katetme
and after
Mar 26, 2008
I am all set for Monday, don't know what time yet, I have to call the hospital on Friday. I hope it is first thing in the morning.
DH went with me and was impressed by Dr, Loggins, thought he was a straight shooter and felt he would have sat there all day to answer questions if necessary. Thorough all the way. Foudn out about Lovenox sp? injections for after surgery-heparin-14 shots to self adn=minister after I get home, did not know that,,,,hmmmm not a deal breaker, and spec that I have few days to think that through.
Oh??? and I lost 8 #! but have to stay on liquids til the clear liquids starting on Sat, with bowel prep.la de dah.. can't wait for the fun to begin.
Didn't quite do that today but oh well...tomorrow is another day,
DH went with me and was impressed by Dr, Loggins, thought he was a straight shooter and felt he would have sat there all day to answer questions if necessary. Thorough all the way. Foudn out about Lovenox sp? injections for after surgery-heparin-14 shots to self adn=minister after I get home, did not know that,,,,hmmmm not a deal breaker, and spec that I have few days to think that through.
Oh??? and I lost 8 #! but have to stay on liquids til the clear liquids starting on Sat, with bowel prep.la de dah.. can't wait for the fun to begin.
Didn't quite do that today but oh well...tomorrow is another day,
Pre-op
Mar 24, 2008
So I am off to my pre-op appointments, meeting with surgical team and then hospital for blood work and chest xray. My DH is going with me since he missed my NUT appointment. He wants to meet the surgeon. I don't know why I am not more nervous about this, wel, wait a minute, yes I do, I have researched, talked, and prayed about this for 3 years and I am at peace with my decision, Just yesterday my co-worker/friend said "oh Kate I just am so sorry it has come to this, that you have to have surgery to control yourself." Huh, I thought I had convinced her that the control comes now, I am taking control over this piece of my life that I have abused so much in the past that it cannot do as I ask anymore without help. Well, I know why and I know the hows, alot of the maybes and a couple of whats. So, onward I go.
Oh, and I wanted to remind myself of something here...When DH took those pics for my befores...I have body dysmorphia in the opposite way, I think I look better that I actually do, so picture taking is going to really be my measure in some part, more than the scale.
Oh, and I wanted to remind myself of something here...When DH took those pics for my befores...I have body dysmorphia in the opposite way, I think I look better that I actually do, so picture taking is going to really be my measure in some part, more than the scale.
a reflection to a friend, and thanksgiving
Mar 21, 2008
Wouldn't it be nice if something was "easy" on this journey?? It makes me laugh to hear people say we are cheating, or taking the easy way out of our weight loss issues. I wish they could all walk a mile in our weight loss surgery pre-op hell-ascious journey. We are expecting ourselves to do the very things that brought us here in the first place and once again spend precious moments of our lives mad at ourselves or shaming ourselves for not being on target every day/
The new/old awareness of food and its role in my life, the knowledge of portions, exercise, protein etc...it is all PART of what we are doing pre-op.
It takes 9 months to bring a baby to term, don't you think it is divinely planned to give a mother 9 months to figure the mothering thing out too?
Well, so too this journey, it takes a while, in my case 3 years since I joined the board, almost a year since I asked my PCP to make the referral and 5 months to go from first needle stick for first blood work to surgery. I needed this time to figure it out, the changes I have had to make, and will have to make and gain the grace to live with my decision.
Peace and grace on this Easter Saturday. I am contemplating the sacrifice He made for me..
"He paid a debt He didn't owe" Thank you Jesus...
The new/old awareness of food and its role in my life, the knowledge of portions, exercise, protein etc...it is all PART of what we are doing pre-op.
It takes 9 months to bring a baby to term, don't you think it is divinely planned to give a mother 9 months to figure the mothering thing out too?
Well, so too this journey, it takes a while, in my case 3 years since I joined the board, almost a year since I asked my PCP to make the referral and 5 months to go from first needle stick for first blood work to surgery. I needed this time to figure it out, the changes I have had to make, and will have to make and gain the grace to live with my decision.
Peace and grace on this Easter Saturday. I am contemplating the sacrifice He made for me..
"He paid a debt He didn't owe" Thank you Jesus...
10 days and counting
Mar 21, 2008
I got my approval today!!!!!! whoo hooo!!! Now, pre-op on Tuesday the 25th and surgery Monday the 31st. I am sooooooooo ready. This liquid diet is mostly easy but I had a moment today and ate 1/2 cup of baked beans, barely warm, just to chew something. That seemed to do the trick and i am ok now. I have lost 4 1/2 lbs since last friday, I hope that is enough for the surgery team. i know I can I know I can!!
