Kimmiejean
Confused
Apr 29, 2007
I am soo confused. This seems like a good place to journal it out. I want so badly to be healthy. I am sooo afraid for my future with or without surgery. I have been unable to lose weight without drastically changing my diet and working out all the time. It would awesome if I could just maintain a healthy weight for the remainder of my life. The more weight I gain the more depressed I get. Medication has helped to level out my depression but that doesn't mean the weight just falls off. I tried to paint the other day for hours and my body is unable to handle the amount of weight I am carrying. I am also right on the border of being able to qualify for WLS. I hear so many good and bad things about having the surgery. I can see the horrible side effect from being obese. My entire family is obese and we all suffer. I can feel the pain on my joints and my lower back. What is better? Having the side effects from surgery or living a life of constant pain and supressed immunity. Ok, obviously I am needing to vent a little. Right now I am giving it to god. I truly believe whatever is meant for me will happen. I just have to have faith. Thanks for listening. Whew, feel a little better now. God bless the blog.
~Kimmie
~Kimmie
