Karil G.

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Had my surgery on Tuesday, came home thursday, and now it is saturday.  Eveyday i am feeling better.  The worst thing has been the gas pains.  At first i thought it was only the gas from the operation, (laproscopic), that they pump into you, but the more i have, the more i read on the forums, the more i think it is also some gas just from eating/drinking. 

I am only drinking water ( i have gotten in 60 + oz per day)  and some isopure, and "eating" a little applesauce ( 1 oz) for dinner, so i can open up my cymbalta and mix it in.  but i think that it just takes a while, and for some reason it is causing me gas

I have had no nausea, no vomiting. Just really bad gas.  In fact i am pretty bloated!  like my stomach is definitly bigger now, than before surgery.  strange...

Really other than the incision pains and gas pains i am pretty good.  I am also taking the liquid vicoden every 4 hours, and the dr only gave me enough for 2 days at a time.  The first time my husband went to refill it, they almost didn't give it to him, cause it was  few hours early!  Now the next refill will be early Monday morning, and i don't think it will last.....

But, i just wanted to post, and say, i am better everyday, i feel like i am at least 50% better than i was 4 days ago, so that is good.

I am not purshing the protein.  I probably get 25 to 30 gram s per day, and i am okay with that, cause i am getting my liquids.  I think that is good, caused all the post op diet instructions say to "work up to 60 grams"

 

So, of course it is 3:45 am on my surgery day. I was in and out of sleep, but mostly out.  Too excited!  I am not that nervous, just excited, and wondering, what this will be like.  Is it finally here?  I can't believe it.

So many people are excited for me.  I am a little worried that expectations are too high.  What if I don't loose that much weight?  what if i fail once again?  What if the weight doesn't come off as fast as everyone thinks it will?  

Sometimes i wish i was the only one who knew, so that if i failed, it would just be my secret. 

If i don't fail, and the weight really does come off, what then?  Will i keep it off?  I keep hearing stories of all the people who gained weight back.  Will that be me?  will i be another failure?

I keep telling myself this is not a cure.  This is a new start.  A new chance.  A do-over.  I get to go back to before, when i didn't hace a "weight problem" and eat and take care of myself like i should have.  This is not going to "fix" the problem.  This is only going to give me a chance to do it over, to eat right, and excersise, and give my self a fighting chance at being "normal"

A new beginning.  I am so thankful for this opportunity.  I can't believe it is happening. 


 

Today i finish phase 1 of pre op diet.  Low Low fat, no sugar, no meat, etc.  Tomorrow I start Phase II, clear liquids for 5 days!

I lost 8 pounds!  I feel really good, and it has not been as hard as i thought it would be.  Before, when i was trying to do these kind of diets, i would cheat all the time. I would reason my way, into taking a little of this and a little of that, ance once again blow it!

Yesterday my work had a large lunch, with all kinds of food, the only thing i could really eat was the lettuce with a little chicken, and no dressing, everything else was so off limits.  People kept asking me if it was hard to be around all that food.  I said no, cause when you are doing something as a big commitment, and it is for your surgery, and you know all sorts of thing are changing, it is part of a big plan, and it isn't that hard.  I know where i am going, and I know how to get there.  I know all this hard work is going to pay off.  With other diets, i was never really sure, if this time it would work, so i was more likely to cheat...

The one thing i miss a whole bunch is coffee in the morning.  I used to get up, and strong coffee with 1/2 and 1/2 and drink that until 10:00 then maybe have something for breakfast. 

Dont' know how coffee is going to fit into my routine after surgery, maybe months down the road i will be able to  have a little bit with fat free 1/2 and 1/2...

on to the next phase....

So, i have a surgery date!  Tuesday Nov 10th.  I cant belive it!  4 months after the process was started.  I start my pre op low fat diet on the 28th and then my liquid diet on Nov 5th.

I feel pretty good about the whole thing.  i am not worried, and i am wondering why that is.  I mean my biggest concern is that i am going to be crabby when i am trying to do my pre op diets.  But as far as the actual surgery and recover, i am feeling good.  I have all the lists of foods to eat at each stage, and i plan on shopping and stocking up in the next week so that i am prepared.  I have ordered all my vitamins.  

Every day i think "what should i eat, what will i miss the most?"...it feels like all those Sundays nights before the big "DIET MONDAY". ha ha.

have not decided what my "last meal" will be yet, but definitly something with pasta!