! I knew I shouldn't drink water, and make it worse, but it wasn't budging...so I took a sip, and after the worse pain...finally unstuck. I waited 20 minutes...then ate the patty and tomato and threw out the bun. I was sooooo full from it. I really need to adjust my portions and slow it down. The fill is finally doing something for me.
So...there it is!

hmmm...so I went in for my first fill on 2/6/08. No vomitting, no looking for food. I haven't been hungry and I haven't been eating too much. In fact I'm worried about eating too little. They said...don't worry about eating too little. Weight: 259...8 lbs lost...since when? not sure. Maybe I was 267 at surgery...but was remembering 261. Anyway they said, come back in 2 weeks. I may still be experiencing restriction simply from the residual swelling from surgery.
I'm feeling like, just fill it already. I want to loose faster. Also, I worry about not getting all the fills in, which are covered, before my 13 months is up. I'm cheap and don't want to pay any more than I have to.
Feeling so fortunate to have had insurance cover 100%.
Scars are healing nicely, with the exception of the knotted end of the 3 incher, which appears to be leaving a hole in my skin as it takes forever to disolve.
Anyway, I'm feeling good for the most part...when I remember to eat. Life is strange and most days I just feel like I need a friend.

Just overate on Special K. Should have just stuck to my morning latte! Yesterday I was hungry a lot...ate well though, except for some ice cream...then felt the sugar in my system later and regretted it! blarg! PMS I think...so I need to watch my choices. Soon I'll have my first fill, and hopefully, some nice restriction. Then on to more excercise.

Okay, it's day 6. After a week of pre-op Medifast and this week of liquids, I'm hungry! Even though I'm bloated and slightly nauseated, I'm hungry! I think I'm ready for soft food...at least my mind thinks so...but I'm trying to hold out. I have a post-op apt this Thursday, and I hope to get the okay then. ho-hum!
I felt better yesterday than today. The sun was out yesterday, and I finally started feeling normal. Today, it feels like a step back. I just feel drained and malnourished. Trying to stay positive!