Katfuzzwwec
My name is Kat. I'm happily married to a wonderful man, and have 2 cats I call my furbabies. We do not have children together.
Here's a little of my diet history....
I've been struggling with my weight almost all of my life. I started gaining weight in 3rd grade. And been trying diets since that time, with success at various times. But nothing has ever lasted. When I was in 7th grade I lost 50lbs in 2 months taking the Acutrim (sp?) diet pill from the local drug store, (coupled with excess exercise and starvation)... I gained it back plus more within a year. Then when I was about 19 I lost 80 pounds counting 30 or less fat grams a day, and some exercise...Once again not a long term keeping it off, plus I added more in the end. Then in 1996 I was on the Redux (Phen-Phen) diet pill for about one month and a half, lost 24 pounds and would have lost alot more. But the $80 a month was more than I could afford, and also I met my husband at that time and he loved me just as I was. So I threw all desires for diet chasing to the side. I was almost a full time caretaker for my sick mother so dieting was too stressful to even bother with at that time.
But since my mothers death of weight related illnesses (diabetes, heart failure, to name a few) in 2003. The chase is back on. One month after my mom's death and weighing 305.4 lbs, I joined Weight Watchers for the first time ( one diet I had never tried suprisingly). Well I was a big success! I lost 106lbs in a little over a year...was the meeting star. I made it to Onederland...LOL! barely in but I was there. Then I hit a plateau in my weight, I didn't lose a thing for a year. NOTHING. And I was by the book and was exercising an hour a day...I had exercised from the start of WW. Well frustration set in, and then I was even more discouraged to go to meeting ever week watching others lose (then sitting down beside me telling me about the buffet they had ate, how they never exercised) I was just angry I was having to work so hard and not losing anymore. Which looking back I should've been grateful and happy with myself at that time. I was truly comfortable at that weight, but I was trying so hard to reach "their" goal weight. So I started slacking...stopped exercising on the weekends, eat a little more points here, there...everywhere. Till I was no longer exercising or counting points. And here I am back where I started from.
I'm not 100% sure weight loss surgery is for me, I am a chicken when it comes to Doctors, hospitals the whole thing. But at this point I do want to look at everything. I think my desire is overcoming some of that fear. I am interested in learning about the Lap Band and Gastric Sleeve. No desire for the the Bypass type at all, I want to leave my insides just as God put them there. :) As I'm learning I'm still going to try to lose on my own. I'm back to Weight Watchers and trying to get back to exercising. Weight Watchers was the most success I had, plus it was a doable plan for me because I did eat foods I liked, just not as much.
I've also learned that I am going to get to my ideal weight (comfortable weight) and be happy with that....not WW ideal weight not anybodys ideal weight just my own. I feel if I had this attitude before I would not have gained my weight back. But everyday is a struggle. Sticking to plan is not easy, I didn't have this trouble when I was on it in 2003. By the weekend I am eating everything in the house. But I will keep trying, I have to. Not sure my insurance would approve of any surgery, and I can't afford it otherwise. I haven't been to any of the seminars they have just yet, I know that's where they start the insurance part rolling. But being that I'm still unsure about surgery, I hesitate to go or even let my husband know I'm thinking about it. So I'll just stick to researching for now, and working at weight loss on my own.
I look forward to getting to know many of you here and hearing your stories.
