laekyn
So here I am. 427 pounds. Five foot six inches tall. Needless to say, I had a doctor qualify me as "SUPER OBESE" instead of just the usual Morbidly Obese. I've been on and off diets for a long time. I'm sure I have a similar story to most of you. ( I dont want my child to be embarassed by me. I want to do physical things like ride a horse or go kayaking. I hate the way people look at me and I have become so paranoid because of it. I automatically think people are staring at me and making fun of me)
My bottom half is distinctly disproportionate to my upper half. I have had many people say they had no idea I was as big as I am...until I stand up from a table. Then the truth is revealed. I'm wondering how the weight will come off because I am so disproportionate.
About two months ago...I FINALLY got it in my heart that I needed surgery. Its been in my head for a long time. As a registered nurse myself, I know the health risks and serious side effects of being obese. But it wasn't until the light switched on that I knew I had to do it NOW. There was nothing traumatic, earth shattering or supernatural about my decision. It was as simple as one day waking up and knowing.....This is it.
I had my appointment with the Barix Clinic and Dr. Jon Schram about two weeks ago. I had friends who had gone to the same place and have heard nothing but positive things from them. I was impressed with the wide chairs (and humiliated that I needed the extra wide chair) and was impressed with all of the staff. The surgeon required three things. (1) a sleep study. I had that seven days ago and am awaiting results. (2) A cardiac clearance. I had that three days ago and passed with flying colors. (3) A psychiatric evaluation. This was actually required by my insurance. I had that two days ago and she assured me she will send out the letter of recommendation this week.
So...now its just the waiting game. This is the hardest part so far. Ive talked to friends who have had the surgery. I know what to expect. But I dont think I will truly understand until I'm actually going through it. I will keep this updated.
