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Well it is the night before surgery. I am scared but excited. I have lost 40 pounds before the surgery. Slamming me off all my meds has been tough. I'll write more after the surgery.

Love light and prayers.

Well, I met with the Surgeon. One month to go. They have me on a strict diet. Maybe will have Surgery in May if all the ducks land in the pond. Scared, but excited. The six months of the obesity clinic have helped. I even have made it through the class from hell and more!
Anyway. I don't write much but I will try and post something with each step.

Tah..

Moon

I didn't realize how angry them telling me that I had to go through another eating program for 60 days. I stopped posting. I stopped being on my computer. I stopped caring for myself and started stuffing myself. I feel I am ballooning even higher. I thought that through all of this I wouldn't have this old monster flare up and stair me in the face again...or is is still???

Why...that's the key.

What a busy week. I had my testing for my eating behaviour-passed.
I had my first nutritional evaluation. One of 6 I have to have over a six month period to be considered for surgery. I had my meeting with the physical therapist and monday I have my meeting with the nurse.

I am glad this is moving and I am sad this is moving. I am a bit dissapointed that surgery wont be until June or later due to the insurance requirements. I wanted to go to Florida this summer skinnier than I have been in a while, but I guess this trip will need to wait.

Tomorrow, Saturday I have such a busy day. I have my testing for my College entrance then my sleep apnea testing, I hope I make it through that at this time. I am hoping I don't have sleep apnea but in reality I am pretty sure I do. Maybe I will wake up better with the Cpap machine. I know Perry would love that and in reality so would I. I hate knowing that it's a pain for him to wake me.

My sister found out I am considering surgery. She's pretty concerned. She is starting to beg me not to have surgery. Even suggesting I do LA Weightloss or something. I was proud of myself. I told her that this was somthing I needed to look into and appreciated her concern. I may need to be more forceful in the future but I think she only doing it because she truely loves me. Not to be mean.
Oh well. Time to surft the site. See whats up. I might get to post some photos this weekend. We'll see.

I am very new to this website. I have a question that I currently don’t see posted on the site so please forgive my question if it’s repeated. I think I just got approval for the “Pre-Op” process which I think means I have been given the thumbs up for surgery? One of the processes that has me a bit confused is even at a 65% BMI they are asking me to go through a 6 month weight management program with a dietician. If I miss even one of these appointments per the scheduler I will have to start over and will be considered at month one of the process again. Is this normal?  I am confused since all of my other procedures for my pre operative appointments such as the sleep apnea testing, ekg and so forth are schedules for next week.

 

Rubbing head here confused. Any insight? Thank you for your guidance.

 

-Mare

I just didn't realize how much the mail man means to me. Even after all these years waiting for information to come via mail or the phone is maddenning. Nothing yet. Dissapointed.

Watched a show on the "incredible shrinking woman" scared me a bit, but I am still resolved to follow my doctors lead and follow this through as much as far as I can.

Bad leg day. Ended up getting Pain meds which is so unusual for me.
I just need something postive. Motion in the direction of surgery.
Hope it's soon.

Well I went to the seminar three weeks ago tomorrow and I have all the paperwork in and this waiting is really, really hard. Having all the health issues I have I knew this wouldn't be easy but I never expected this at all. I think the waiting is causing me more anxiety than I ever expected. I know it's hard on my husband and those around me. I never really thought of myself as big until I started taking a "good" look at myself. Behind all the jokes and need to please and do my best I see someone who feel hopelessly trapped in a very fat and painful body. I hope this week brings some news.