ldd1
emotional struggle
Jul 10, 2014
Hi everyone, It's been a long time since I've been on this site. I am 16 months out. Surgery day I weighted 1888524019621 today I'm at 175 which is wonderful. However I forgot how my life was before when i was similar in weight. I had a traumatic childhood & teenage experiences. Of course didn't forget that but the attention that I get about my body now is bringing back those bad feelings about my body image. I knew that people would have things to say about my losing so much weight. I just didn't realize the emotions that the weight loss would bring up for me. I have had other emotional issues but this has been the hardest to shake. I know someone has to feel similar to this or something, just looking for some understanding.
Post -op Yay
Jan 03, 2013
Today, I am post day two. I feel really good besides the gas. I am on pureed diet starting today. I have eaten about three bites of my oatmeal. Now I am stuff. I took my multi & calcium so far. I am doing ok for now
Finally it's here
Dec 29, 2012
I'm so scared & mostly excited about my upcoming surgery. I'm scheduled for Jan. 2. I can't wait until I'm on the loser's bench.
Frustrated
Oct 18, 2012
Well, I went to my pre-op appt. today, and my surgery had to be post poned. I am a little frustrated but not really surprised. I'm having issues with my blood levels. I'm not giving up just a little set back.
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It's been along time coming
Oct 05, 2012
I can't believe so much time has passed. I am finally approved & scheduled for surgery. I have been lurking on the site watching all of the progress everyone has made. I almost gave up a couple of times, but I'm happy that I continued on. So much has happened. I'm a new mommy. I have adopted a beautiful baby girl. And with that big change, I realized how much more effort I need to put toward this process. So I'm scheduled for Oct. 29th. I'm scared & ready. Right now my profile is only for my friends, so I'm asking for your support. Many of you have reached your goal, so please send all your knowledge my way. Thanks for sharing your journeys, it has helped me to continue mine.
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I need to put more effort in
Jun 23, 2010
I have been on this journey for a little while & it seems like I am still at square one.
I have been diagnosised with sleep apnea. So July 15th, I got to have another sleep study with C-pap. The only other thing is that I need to lose 10 more lbs. I am not sure why I have been dragging my feet. But I know that in order for me to apply for Ins. approval, I have to lose the weight. On a positive note, this is all I have left to do. So I am committed to buckling down & doing what it takes. This week has been rough as far as my eating b/c my emotions have been a little high. My step- daughter just found out that she is pregnant. This is a blow b/c she is going into her 2nd yr of college with a GPA of 3.8. I know that this not uncommon today but I hoped that she would have avoided this issue. So we are trying our best to keep her encouraged. As of right now she says that she doesn't want the baby. That's hard to hear being that I have loss some. & don't know if I can ever have one. So I am trying to put my emotions aside for her sake. & as a result the eating is out of control. I will get on track b/c this surgery is to help me & I am not willing to give my life up anymore!!!!!
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I have been diagnosised with sleep apnea. So July 15th, I got to have another sleep study with C-pap. The only other thing is that I need to lose 10 more lbs. I am not sure why I have been dragging my feet. But I know that in order for me to apply for Ins. approval, I have to lose the weight. On a positive note, this is all I have left to do. So I am committed to buckling down & doing what it takes. This week has been rough as far as my eating b/c my emotions have been a little high. My step- daughter just found out that she is pregnant. This is a blow b/c she is going into her 2nd yr of college with a GPA of 3.8. I know that this not uncommon today but I hoped that she would have avoided this issue. So we are trying our best to keep her encouraged. As of right now she says that she doesn't want the baby. That's hard to hear being that I have loss some. & don't know if I can ever have one. So I am trying to put my emotions aside for her sake. & as a result the eating is out of control. I will get on track b/c this surgery is to help me & I am not willing to give my life up anymore!!!!!
It's been a long road but I'm just beginning
Jun 05, 2010
Well yesterday I went to see my PCP. He is preparing my letter for my insurance. While his nurse was taking my vitals, she revealed to me that she is 10 yrs out from having RNY. She looks great. She told me that she hasn't had any complications. She advised me to do exactly what I'm told & I should be fine. That was a real comfort to me. Because I see her success so I know that I can be successful as well. So I am hoping to know soon if I have a date or not. I'm very excited & I hope all goes well. I hope in a few weeks or months I will be on the losing bench. Now I know I'm ready for that. 
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Thoughts of Today
May 02, 2010
Wow!!! Today was one of those days that I have to make sure I didn't imagine it. First of all it rained so much that the city was flooded. It was scary for a moment for my family but thankful everyone is ok. I watched the news all day. It reminded me of when Katrina or the Haiti earthquake happened. It funny b/c when it happens in your own backyard it feels alot different than just watching some things happen on TV. I also watched Ruby today. It was a great show. I wish that I could go to a retreat like that. It made me think about this commitment that I am making. I know that there are underlying issues surrounding my weight. And I feel like Ruby b/c I just want to keep them to myself. But I had to realize that b/c of that thinking I am Fat. So now I need to work on changing my mindset. I know that this is not going to easy.
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Wow
Apr 09, 2010
OK, I have been looking on the boards this morning & I saw some one's ticker that said that you can create on another website. So I wanted another one so I went on it. I made it and got to the part where it says current weight. So I went into the bathroom & stepped on the scale. I can't believe I'm down 15lbs. WOOOOHOOO! The ticker that I made would not paste on here. But I don't care b/c finding out that I lost 15 lbs is better.
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It's a great day
Mar 18, 2010
Today is beautiful. It's supposed to get up to 60 outside with sunshine. And I love it! Well I just got back from my PCP a few minutes ago. I hate that they weigh you every time. Sorry to say I have not lost anything. So I am on a mission to lose these 29lbs. But anyway, the visit went very well. To my surprise, he was all in.
My blood pressure was high so he wants me to really tackle that before he writes his letter. Which I agreed with him on that. Shout out to Millikan01! I met her today. She has done very well with her WLS. I am inspired to keep moving forward. I also met two ladies that are just starting out in their journey. And I told them how OH has been encouraging to me. I wish them well. I felt so good when I got home that I asked my husband to walk the track with me. Usually, I want to go eat somewhere, but today I realized that I need to start breaking my bad habits now. The worst habits are eating fast food and Coke cola.
But I know that in order to take back my life, I must take back the control that my bad habits have on me. Well I'm about to go to the track. Until next time.
I'm in a tug of war but I will be Victorious!!!!!!!
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My blood pressure was high so he wants me to really tackle that before he writes his letter. Which I agreed with him on that. Shout out to Millikan01! I met her today. She has done very well with her WLS. I am inspired to keep moving forward. I also met two ladies that are just starting out in their journey. And I told them how OH has been encouraging to me. I wish them well. I felt so good when I got home that I asked my husband to walk the track with me. Usually, I want to go eat somewhere, but today I realized that I need to start breaking my bad habits now. The worst habits are eating fast food and Coke cola. But I know that in order to take back my life, I must take back the control that my bad habits have on me. Well I'm about to go to the track. Until next time. I'm in a tug of war but I will be Victorious!!!!!!!
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Nashville, TN
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26.6
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Surgery
01/02/2013
Surgery Date
Jul 28, 2008
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