kmalone25
I have been a big girl since about the fourth grade. I never got teased growing up so I never realized the toll it would eventually cause on my life to come. When I was 13yrs old my family and I moved to Georgia and well I gained a lot of weight while living there. But I still wasn't aware of how big I had gotten. Years went by and I realized as time went by I needed to lose some weight seeing that I was the biggest person of all the cousins and my sisters. I tryed every diet u could imagine: Slim fast, weight watchers, atkins, low sodium soup diets, fad diets... you name it I tryed it. About 4 yrs ago my father, who is a big man also, opted to have the Lap band and I watched him through it. I was impressed so I chose to do 2yrs worth of research. About a yr and a half ago I realized that I was having some real health issues like having a hard time losing weight on my own, excess facial hair, irregular periods, problems sleeping, and I realized my daily activily was getting less and less. I went to an endocronologist and that was the day I saw myself in a new light. I stepped on the scale and it read an ugly 310lbs. I was in shock!! I had never been that big, EVER! I found out that I had polycystic ovary disease, I has more testosterone, high blood pressure, high glucose, borderline diabetes, and I had a case of insulin resistance, which was not making it easy to lose weight. I sat in my car after the appt with her and just cried. I, from that day, saw myself differently. I went from being happy all the time and going out with friends, to not like myself, staying home and not wanting to go out like I use to. This has put a strain on my social life terribly. In the midst of it all, I met someone and we got engaged. My feeling of embaressment has done a number on my relationship. I had sat down with the man I am going to marry and told him about this surgery I want to have and shared with him my research. He told me he loved me no matter what I look like and if this is something I wanted to do it was up to me, but he would continue to love me. So a yr ago I started my journey. Here I am a year later exactly with my surgery date and I am excited to see the outcome. I know this isn't a "quick" fix, but a mear push to help me get even more focused. I look forward to the day I can cross my legs like a lady, run the bases in softball and cross home plate, go out again and feel beautiful, and to wear a wedding dress down the aisle to the man of my dreams.
