lbarker
I am 29 years old and the mother of 2 beautiful children. I have been overweight since I was about 8 years old. My weight has never been a huge issue to me until now. When I was young I always felt like the 3rd wheel because I was overweight and that guys didn't want to date me because I was fat. Although this bothered me it never bothered me enough to really try to exercise and lose the weight I just felt like I was destined to be fat because most of my family is overweight and there was nothing that I could do about it. When I was 17 I met my husband who I thought was the best thing that has ever happened to me. I accepted alot of things that I feel I wouldn't have accepted if I had not been overweight and suffered from a low self esteem.
We had our children when we were very young so you can image that we have financially struggled not to mention that he has had 2 shoulder surgeries and 2 neck surgeries and did not work for several years. I have signed up for weight watchers several times and been unable to afford to continue to go to the meetings but tried to continue with the program. I really eat very little I probably eat so little that my body is thinking I am starving it so it is holding onto everything I do eat. I normally do not eat all day long until dinner. So I have tried limiting my food intake severly, I have tried exercise, but it all seems like a lost cause. My son tells me on a regular basis that I am fat or my husband makes remarks that I am fat. For example, I want to cut my hair short and he told me I was to big to have short hair.
I want to get some self confidence and change my life . I feel that if I had weight loss surgery it would help me to feel better about myself. I dress in mainly blue jeans or pajamas everywhere I go because I feel that no matter what I put on it won't look good. I stopped fixing my hair and make-up many years ago because he didn't want me to wear make-up and I figured I was so fat and gross the make-up wouldn't help anyway.
I never really thought about weight loss surgery I just figured I was doomed to be fat regardless until my sister had weight loss surgery last month. When she had this surgery I spoke to my husband about this and was told no he was totally against it. Well now I figure why not I need to be around for my children a long time and the way my health is going I won't be. I have asthma and have had high blood pressure for several years now. I have a daughter and a son and I do not want my children to be fat and made fun of all there lifes. Already other children are making fun of them and telling them how fat there mama is.
Anyway, I am very interested and feel that I have no other alternative but to have weight loss surgery or I am going to end up dying and then who will take care of my children then.
