KatMom
stuck bleh
Aug 29, 2012
When I saw my doctor a week or so after surgery he wanted me to schedule my next appt about now. Which is a month or so out. He said he wants to help me thru this time because it will be the toughest time of the recovery. He said at this time the pouch exit will have scar tissue all around it and it will become very small so what I ate before, the amount and size will be cut in half!
I finally know what he is talking about. Yuck. No matter what I eat, soup, fish, meat, water...it all feels like it is getting 'stuck'. No matter the amount, I can only eat like 3 spoonfuls and its that stuck feeling. Zero appetite.
He said this does not last. The scar tissue softens up and things get better but I see him next week and I want to ask how long does that take. Right now I am on soft foods but all I want to eat now is soup. I feel it is the only thing that will go down and the only thing I can get calories from.
I have not weighed myself in about a week. I, like everyone else, has a weight that goes up and down but I know it does not last. How can it with the little bits that are eaten? I do not get discouraged by the numbers but by how I FEEL. Feeling healthy is the only thing that matters anymore.
I wish I had the stamina to go shopping with my daughter without snapping at her because I feel lousy. I feel weak, faint and naseous and I'm tired of that whole thing.
I pray it gets better and soon.
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I finally know what he is talking about. Yuck. No matter what I eat, soup, fish, meat, water...it all feels like it is getting 'stuck'. No matter the amount, I can only eat like 3 spoonfuls and its that stuck feeling. Zero appetite.
He said this does not last. The scar tissue softens up and things get better but I see him next week and I want to ask how long does that take. Right now I am on soft foods but all I want to eat now is soup. I feel it is the only thing that will go down and the only thing I can get calories from.
I have not weighed myself in about a week. I, like everyone else, has a weight that goes up and down but I know it does not last. How can it with the little bits that are eaten? I do not get discouraged by the numbers but by how I FEEL. Feeling healthy is the only thing that matters anymore.
I wish I had the stamina to go shopping with my daughter without snapping at her because I feel lousy. I feel weak, faint and naseous and I'm tired of that whole thing.
I pray it gets better and soon.
Crappy feeling
Aug 27, 2012
So I'm sitting here with a homemade bowl of chicken noodle soup that hubby made and I had about 3 tablespoons and yuck....stomach just kickin' high gear again. I had an Ensure Clear drink this morning and its not sitting well. Been by the toilet a lot. Yuck.
Yesterday I had 3 spoonfuls of spasagna that I made and a WW muffin thats it. That muffin had to have had too much sugar in it, I felt light headed and dizzy and weird afterwards even tho it only had brown sugar it had too much I guess.
I just don't feel like eating at all but I know I have to and it sucks. Food smells good and I remember the tastes but I just have zero appetite and no desire to even try. I still resent this surgery and I still would never recommend it to anyone who has not tried EVERYthing else beforehand.
This is NOT the easy way out and I wish folk could understand that.
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Yesterday I had 3 spoonfuls of spasagna that I made and a WW muffin thats it. That muffin had to have had too much sugar in it, I felt light headed and dizzy and weird afterwards even tho it only had brown sugar it had too much I guess.
I just don't feel like eating at all but I know I have to and it sucks. Food smells good and I remember the tastes but I just have zero appetite and no desire to even try. I still resent this surgery and I still would never recommend it to anyone who has not tried EVERYthing else beforehand.
This is NOT the easy way out and I wish folk could understand that.
Not happy this time of year....cuz......
Aug 20, 2012
Cuz.....there are all these farmer stands and pick your owns offering up peaches, apples, corn...such fresh delicious foods.............UGH!!!
We went picking gala apples yesterday and all I could do was bite into one and chew then spit. The juice was SO sweet and good.
Now hubby is making corn on the cob for Rach my youngest and it smells SO good.
I know...its a small price to pay for weight loss. I can do it. I can eat corn next season maybe. Amazing how I wish I could have a salad. I love salads. I'm 1 month out and feel okay, time went by fast so far, still weak when I walk a lot or stand a lot, still pain in my left side of rib but it could be so much worse.
I guess its just a 'whoa is me' kinda day.
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We went picking gala apples yesterday and all I could do was bite into one and chew then spit. The juice was SO sweet and good.
Now hubby is making corn on the cob for Rach my youngest and it smells SO good.
I know...its a small price to pay for weight loss. I can do it. I can eat corn next season maybe. Amazing how I wish I could have a salad. I love salads. I'm 1 month out and feel okay, time went by fast so far, still weak when I walk a lot or stand a lot, still pain in my left side of rib but it could be so much worse.
