leah1664
I started out at a normal weight as a child and as I got older, had children a car accident the weight just piled on and would not come off. I tried many different diets, pills and even starvation. I would lose small amounts get excited and then gain it back and usually a few more pounds as the final insult to injury. I started looking into weight loss surgery after I got diabetes, its funny though I still kept thinking I could lose it on my own so after 5-6 years passed and I was still slowly gaining more weight and getting diagnosed with new and exciting weight related illnesses, I thought; this is it, I've had enough. I can't lose this on my own, I need surgical intervention.
I can't believe it took me so long....., it was so hard for me to admit I could not lose the weight myself. I think because it meant not just changing on the outside but changing on the inside too. Taking my life back that had spiraled out of control along with my weight. I have lost so many years hiding from life, hiding behind others during family photos or just hiding from them period. All the outings I felt to bad to go on, had nothing to wear that looked nice or just felt ashamed of my weight gain and didn't have the nerve to face people who knew me before the weight gain.
I am ready to take my life back and I want to enjoy something everyday even if its just being able to tie my tennis shoes without help, and I don't ever want to look back. I want to close the door, lock it and walk into my bright and wonderful future.
