kyzir
Where I'm at now.
Aug 24, 2007
Starting weight = 248
Last week = 152
This week = 150
Total loss = 98
My initial goal was to lose 100 pounds and I have just 2 more pounds to go until I hit that goal. Absolutely freakin amazing. Then my next goal is just to have a NORMAL BMI. I am 5'3 so I have to get down to 141 to be in the normal range. I figure 10 more pounds is pretty realistic. Everything after that is pure gravy.
My eating has increased lately and it absolutely terrifies me. I have to get some control on myself. It's amazing how guilt I feel about it. I still follow the rules of no sweets, no fried foods, no pop and move move move. If I keep saying that over and over hopefully it will sink in.
I noticed a major change in my energy level and ability to focus at the end of July. Things got pretty bad at work and I started feeling very overwhelmed. I feel like I am just coasting through every day and I honestly can't seem to focus long enough to get my work done. This has become so extreme and so not like me that I've started becoming worried.
Today I started to think it could be my iron levels are low. (I go back to the doctor at the end of Sept. to get my blood levels checked) Can low iron cause a lack of focus? I took a break on my vitamins for a couple of weeks because I was having some major issues trying to have bowel movements. It is kind of damned if you do and damned if you don't. I take the vitamins I can't go to the bathroom. I don't take the vitamins and ... well nothing good. So what am I to do? Take my vitamins and take a stool softener every day?
Do you know if there is anything I can do to get my focus back and my motivation? I've always been so focused and driven and I really feel confused and loss at how I'm acting right now. It is really an "I don't care" attitude and I've never been like this before.
Well I love my journey and I look forward to what tomorrow holds. I guess we'll see.
My Birthday Shopping Trip on 8/10/2007
Aug 24, 2007
On Friday I played hookie from work and went to Dallas with my Mom so I could have my Birthday Shopping trip. A friend at work had told me about a great outlet mall that was north of Dallas on I75 N. She couldn't remember the name of it but I figured I could find it. She said it was her and her daughters favorite place to go shopping together. So my Mom and I met up around 9am, we hit Starbucks and then headed out. We got to Dallas, got on I75 and figured we would find it eventually. Thankfully it wasn't that hard. Before long there were signs for Allen's Premium Outlet Mall and let me tell you it was freakin awesome. There were so many stores and they were all the top name brand stores. There was everything you could possibly imagine, for example: Ann Taylor, Banana Republic, BCBG Max Azria, Calvin Klein, Cole Haan, Gymboree, J.Crew, Kenneth Cole, Liz Claiborne, Max Studio, Michael Kors, Neiman Marcus Last Call, Nike, Polo Ralph Lauren, Tommy Hilfiger, Waterford, Wedgewood and more.
Here is a link:
http://www.premiumoutlets.com/outlets/outlet.asp?id=5
The site says there is 100 stores. No wonder I was in heaven.
It was so much fun going shopping. I got some wonderful clothes and I can honestly say that is the most fun I've had shopping for myself ever. EVER IN MY LIFE. It was so wonderful. Losing so much weight has made such a big change and it was so amazing that all the stores actually had clothes that fit me. I was in one store and I tried on size 10 slacks. They Were Tooo Big!! I'm now in size 8. Holy Smokes. Just 9 months ago I was in size 22-24. Never in my life can I remember being lower than a 12 and I was a size 12 when I was 12 years old. I just went up from there.
I also tried on this little size 8 black dress and I almost started crying in the dressing room. I just stood there staring at myself in the mirror totally stunned. It looked so wonderful on me. It fit me. It was like someone stole my body and gave me a different one. I couldn't believe it. I now own a cute little black dress. I've always wanted to be able to wear one and it look good. Now I can say I have one and it DOES look good. I absolutely have no where to wear it but dammit I own one.
My mom and I only made it to like 1/4 of the stores and we were exhausted. We had so much fun together and it was just so exciting getting to spend some quality time together. We did a lot of talking and bonding which we really needed. We haven't been as close the last couple of months and it was like we got a day to repair and be friends again. I can't thank her enough for everything she has done for me. She is the biggest support and champion I will ever have. I'm truly blessed to have her in my life. Thank you Mom.
When we got back to Tyler we went to my Aunt's apartment to show her the clothes and it was so great her reaction. She loved what I had bought and she said I looked sexxy. I felt sexxy. It was probably one of the best moments I have had in a really long time.
So if you want to have one heck of a time shopping this is definitely the place to go. Actually I think we are heading up there next week to do a little more shopping. Woot!!!!
Just over 5 months have past
Apr 16, 2007
Well my 5 month anniversary was on April 10th and I couldn't be happier. I am now weighing 179! Woot!! I'm in the 170's. I was worried that I was losing really slow but looking back at my post I was 188 on March 6th, so no complaints here. I have about 31 pounds until I hit my goal of 148. I think I would actually like to get a little below that but I'm not worried about it. I have a bet, well not really a bet, whoever wins just gets bragging rights. But anyways I have this bet with my cousin to see if we can lose 10 pounds by May 1st. Seems like a pretty tall order but I'm sure going to try. My Mom and Aunt heard about the bet so they are in on it too. My Aunt says she will win because she has the most to lose and my Mom was sick over the weekend and dropped 3 pounds so she thinks she will win. A little modivation never hurt anyone.
I go back home to Oklahoma for my cousin's graduation on May 20th. Most of my family back home haven't seen me since last summer and they have no idea I have lost weight. I'm really excited to go back and see them. My brother came here for Easter and the first thing he said was "Boy you look different." Then later he told me that if he was walking down a street and passed me he would never have known I was his sister. He just kept looking at me and seemed to be trying to figure me out. It was great and it made me feel so good.
So going home to Oklahoma is also giving me a little modivation to lose this 10 pounds for the bet. I'm walking more and since the weather is so nice I want to be outside all the time. I would really like to buy a new bike to ride around. I'll have to see about doing that.
Well chat at ya later.
60 Pounds Gone
Mar 05, 2007
I am doing great, I keep singing in my head this morning "Oh Happy Day!" I weighed this morning and I weighed 188. YES!!! 60 pounds gone!! OMG. I couldn't be more happy. I feel like a new person. I love when people see me who haven't seen me in a while and go on and on about how I've change. I know my vanity and ego are showing through, but it just feels so good. This is probably one of the only times in my life that I actually love myself. That is quite a revolution for me! My mom was telling me the other day that I have always been pretty to her, but right now I glow from within and it makes me so beautiful. That felt really good to hear.
I started at Curves yesterday and let me tell ya, it kicked my butt. I couldn't believe how out of shape I was. Holy Smokes I have some work to do. It felt so good though and I'm really looking forward to going back.
Well I need to get going with work today so I better go. I hope everyone has a great day! Just 40 more pounds till goal!! YAY!!!
Update
Feb 09, 2007
Below 200!!!
Jan 22, 2007
Stricture
Jan 22, 2007
Lurker No More!
Jan 11, 2007
http://www.myspace.com/kyzir
Oh and I'll post some more up-to-date pictures soon!!