I guess its just a 'whoa is me' kinda day.
So much?
Aug 15, 2012
I don't know....I read the sample menus on my diet website from the hospital and I do not eat half as much as I should. I know I'm not getting all my protein, I know that is NOT good. I worry what my test results will be once I have to get them.
I hate the protein powders and drinks and am trying to get it in by real foods but I eat only Tspoons, barely a 1/4 c of anything let alone 3 meals a day with all the supplements inbetween. I feel good. I healed and am healing well. Am I on track? I don't see my surgeon until Sept. so....am wondering.
Yesterday I was away from home all day. Ate 3 Tspoons of smashed up pork. Drank tea and water until dinnertime when we went to Taco Bell and I had 4 Tspoons of pinto beans/refriend beans mashed up.
I'm afraid my body is going to start eating itself and that just can't be good. Today has got to be a better day.
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I hate the protein powders and drinks and am trying to get it in by real foods but I eat only Tspoons, barely a 1/4 c of anything let alone 3 meals a day with all the supplements inbetween. I feel good. I healed and am healing well. Am I on track? I don't see my surgeon until Sept. so....am wondering.
Yesterday I was away from home all day. Ate 3 Tspoons of smashed up pork. Drank tea and water until dinnertime when we went to Taco Bell and I had 4 Tspoons of pinto beans/refriend beans mashed up.
I'm afraid my body is going to start eating itself and that just can't be good. Today has got to be a better day.
Blocked I guess..
Aug 14, 2012
So all day yesterday my family and I were far from home. For breakfast I ate beef and onion soup, about 4 T spoons. Lunch I had 4 T spoons of broccoli soup and bam...diarrhea. Ugh. Not a pretty sight. I had to have hubby stop halfway to our destination in Jersey to go to the bathroom.
I felt better after that. I do not know if it was the breakfast soup or the lunch soup but either did not sit well.
Dinner we stopped at Boston Market where I took some of hubby's chicken and mashed and smashed it with a bit of cranberry sauce and ate that. Unfortunately I drank too soon afterwards and got a 'stuck' feeling that is so awful. That juice came up my throat like I was going to throwup and it was like man oh man....I need room to breathe!!!!
Today I had a bit of spinach with garlic from BM and a bit of cooked cauliflower. I stopped with the cooked spinach because it felt a bit stringy to me. Lunch was haddock that I smashed with my fork and about 3 Tspoons.
Now I feel that stuck feeling again. Will it pass? I'm scared to eat any dinner or to drink. I tried drinking and got that stuck feeling.
I'm going to take a small sip of tea........cross your fingers!!!
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I felt better after that. I do not know if it was the breakfast soup or the lunch soup but either did not sit well.
Dinner we stopped at Boston Market where I took some of hubby's chicken and mashed and smashed it with a bit of cranberry sauce and ate that. Unfortunately I drank too soon afterwards and got a 'stuck' feeling that is so awful. That juice came up my throat like I was going to throwup and it was like man oh man....I need room to breathe!!!!
Today I had a bit of spinach with garlic from BM and a bit of cooked cauliflower. I stopped with the cooked spinach because it felt a bit stringy to me. Lunch was haddock that I smashed with my fork and about 3 Tspoons.
Now I feel that stuck feeling again. Will it pass? I'm scared to eat any dinner or to drink. I tried drinking and got that stuck feeling.
I'm going to take a small sip of tea........cross your fingers!!!
Family Doctor visit
Aug 10, 2012
So I had a visit with my family doctor for the pain I'm having in my hip, back and shoulders when I walk. I got a prescription for a walker with a seat and I pray that will help until I work through this. I do not know if it is a nerve pinched or lack of vitamin D which I just found out my blood work has me at an 11 for Vitamin D and the low normal is a 30....sheesh! So I am on mega doses of it now. Here I'm taking calcium and that is no good without Vitamin D!!
Ugh....otherwise I'm okay. I just want the icky pain and feelings of wanting to lay down after walking to GO AWAY!
I am eating well, 1/2 pureed and 1/2 soft foods. My husband is so sweet and helping me with my foods, he is a doll!
My stomach is still sore. My points of entry are scabby but not bleeding. I don't have to pee more then once a day and rarely ever do I have to get up at night to go. And boy can I sleep! My husband says I do not snore anymore! Woohoo for him!!!
