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Hi All,
God is great all the time!  I have lost a total of about 240 lbs.  I am still losing but very, very slowly.  I am looking for ways to pick it up a bit to reach my final goal of 258 pounds total loss.  I have a new personal trainer and I am looking at better eating plans to boost my weight loss....but the wonderful thing is I am still going down clothes sizes, looking healthier, and feeling happier.
Keep me your prayer and I will keep you in mine.  Love you OH Family! 

I was disappointed about  promotion I did not get.  I found myself eating badly all weekend.... I think I gained a pound or two, too scared to check.....  I am trying to get back to the regimen but it is hard when you fall off the wagon.  I keep telling myself failure is not an option... going back to where I came from is not an option....JESUS help me!  

Ok, y'all it is coming off again! Thank you God!  I am only 30lbs until goal.  I feel so wonderful.  I am close enough to touch it!  Thank God, Thank God!  I feel like a new woman.  I am so pschyed!  Man this is great.  I am truly loving life!

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I had to weigh twice to be sure.  I thought something was wrong with the scale.  I am in awe, I lost an addition 7 pounds.....214 pounds lost in total!  I am so happy.  I am coming within in striking range of my goal.  My doctor thinks with my skin remove I may overshoot my goal, but I have had worse problems than that.  I traveled this road with a little trepidation but made it through blessed and highly favored.  I am walking in my season. 

I have lost 205 pounds.  I say it outloud just so I can hear it.  It is so surreal.  I thank God he provided me with the oportunity to take this journey.  This is not a journey that is easy, that is straight forward, that is to be taken lightly.  This journey is traveled more in the mind than in any other vessel.  The body undergoes such drastic and dramatic changes.  I have had all kinds of weird things change.  Doctors have told me a lot of it is due to the rapid weight loss and my body trying to catch up.  The funny thing is as swift as my mind has been accredited with being, it is really slow.  I have a rough time catching up in my mind.  I walk up to a mirror and almost forget who is looking back at me.  I am suffering with self esteem issues that I did not have in my bigger body,  as strange as that may seem.  I think the weight (extreme as it was) was a blanket or covering of sorts.  It was a protection, people did not bother me, in fact sometimes people ignored me probably to avoid staring or saying something rude....but it worked for me, or maybe I became used to that.  Now I am floored with the weird comments.  I am floored with the positive comments.  I am even more floored with the blatent sexual advances and overt come-ons.  I have had people I previously considered friends (males) to say the most unbelievably sexually charged comments... do they think that is complimentary???? Wow anyway.  I am dealing with many mental issues while enjoying improved physical health.  I say once again Thank God!

I am 11 months post op.  I have lost a grand total of 188 pounds to date.  I am proud in a way, but I notice as well as those around me notice that I am not happy.  Have any of you suffered like this?  I am not sure why but I don't have that old jolly feeling.  I guess part of it is worrying that my goal is still so far off, the other part is praying that I don't turn this bus around and head back to Hugeville.  Any advice and any comments are welcome.  Stay blessed y'all. (I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me....{this is my self affirmation})

I am thankful to God for so many things.  Of course we all have our ups and downs, but through it all God is good.  I am more than thankful for improved and constantly improving health.  This time last year I was more than 170lbs  heavier than I am now.  Thank you Jesus!  This time next year I am sure I will have taken off the addition 80 lbs I want to lose.

I am a bit loopy.  My personal trainer is also my best friend, he and I have been friends for over 15 years (more to that story later).  I feel guilty because he is spending time training me that he could be earning big bucks.  I insisted on paying him something but even at that it is very little.  He insist it is not necessary to pay him but I feel bad because this is his living.  So sometimes I skip going to prevent pulling him away from real paying customers.   This is crazy because I need to work out regularly, I am fighting with myself!  Plus.....instead of losing an average of 5 pounds a week, I am losing around 3 a week.  I am really at a loss for what to do to do right all the way around! HELP! and as always PRAY 4 ME!

I  have lost over 150 pounds so far, but......I am now able to eat more.  While my family says I still eat little bits to me it is too much, its a lot more than I used to eat.  I am really afraid with the holidays approaching.  Lord, Help Me!  I did not come this far to turn around now.  Anyone have advice for the holidays.  I am really nervous.  I want to lose at least 100 more pounds and maintain there. This is not as easy as people think it is.  By the way I got a personal trainer, I start on Sunday.  I will let you know how it goes.  PRAY 4 ME!!!