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Weight this morning... 135.  Amazing.. I guess my body isn't ready to be done losing yet.

I had my drivers license picture redone yesterday.   A couple weeks ago I was pulled over for having a headlight out.  The policeman did not think it was really me in the picture.  So yesterday, I had my picture redone.  For the first time in my life, I didn't lie about the weight section of the form.  I think this would qualify for a WOW moment.

Also had a consult for plastics yesterday.  Tummy tuck and boob job.  Now just have to wait on the email with the estimate.  I know I can't afford this.  I can't afford anything right now.  I just wanted to see what I was looking at for expense.  Hey you never know.. someone has to win that dang lottery...crap I better go buy a ticket.

My oldest daughter is coming to stay with me this weekend.  We are going to get dolled up and go dancing....need to shake what's left of my booty...
So all you dancing boys..... watch out

LOL

Today I weigh 138.  I am 12 lbs below my personal goal.  I can not believe this...amazing.  I changed my goal on my ticker to 140.   

Since my last post... i have calmed down a little.  I made a new friend here that has helped me so much...Thanks Nancy.
I am feeling healthy and trying to be brave.  I am still loosing weight.  This morning  141.  I haven't been this small since I was in 8th grade.  I bought jeans this weekend.. size 5/6.  Medium and sometimes small shirts.  This is amazing... I wish I would have done this 20 years ago... I wonder what my life would have been like if I had.. would I have made better choices... can't go back
Time to go forward... time to be brave.. finally

I posted this on the forum a few days ago.  Had a huge response.  I want to reply to all those nice people that sent kind words my way. 

I am just having such a hard time with this.. I am not functioning well.

I have been with this man since I was 18 years old.  I just don't know how to live with out him.

Just when I thought I was getting my life back,  It feels like it has been taken away.

Wednesday morning I got on the scale and it read 149.5...
I have not weighed that since I was a freshman in high school
I grabbed the camera to take a pic and then the scale went up to 150  lol

Okay now.... the real work starts ... maintain this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can do this
I have to

Saw my surgeon Friday.  All is well.... YES!!!  Just a stitch coming out from an incision in my belly button had become infected.  The good doc removed this and checked my belly all over and extended my antibiotics another 5 days.

I talked to him about what my boss had said about the lifelong medical issues.  His comment was... "sounds like your boss is a jerk"

ha haha hah a

I also asked him if he would encourage one of his loved ones to have this surgery..he said yes.. and that he has.   This means a lot to me.  This helps to ease my mind greatly.

Thanks Dr. Lemieur for taking such great care of me!!!!

Ok... another complication.. Hopefully this one will not be too bad.  Started having some tenderness around belly button last week.  Was pretty sore for a day or two then went away.  Wednesday morning woke up with a lump and more tenderness in the belly button and a red imflammed patch running down from my belly button.  Called my surgeon...he ordered me antibiotics and I see him tomorrow morning and will also have my blood work done.
Last night when I got home from work I have all this pus draining from belly button now...crap crap crap.

I am over 1 month out from my last surgery (ventral hernia repair).
What the heck is up with my body!!!!???

Got into work today and told my boss what was up....she says "oh Kelly I went to a conference last week on the speaker there said that people that have had bariatric surgery have life long medical problems!!!!!!!!!!!  

Just Great

I had another surgery on 4/1/09.  This time a ventral hernia repair.  I am having more pain this time than I had with the other 2 surgeries.  Time for this to be done.  My surgeon called me at home on Friday to check up on me.  I answer the phone and he goes "hey Kelly this is Tim"   Apparently we are on a first name basis now... ha ha.

I have lost 72.5 lbs since surgery.  92.5 lbs since I started the program.   I have had complications and haven't been able to exercise hardly at all.  I wonder how much I would have lost if I had been able to exercise. 

I am turning the corner I think...I might even be glad I did this....

Ok I am 4 months out from my RNY.  Still having some buyers remorse. .... but now I can finally start eating some normal foods.  Making me feel like a more normal person.  The weight loss is slow.  Down 61 lbs since surgery.  I haven't really lost anything at all this month.  Need to exercise more.  Still just so dang tired and weak from all this extra health issues and from the second surgery. 

The thing that is amazing me at this point.  I am hungry... not just head hunger.... real physical.. weak in the knees hunger.  It's a let down.  Feels like a restrictive diet... just like before surgery... back in the same damn ballgame....

This has been hard.  SO hard that I have wanted to give up.  I have been in the hospital for 2 weeks.  My omentum infarction has turned into a baseball size abcess.  They put a needle in with a drain and started me on antibiotics.  Didn't take care of it.  Vomiting.... vomniting... weakness back in hospital.  Surgery on Christmas Eve to remove abcess.  Lots of IV's, put in a picc line.. feeding tube.  Kids home for Christmas,,visiting me in hospital... me too out of it to even enjoy them.  The skin on my arms and elbows raw and sore from being in a hospital bed for so long.

Came home from hospital on 12/28/08.  Staples in my belly ... so weak I can hardly walk to the bathroom... head aches all the time... malnutrition taking it's toll.  Liver not functioning properly.  Back to hospital this friday for another CT scan and ultrasound.  Hope liver is recovering.

I need prayers and lots of them.

 Kelly