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Ugh....otherwise I'm okay. I just want the icky pain and feelings of wanting to lay down after walking to GO AWAY!
I am eating well, 1/2 pureed and 1/2 soft foods. My husband is so sweet and helping me with my foods, he is a doll!
My stomach is still sore. My points of entry are scabby but not bleeding. I don't have to pee more then once a day and rarely ever do I have to get up at night to go. And boy can I sleep! My husband says I do not snore anymore! Woohoo for him!!!
1st dr appt after surgery
Aug 06, 2012
So went to the clinic thinking I lost maybe 5 lbs and saw I lost 11 instead. Dr Meyers said I am right on track and wants to see me in a month. He said at that time, it will be the hardest because my exit from my new pouch will be scarred and shrunken and I will not be able to eat as much as I can now and I might have a difficult time and he wants to help me through it. Can I say I love my surgeon? Super guy, super dr, super bedside manners. I wish everyone could have someone like him.
I told him I was not moving like I should be because its too hot out and he said 'well don't you think its time? go to the mall'....yeah I can't disagree with him. I just can't wait until our new house is finished and I can just do it in my own gym. But tomorrow starts my walking regime. Pray its not hot!
Oh and the pureed stuff isn't bad at all. I'm not having any problems with taste or finding things to puree so ...it's all good.
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I told him I was not moving like I should be because its too hot out and he said 'well don't you think its time? go to the mall'....yeah I can't disagree with him. I just can't wait until our new house is finished and I can just do it in my own gym. But tomorrow starts my walking regime. Pray its not hot!
Oh and the pureed stuff isn't bad at all. I'm not having any problems with taste or finding things to puree so ...it's all good.
Officially starting purees.....hmm
Aug 02, 2012
So purees....well...they certainly are not a thing of beauty, especially the meats but if you can get past the view and if you can liven up the taste with spices and such then all is well.
I've learned to boil meat then blend it then spice it etc...learning what is enuf when it comes to quantity...ouch...the new belly sure lets me know. Frankly I eat because I know I have to not because I want to. I have no appetite and no true full feeling until it hurts then its only after a few spoonfuls and its like my brain says no...that isn't a full hurt its something else...you only just started to eat what do you mean I'm full?
So...hubby is happy to try all new ingredients on me and I'm trying to tell him I do not want anything special just puree up stuff the rest of the family is eating. I'll eat it too.
Tomorrow is a try on pureed chili. Yum.
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I've learned to boil meat then blend it then spice it etc...learning what is enuf when it comes to quantity...ouch...the new belly sure lets me know. Frankly I eat because I know I have to not because I want to. I have no appetite and no true full feeling until it hurts then its only after a few spoonfuls and its like my brain says no...that isn't a full hurt its something else...you only just started to eat what do you mean I'm full?
So...hubby is happy to try all new ingredients on me and I'm trying to tell him I do not want anything special just puree up stuff the rest of the family is eating. I'll eat it too.
Tomorrow is a try on pureed chili. Yum.
Hey, Hey!!!...8 days post op!
Jul 31, 2012
Wow, what a difference a day makes, or 2 or 3. I still feel blah most mornings but once I am over that few hour blahs it gets better. No pain, just a pinch or pull now and then. I still cannot sleep in my side which sucks but I'm willing to just give it time. Its weird how it feels like my organs are just sloshing around in there. Didn't they tie them down?...lol...actually I don't know.
I'm not getting all my protein down and I am trying to get protein from ANYwhere but those nasty powders. COME ON puree days! God I never thought I'd say that but man...if I could eat meat instead of powder, there has got to be a difference!
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I'm not getting all my protein down and I am trying to get protein from ANYwhere but those nasty powders. COME ON puree days! God I never thought I'd say that but man...if I could eat meat instead of powder, there has got to be a difference!
Feeling blah..
Jul 28, 2012
So 4 days post op and doing okay. I feel so nauseous, so blah, no energy and I am drinking my protein, fluids and getting down yogurt or soup. No real pain to complain of, some spasming that the dr described I would have.
Hubby and children treating me well, and I only need to ask and its done. Kind of tempting to let myself get spoiled but I know in the long run it is not good for me.
I feel quite bloated, puffy and blah. Did I say that already? heh..
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Hubby and children treating me well, and I only need to ask and its done. Kind of tempting to let myself get spoiled but I know in the long run it is not good for me.
I feel quite bloated, puffy and blah. Did I say that already? heh..
