julia3434
Hi there
Jul 06, 2008
Thought I might take the time and update. I am doing well and am happy and blessed. I am down about 45 pounds from surgery and 55 pounds from my heaviest right before surgery. So I am stoked about that.
This week, I did experience my first fill that was too tight. Thursday, I went in for my second fill and got that. Drank my water in the office and talked to the nurse, told her I thought it was maybe too much. She said it was a normal amount and that I should be fine. I left feeling weird, but thought it'd be OK. Then I started to get sick and for 2 days could not keep anything down. I finally called the dr- he's 1 1/2 hours away and he met me there Sat. night. I kept thinking maybe it was me and I was freaking out or something- but I was taking baby bay sips of water and then being so sick. As soon as he took some of the saline out, I felt instantly better. Thank goodness. Learned that my restriction that my body can handle is less than the normal. So now I know.
Now I feel more restricted but not so restricted that water hangs out at the top of my throat. A good kind of restriction.
I am still working on eating until I am satisfied, not full, but feel like I am making progress. I have also learned that as soon as I decide to snack, especially on cookies or something, it is so much harder to get back on track. It's like I am deciding to blow the whole day, not just simply have a cookie. Helps me not have the cookie sometimes. But its part of the learning process. My other big ah hah moment is that if I don't drink at least 30 ounces of water in the morning before I eat, I don't get my water in. So its all about the process and grace towards myself.
Some good things, 1)people are starting to notice that I am losing weight and have told me 2) I wore a sweater that I haven't been able to wear in years this morning 3) I feel lighter in my skin 4) I am going to the lake in a month and while not thin, I am not hysterical about the possibility of wearing a swim suit 5) I am hopeful- haven't been hopeful aout this in a very long time.
God is good and I am grateful. Hope you are all well.
This week, I did experience my first fill that was too tight. Thursday, I went in for my second fill and got that. Drank my water in the office and talked to the nurse, told her I thought it was maybe too much. She said it was a normal amount and that I should be fine. I left feeling weird, but thought it'd be OK. Then I started to get sick and for 2 days could not keep anything down. I finally called the dr- he's 1 1/2 hours away and he met me there Sat. night. I kept thinking maybe it was me and I was freaking out or something- but I was taking baby bay sips of water and then being so sick. As soon as he took some of the saline out, I felt instantly better. Thank goodness. Learned that my restriction that my body can handle is less than the normal. So now I know.
Now I feel more restricted but not so restricted that water hangs out at the top of my throat. A good kind of restriction.
I am still working on eating until I am satisfied, not full, but feel like I am making progress. I have also learned that as soon as I decide to snack, especially on cookies or something, it is so much harder to get back on track. It's like I am deciding to blow the whole day, not just simply have a cookie. Helps me not have the cookie sometimes. But its part of the learning process. My other big ah hah moment is that if I don't drink at least 30 ounces of water in the morning before I eat, I don't get my water in. So its all about the process and grace towards myself.
Some good things, 1)people are starting to notice that I am losing weight and have told me 2) I wore a sweater that I haven't been able to wear in years this morning 3) I feel lighter in my skin 4) I am going to the lake in a month and while not thin, I am not hysterical about the possibility of wearing a swim suit 5) I am hopeful- haven't been hopeful aout this in a very long time.
God is good and I am grateful. Hope you are all well.
Hi there
May 31, 2008
Well, its been two months since my last and only blog... things are going pretty well. Some successes, some learning opportunities. All in all, I am pleased.
I am 37 years old I feel like I am learning the same lessons over and over again. It seems like by now I should have it all figured out. But I guess that's life isn't it? Trying to figure out what motivates you and what captivates your heart...all the while trying to offer ourselves the same grace that we give to others and yet are so stingy with ourselves. So I am on the road and feeling blessed.
I am down about 34 pounds and am trying to be under 200 by the New Year- 5 pounds (ish) a month. That will be the thinnest that I have been in 10 years. I want to be a knock out, not the friend, not the confidante but the girl. I am tired of being the friend.
What I have re-learned in these last few months is that I am an emotional eater. I eat when I am happy, when I am sad, when I am bored... hard to change that boat in the middle of stream. I have been really trying to learn to use the band to eat until I am satisfied, rather than full. Because I am never really full. So that's a big thing to learn. I have learned that timing is everything. I am in a better place right now, not so manic and mental. I am trying to just be on the journey. Hang out and not be so much about manipulating food to lose weight but more about building a good foundation for overall health.
I am happy and blessed and healthier than I have bene in years- inmind and in spirit. This is going to be the best year of my life- and hopefully yours too. Thanks for stopping by. Have a blessed day!
I am 37 years old I feel like I am learning the same lessons over and over again. It seems like by now I should have it all figured out. But I guess that's life isn't it? Trying to figure out what motivates you and what captivates your heart...all the while trying to offer ourselves the same grace that we give to others and yet are so stingy with ourselves. So I am on the road and feeling blessed.
I am down about 34 pounds and am trying to be under 200 by the New Year- 5 pounds (ish) a month. That will be the thinnest that I have been in 10 years. I want to be a knock out, not the friend, not the confidante but the girl. I am tired of being the friend.
What I have re-learned in these last few months is that I am an emotional eater. I eat when I am happy, when I am sad, when I am bored... hard to change that boat in the middle of stream. I have been really trying to learn to use the band to eat until I am satisfied, rather than full. Because I am never really full. So that's a big thing to learn. I have learned that timing is everything. I am in a better place right now, not so manic and mental. I am trying to just be on the journey. Hang out and not be so much about manipulating food to lose weight but more about building a good foundation for overall health.
I am happy and blessed and healthier than I have bene in years- inmind and in spirit. This is going to be the best year of my life- and hopefully yours too. Thanks for stopping by. Have a blessed day!
My first post
Apr 10, 2008
I am a terrible blogger but I have enjoyed reading other people's blogs so I thought I'd take a stab at this. I had the lap band surgery January 29, 2008. My surgery went without a hitch. I lost 22 pounds the first month- easy really, although it did not come off steadily like I thought it would but in starts and stops. The second month was not my best effort, really. I travelled a lot and there were several celebrations. But I still lost five pounds for which I was grateful. What I realized again is how easily I get distracted. That is not surprising, really, but I not only fall off the wagon- I roll around in the mud. I have always struggled with shame issues around my weight. I know we all have. But it is amazing to me how intertwined all of my emotional baggage is tied up with what I put in my mouth.
Having said all of that, I am back on it and am trying to focus on the lifestyle change not just conquering food stuff, does that make sense? I am trying to be satisfied and to eat until I am satisfied, not full.
Satisfied. That is what I want. I am throwing it out there and offering that as my simple prayer.
Having said all of that, I am back on it and am trying to focus on the lifestyle change not just conquering food stuff, does that make sense? I am trying to be satisfied and to eat until I am satisfied, not full.
Satisfied. That is what I want. I am throwing it out there and offering that as my simple prayer.