God Bless you all for your prayers and good thoughts, God has thrown open this door for me to walk through and here I go!!!!!!
God Bless you all for your prayers and good thoughts, God has thrown open this door for me to walk through and here I go!!!!!!
a sad wall
Mar 18, 2008
I postd this on the Maine board, too, but I seem to have hit a sad wall. i can't seem to stop the water letting from my eyes. Everything starts me crying. I know I miss solid food but something tells me this isn't what this is about.
insurance
Mar 18, 2008
Nothing yet, although the hospital called to register me. I wonder if Anthem is a good insurance? I know they do pay for the surgery. But will they for me..
Have been up since 6"30 am dealing with a crisis patient, why do crisis always happen when we sleep?
Have been up since 6"30 am dealing with a crisis patient, why do crisis always happen when we sleep?
and I wait
Mar 17, 2008
Ok, all the paperwork went into the Anthem office today, Crystal just called to let me know., She doesn't think there willb e any problems but she said I cannot quote her on that. It is a 48-72 hour window for the answer so that is wednesday or Thrusday. I can stand it. I am slurping away at my desk.
Went to GNC and bought so more prot pwd cause I have this othr 2 weeks here, and bought one of their shakers with a metal whish looking thingy in it, wow, what a dif, smooth smooth shake.
Went to GNC and bought so more prot pwd cause I have this othr 2 weeks here, and bought one of their shakers with a metal whish looking thingy in it, wow, what a dif, smooth smooth shake.
Liquid Diet
Mar 16, 2008
WEll, well, well...
At my weigh in on Friday, I had only lost 1 lb and the Nut was not impressed. Because I am on such a limited amount of time, she pushed me into overdrive...I am now on 4 protein products a day, and liquids and that is it until the 25th, That day i have my pre-op meeting with surgeon et al. So my new goals are
400-600-cals a day
40 minutes of exercise 4-5 x week
60-80 gr of protein a day
64 oz of water
So after 2 days of this....
down three pounds, thank you very much!!!
At my weigh in on Friday, I had only lost 1 lb and the Nut was not impressed. Because I am on such a limited amount of time, she pushed me into overdrive...I am now on 4 protein products a day, and liquids and that is it until the 25th, That day i have my pre-op meeting with surgeon et al. So my new goals are
400-600-cals a day
40 minutes of exercise 4-5 x week
60-80 gr of protein a day
64 oz of water
So after 2 days of this....
down three pounds, thank you very much!!!
Andy Rooney
Mar 11, 2008
60 Minutes Correspondent Andy Rooney (CBS)
As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why:
A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask, 'What are you thinking?' She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game , she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting. Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 40. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 40 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one. You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her. Yes, we praise women over 40 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal . For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed, hot woman over 40, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year old waitress. Ladies, I apologize.
For all those men who say, 'Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?', here's an update for you. Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage. Why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage!
Andy Rooney is a really smart guy!
Here's to all the girls who are over 40 already and all of the rest of you who will be someday. Take no prisoners!! You rock the house with courage and tenacity for being on this journey. Love you all!
As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why:
A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask, 'What are you thinking?' She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game , she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting. Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 40. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 40 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one. You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her. Yes, we praise women over 40 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal . For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed, hot woman over 40, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year old waitress. Ladies, I apologize.
For all those men who say, 'Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?', here's an update for you. Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage. Why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage!
Andy Rooney is a really smart guy!
Here's to all the girls who are over 40 already and all of the rest of you who will be someday. Take no prisoners!! You rock the house with courage and tenacity for being on this journey. Love you all!
yesterday, all my troubles were...right there
Mar 07, 2008
ok, yesterday was the worse day...I don't even know why. I could not stop eating. I got up did 25 minutes on my gazelle, ate a good protein rich breakfast. went shopping at the new Reny's in Bridgton and bought peaunuts and Cadbury mini eggs. Why would I do this to myself? And yes I did eat about 24 of the little lovelies.and about 1/2 the can of peanuts. This wasn't that random. The night before I had talked to DH and told him this is the last time I will be able to have Cadbury eggs, next Easter I won't even want them. So I planned this- 7 days before my Nut meeting, the one that will prob determine if I am ready. Can anyone say duh with me. I just don't get me sometimes. I am so disgusted with myself this morning, got up and got back on the gazelle, know I have to forget yesterday and go forward but want to share this dirty little secret. This is not and never will be easy. Seasonally we all have foods we love, that MEAN things to us.Saying goodbye to them might be part of this process-it seems to be for me. I have got tosaty off the scale for a few days or it will be worse...
About Me
Center Lovell, ME
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Surgery
03/31/2008
Surgery Date
Oct 03, 2005
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