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I have lost 70 lbs since August. Whoot Whoot! That puts me at 53 (I believe) since surgery 2 and a half months ago. WOW! Thank you Dr.Wynn and CHRIAS/PMRI for all the help to get me to where I am today. I have so much further to go but now it is not so bleak. For once I actually feel as though I can accomplish my weight loss goals .  

I had my 2 month check up last week at PMRI and my labs are great! I just had to cut back on the B12 because my levels were high. My D3 deficiency is gone, wow! And my blood pressure was amazing (IMO) at 118/70. My cholesterol was good and I am no longer prediabetic!!!!!! I am hoping that with the increase in exercise I will be able to continue keeping my bp down and when I go back to my NP in Feb that she will be able to either reduce or completely take me off my bp meds. As I have written before, getting off my medications was one of the biggest driving forces behind me having this surgery. 

I am feeling fantastic. Last night was another support group meeting and these folks are a hoot. I got to meet a girl i met off of here turned text buddy. And she was totally awesome (so was her mom) I hope we can become friends! I am exercising more. I go to Planet Fitness. Mostly alone but sometimes a lady from work will meet up with me.  I am also starting zumba classes at her 2nd job at the Police Athletic League in town on Wednesday nights. The classes are free but they ask, if you can, to tip the instructor since she isn't being paid. That I will gladly do, i can't afford much but at least it is something. Tomorrow I am going to he gym and going to overcome my self consciousness and just start doing some weight training. I have been sticking to cardio because I feel so self-conscious when I am in there that I don't even attempt the weight area.  But, these muscles aren't going to grow themselves so I gotta hop to it. At the rate I am going I should beat my first goal of being down to 300 lbs by April in the next week or 2. I can't believe it. If I can do it, and I have total faith in myself, then i will be down 81 lbs since August. WOW! About 6 months and 81 lbs. Areyoufreakingkiddingme?!?!?!?! I am busting my butt to try and make that happen!

I have  had so much energy lately it has been keeping me up at night. I didn't use to have this much energy. But this past month or so I have noticed my levels going way up! My mood has greatly improved. The only that has kinda got me bummed is that for all the weight I have lost so far I haven't really changed any clothing sizes. I know it is because I was busting out of the size I had been wearing but so far all the weight has come off of my arms, chest, and legs. Not off my waist or stomach which is where I carry all my weight. Grr! But I am going to keep trucking along because I know soner or later I am going to have clothes that are to big and when that happens I just so happen to have a closet full smaller clothes ready to be taken off the hanger and worn!

Time for me to get some stuff done so I can hit up the gym in a few hours!

I am going nuts. I can't stand it. First and foremost, the number one reason I set out to have this surgery is so I can be as healthy as I possibly can and live a full, happy, healthy life with my husband. Second? We want kids so badly. And what do I see when I get online yesterday? Princess Kate is pregnant. My friend Shelley is pregnant, a good friend from high school? Pregnant. My best friend calls me today and lets me listen to my beautiful 4 month old "nephew" coo and "talk".

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
 

I have known since I was 12 years old that I wanted to be a Mom when I was older. It might sound a little Leave it to Beaver but I want to be June. 2 kids, husband, dinner on the table. And all these people are out and getting pregnant. I know that it is not a race. GB and I will get to that point in the future when I am as healthy as I can be. But until then? I am so jealous. I hate admitting that. But I can't tell my friends that I am green with envy over their news. Cause I AM happy for them. I AM excited for them. But I am so totally jealous of them. 

In a moment of complete stupidity earlier this year, GB and I stopped my b.c. and just kept on lovin' without anything to prevent pregnancy. However, you don't get pregnant if you don't get your period and don't ovulate. So, fast forward, and here we are at the end of the year, 11 months after stopping my b.c, and one month post-op. This time we're going to do it right. 

I'm making an appointment with the gyno. to get on b.c. as soon as I finish my blood thinner shots that I got sent home on from the hospital. And when I am at a healthy weight that I have been able to attain and my surgeon and NP gives me the go ahead, then we'll start trying! 

