joshbowski
honesty
Jun 25, 2008
It's been forever since I've checked in, obviously. I was just noticing I've been a member of this site since I was 20 years old, and I'm about to turn 28! Wow, I guess I'm a vetern lol...
Anyway, I got as low as 200.5 pounds, and then my life started changing for the worse, and I lost control of things. I, someone who had hardly ever taken a drink in my life, got highly addicted to beer out of no where (I started a job at a bar, but anyway). I gained all the way back up to 245 pounds. I completely quit and moved away just to try to get away from the whole situation. I lost back down to 227.5, but I can't completely quit the alcohol. I don't drink NEARLY as much as I used to (free beer at the bar) but I just can't kick it all together, and I'm afraid that's why I can't get back to where I was. I'm just miserable even though I'm still 227.5, I want to be back at 200 again or even lower! Folks, please stay away from the alcohol!
I did have my body sculpting done, and while I look "better" the doctor didn't do a great job. He left a bit too much fat/skin on my chest which I'm uncomfortable with, and he left too much chub around my midsection. I've talked to plastic surgeons about getting another surgey done, and they all agree they could do more to help me. Overall, I'm much healthier than when I was 400+ pounds, but it remains a struggle. Thanks for reading! :)
Anyway, I got as low as 200.5 pounds, and then my life started changing for the worse, and I lost control of things. I, someone who had hardly ever taken a drink in my life, got highly addicted to beer out of no where (I started a job at a bar, but anyway). I gained all the way back up to 245 pounds. I completely quit and moved away just to try to get away from the whole situation. I lost back down to 227.5, but I can't completely quit the alcohol. I don't drink NEARLY as much as I used to (free beer at the bar) but I just can't kick it all together, and I'm afraid that's why I can't get back to where I was. I'm just miserable even though I'm still 227.5, I want to be back at 200 again or even lower! Folks, please stay away from the alcohol!
I did have my body sculpting done, and while I look "better" the doctor didn't do a great job. He left a bit too much fat/skin on my chest which I'm uncomfortable with, and he left too much chub around my midsection. I've talked to plastic surgeons about getting another surgey done, and they all agree they could do more to help me. Overall, I'm much healthier than when I was 400+ pounds, but it remains a struggle. Thanks for reading! :)
surgery in a couple hours
Jun 27, 2007
Hello everyone. Just wanted to jot down a quick note to let you all know that in about 2 hours I'll be leaving to Huntington, WV to Dr. Stephen Miller to have body sculpting done. He's going to cut off the excess skin and fat around my waist and chest areas. I'm very excited, and very nervous about this. Hopefully this will be the final step of my journey and I'll feel "truly thin" after this is done. I'll be sure to update as soon as I feel up to it after surgery. Wish me luck! -Joshua
March 3, 2007
Mar 03, 2007
Okay. This is my first crack at the new profile system here on OH.com...I guess I will put my updates here into blog form, and title them according to the date. With that said...
It's been entirely too long since I've updated here. I didn't even check in for my one year bandiversary. That's probably because, on my one year, I was disappointed with my weigh in. I'm still about the same weight I was at my last post. Around 210. It has become exceedingly difficult to lose weight now. Of course, I'm at a pretty good weight anyway, so I'm not complaining too much, but I was really hoping to get down around 180. That hasn't been happening.
It's still a struggle with me every day to fight my food addiction. The band does not make food taste less good, I promise you that.
I'm going in early May to get the skin cut off my stomach and check, thus "completing the journey" so to speak. He said, I will only lose 6 - 8 pounds after the surgery, so I'm still going to be over 200, which I'm a bit disappointed with. I just need to get better control of my eating, lay off the sweets, and such.
I'm also still very, very depressed about losing my fiance. It's been almost a year now, and I still miss her so much every single day. That part has been very hard on me, and remains so. I've probably said it before, and I'll say it again. I'd give back every pound I lost to have her back again, but that's not the way life works. I don't think I'll ever meet another girl like her, so wish me luck there.
As always, any questions or concerns from anyone about this surgery, I'm very willing to talk. It's easier to contact me on myspace, if anyone is interested. http://www.myspace.com/joshbowski
Take care everyone. Much love...Joshua
It's been entirely too long since I've updated here. I didn't even check in for my one year bandiversary. That's probably because, on my one year, I was disappointed with my weigh in. I'm still about the same weight I was at my last post. Around 210. It has become exceedingly difficult to lose weight now. Of course, I'm at a pretty good weight anyway, so I'm not complaining too much, but I was really hoping to get down around 180. That hasn't been happening.
It's still a struggle with me every day to fight my food addiction. The band does not make food taste less good, I promise you that.
I'm going in early May to get the skin cut off my stomach and check, thus "completing the journey" so to speak. He said, I will only lose 6 - 8 pounds after the surgery, so I'm still going to be over 200, which I'm a bit disappointed with. I just need to get better control of my eating, lay off the sweets, and such.
I'm also still very, very depressed about losing my fiance. It's been almost a year now, and I still miss her so much every single day. That part has been very hard on me, and remains so. I've probably said it before, and I'll say it again. I'd give back every pound I lost to have her back again, but that's not the way life works. I don't think I'll ever meet another girl like her, so wish me luck there.
As always, any questions or concerns from anyone about this surgery, I'm very willing to talk. It's easier to contact me on myspace, if anyone is interested. http://www.myspace.com/joshbowski
Take care everyone. Much love...Joshua
