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I had my very last psych visit today and he said he was going to clear me for surgery!  I was so excited when I left his office, but I was mostly surprised because this guy gave me the impression that he didn't believe anything I said and he made me feel pretty dumb about some of my answers to his questions.  I guess I just picked the wrong guy, but at least I don't have to see him again!  I am finally DONE with all my preliminary appointments but I guess now comes the hard part (well, at least for me!).. waiting around for an answer from my insurance.  Ughh this is gonna be a killer... but it was definitely a GREAT day! :)

I've found myself wondering where April went, because I can't seem to remember how it flew by so fast!  I have been hauling myself around to waaay too many appointments, but this week is the end of that for me.  I have my very last psych visit on Wednesday, and I guess he is going to tell me if I'm sane enough for surgery or not.  I really hope it's the first one because then I get to apply for approval.  I am becoming very anxious now, more so of all the things I don't know.  I absolutely hate to wait around, and waiting around for someone else's decision about my ability to have the surgery is driving me crazy!  Let's just fast forward to June, and hopefully I'll have some more answers...

Well its been a crazy, busy week!  I had a meeting at my surgeons office last Thursday and then I had a pre-op consultation with one of the nurses a couple days ago, and it looks like everything is beginning to fall into place.  One of the best things was that at my consult, I was told that I shouldn't have a problem getting approval from my insurance!  Of course, it's not a guarantee but it still helps to have one less thing to stress about (since I tend to stress about everything!). 
This week was also pretty big because even though my immediate family has known of my decision to have WLS for quite a while, I decided to tell my other relatives.  I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I couldn't be happier about the support I've received.  I was so nervous about telling people because I wasn't sure how to bring it up, when to bring it up, and what their response was going to be.  I kind of expected the worst and ended up greatly surprised!  So, yay me!
Now comes the hard part, getting through all these dang appointments.  Coming up I've got psych evaluations, dietitian appointments, lab work, and phone appointments with my insurance!  What a downer! But as soon as I'm through I get to apply for approval!   And I only have 5 weeks left of classes until summer! woo hoo

It's been a crazy, busy week for me and yet I still managed to find the time to be impatient about the whole process.  And even though it seems like this year has flown by so far, these last few weeks have been dragging.  It's probably because I have my information meeting at my surgeons office on thursday.  And I guess I'm getting anxious.  It took me a month and half to find a date for the class that worked with my schedule, not counting the time before that it took for me to decide where I wanted to go! 
It's funny to me because I am not so much going to the meeting for the information on the surgery, or because I still need to decide if it's for me.  I have already done that.  I made this decision a looong time ago and have spent every spare moment researching  and planning every detail.  I feel prepared and, oh man, it would be nice to fast forward to the part where I get to schedule my surgery date.  Of course I know that every step along the way is important, but once you make the decision, the rest is torture!!
I guess the thing that makes it the most difficult is picturing the great opportunity I have to really make positive changes to my life.
Take care, Jules.

It's weird.. at this moment I have no fears, no nerves and no anxiety about the possibility of having surgery.  I have this feeling that everything is going to work out for the best.
I sure hope I'm right!

Well, its been one big rollercoaster ride ever since the day I decided I wanted to have weight loss surgery.  I have a lot more things to worry about and a lot more questions, but I've found that I've gained a lot of insight to myself and the type of life I want to live.  The funniest emotion that I've had lately is hope.  Weird, huh?  I always get excited for certain upcoming events, even a little hopeful (maybe something like my birthday, or a concert..) but never once have I felt this before.  It's like I finally have something to look forward to, there is finally an answer to a problem I have been struggling with my entire life.  I have hope.  And I've gotta say - it feels pretty good.

On a less-pleasant note, last night I told one of my co-workers, with whom I am pretty close to, of my goal to have WLS.  I was very surprised by her lack of support, in fact there wasn't even a hint of support at all!  After that experience, I think I've decided to tell only my family and extremely close friends before the surgery.  I do not need anyone giving me doubts or putting a negative spin on an experience that I hope will change my life for the better.  I guess people's true colors really do come out in situations like this, and I guess I would have thought she'd be happy for me. 
I've got a meeting scheduled at my surgeons office about the surgery next week... looking forward to it!