Until that time comes, I am putting forth all my baby crazy into making great grades on my finals, making better grades next semester, and working as hard as I can to drop this excess weight. And of course, keep lovin' on my super awesome dude! (Yeah, I give him props every post, but he totally deserves it so bear with me)

Trying to keep myself in check-

Kendra

Whenever I get above a certain weight I stop getting my period. And so, I haven't had my period in nearly a year. The last time this happened, I lost 25 lbs (my most ever) and my gynocologist gave me some pill that jump started my period since I had every symptom I normally got when I would get my period (irritability, cramps, hot flashes, being extra hungry) except for the actual period. It worked and I kept it until I went up to my highest (at the time) weight. So since February I haven't had my period. 

Well GB told me earlier this week "Baby, I love you. But you are being extra grouchy and mean." And I remarked to him that I felt like I normally did right before I got my period. My stomach was crampy, and even though since the surgery I have been cold all the time, I had been getting hot flashes, and worst of all, even though I am almost a month out from RNY, I had been stuck on the same weight for a week. 

(this next bit is probably TMI, so don't say you weren't warned)

I went to the bathroom today and what do I see???? Something pretty dang reminiscent of my period!!!!!!!!! I am so excited! Now, will it do anything more than just spot a little and disappear in a few hours? Or will it stay for a week? I have no clue. But for now I couldn't be happier to see that it is actually trying to make its reappearance. 

The other cool thing? I had to do a little begging and cajoling but I finally won out and GB brought me the scale from his super secret hiding spot. I have finally broken through the stubborn weight stay I have been at for the past week. I am down 4 lbs. I am thrilled!!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Was that too over the top?

Alright, well I am off to finish this movie with the hubs and then we're out to take a little bike ride!

Kendra

It went great! Dr. Wynn was very happy. My steri-stitches are off.  Also, I am not itching so much since they came off.I am down 35 lbs since August, which is awesome. I see Dr. Irgau in 2 weeks for my one month post-op. I hope to be down another 15 or so lbs by then. I can't wait to start lifting light weights. I am hoping to prevent as much flabby skin as I can.

Went to Target and got my helmet so GB will finally let me out of our parking lot, lol. I can't wait to gain the endurance to ride all over town on my super awesome retro-looking bike!

The only negative experience I have had since coming home is I have throw up a few times. It was my fault. I overfilled my pouch/eaten to quickly. Lesson learned my friends. I bought a watch so I can time myself on my meals and a food scale to make sure I am taking enough time to eat and making sure I properly weigh my food so I monitor exactly the amount eaten.  So far, so good.  But, I definitely think it was easier when doing only liquids to gauge how full I was than now with liquids and food.

I am trying very hard not to weigh myself every day. Knowing that I am losing weight quickly makes it hard because I like seeing results. But, knowing that you fluctuate 1-3 lbs daily, I am trying hard to only do it once a week. I don't want to get disappointed if one day is a pound or two higher than the previous. So my loving husband has kindly put it away and out of sight. 

I can't sing his praises enough. He has been nothing but 10,000,000,000,000 % supportive. I love that man! Anything I need help with, anything I want to try to do, helping me try to get enough protein in. He has stood right there beside me. Awesomeness!

I am still so surprised and proud of myself for having the guts to go through with the surgery. I have always been big and then later, fat.  I always manage to chicken out of things that are tough, or scary, or intimidating, But this time I knew I had to do something. Losing weight on my own just wasn't happening. Sure, I'd lose a few lbs here or there but always, Always, ALWAYS, I'd wind up gaining it back the second I let the strictness slide. So, yeah, I am surprised. But proud. I want to live a long life with Greg. I want to have our children. I want to live a happy life. There are many emotions that came with this whole process but I wouldn't change them for the world. Now, I can't wait to experience all that healthy living will help me do!

Kendra

I can't believe how great I feel for the most part. My planter fasciitis hasn't given me one ounce of trouble since the day of surgery. I am losing weight- 15 lbs since I left the hospital. 

The only thing I seem to be having trouble with is getting all my medicines down. Crushing these pills is completely disgusting. And seeing as how I can't get much food down I'm putting more of the meds on the spoon which makes it taste worse and makes me gag. Just goes round and round. 

I am lucky. So far I have had no complications from surgery. Greg is giving me the blood thinner shot every morning since I can't seem to stick myself with the needle (thank God I am not diabetic!). Walking around campus has given me a bit of a workout every day. Plus, we just bought me the coolest new bike at Target Monday night. Tomorrow I plan on going for a ride around our apartment. I couldn't last night because of the rain and tonight I had class until 10 pm. 

My 2 week post-op visit with my surgeon is on Friday. I can't wait to hear what she has to say!

Kendra