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I finally took a step back and tried something totally new.  I took the pressure off.  I put away my scale - I was a daily weigher (I know that's bad, but habits are hard to break).  I decided to really try to listen to my body not my lists etc.  I thought that it might be a good idea to try tuning in and not doing more of the same stuff that got me into this position to begin with.  What I found was that I was a more pleasant person.  I did lose a 1/2 pound, which is a great thing.  Would I have liked it to be more - sure.  But I was happy to have that loss.  It has also been less stressful which I appreciate too.  Believe me - for a daily weigher, weighing in once a week was a big challenge!  But I think it helps to keep me focused on the food I eat and how my body is handling things.  FYI - I have been having trouble with some foods and even had that aweful chest pain and sliming.  YUCK - that is truly a deterrent if I ever had one.  Since I had that problem at the mall - I am much much more careful.  THat is probably helping too - I have been staying away from lots of foods that I was tolerating before my first fill.  Let's see what the second fill brings!

It is truly hard for me to believe that March has come and gone - more significantly it has come and gone and only another pound has gone off my body.  I can't believe how stubborn this weight is.  I have started kickboxing classes and am working my tail off to burn calories.  I feel good -althoug a bit sore- but the scale doesn't seem to want to move.  My doc. is really cautious with fills and wants to take it slow - probably a good thing, but I am much less patient.  I am learning to take this process one day at a time.  I know I need a fill soon - with only 1cc in the band, I am just not feeling restricted.  I do have sensation I am going to die occassionaly when I eat something that gets stuck.  I would put that on the top of things to avoid.  As a result, I eat very little bread and highly fibrous foods.  Not a shocker as they do tell you that from the get-go.  Some of us like to learn things the hard way!  i am looking forward to my next fill on the 24th as I believe this band will work for/with me - we are just having some difficulty getting along at this point.  I would love to be the woman that lost 50 pounds 6 months after having the band put in, but it appears that I might be going a bit slower on my journey.  I am learning to be patient and I guess that is a good thing too!

Since going to "regular" foods, I have stalled in the weight loss department.  I go up and down on a regular basis.  I can't seem to find the balance I am looking for.  I have definately changed what I eat as  result of needing to get so much protein.  However, I have to figure out where my problem zone is.  I have resolved to only eat at meal times and see if that helps.  However, as a life long overeater that is not always so easy.  I guess this why others choose bypass - your body makes these decisions easier.  I hope that my ups become more down.  I don't go for my fill until 3/15 so it is still aways off - so I have to try harder to make this work.  I am going back to the gym because I feel great in terms of post-surgery.  My body is definately healed and back to normal.  Here's hoping my next post is full of good news!

I am working on three weeks of liquid and I have had it with protein shakes.  Yesterday they made me physically ill.  I go to the doc. tommarrow and am going to beg to start mushy food.  I need the break!  Otherwise I am great - I am almost back to feeling normal.  I am 10 days post op and have even gone back to work.  I have been careful to take half days as needed and be realistic about what I can do.  Otherwise all is well so far!

It is amazing to me how fast the human body heals.  Today I actually feel like going out into the subzero temperatures and taking a walk.  I am totally off pain medication and was able to sleep on my tummy abit last night.  I even find myself wanting to eat something.  That of course is both good and bad news.  I just have to stay mentally strong - it is only a little bit longer.  I have never been so eager to eat mushed and pureed food.  What a strange thing to happen to life long overeater.  My next big expectation is that the swelling will go down.  My scale readings are abit screwy because of the swelling and bloating so I believe I have lost more weight, but who knows.  So, those of you who are like me and thought some instant gratification would be nice - don't be too disappointed.

1/24/07
I came home yesterday and boy was I sore.  I also am not that interested in having something to eat.  My pain has been very manageable and mostly I want to rest.  I do force myself to get up and move around - although I am enjoying a doting husband.  He has been great - truly supportive and caring.  I am looking forward to being an AFTER picture.  I know that the process is long, but I didn't do this so I could stay 273 pounds.  I enjoy everyone else's stories and find the pictures to be an inspiration.  Yesterday I was wondering why I did this - today I am glad to be on this journey.

I will however be happier when I am healed enough to sleep on my stomach again!