jojobean
Instead of typing in something extra for "My Story" I copied all my previous posts from the old OH site.
5/18/06
Had second dietary appt as well as psych eval today and according to the gal who went over the results, sounds like I passed. Next step is one more dietary appt, and then first appt w/ the surgeon. I'm getting more used to the idea of surgery and I'm feeling so good about my decision. Wish surgery was tomorrow.
5/2006
Just starting out on my quest for a new lifestyle. I am hoping to have surgery in or around August of 2006. I have much to learn, but I am excited (and nervous) for my new journey.
6/13/06
I got a date to go see the surgeon. The clinic was so helpful in getting me in when it was convenient for me. I see the doc on 6/20 and on 6/21 I have a group dietary appt. I've been so busy lately with work, etc, that I'm stressed and the stress of everything going on is overshadowing my excitement for having a date to see the surgeon. NEXT WEEK already!!! That is really exciting. Hoping to have surgery at the very end of July or the beginning of August.... Don't know how unreasonable a request that is.
6/20/06
Had my consult with the surgeon today. Very nice man, liked him a lot. I'm officially on my way to the losing side. There are so many things I want to do when I am thin. My hubby has said a couple of times he wonders what it will be like. I hope I make up to him the last 5 or so years that I've been miserable and unloveable. He sure is an angel to put up with me for so long. I want to make up to him what he had done for me for so many years. I hope he's proud of me. I keep telling him "I'll do that with you when I'm skinny...." I think the biggest of my fears is taking the vitamins and supplements for the rest of my life. That whole phrase "THE REST OF YOUR LIFE" is a little daunting.... but I guess it's an easy trade off for having a life again and not being trapped in this house of fat any longer.
7/21/06
Seems like much longer than a month and a day since I had my consult with the surgeon. I was informed today by my insurance company that I was denied for surgery. I wasn't surprised, but I was a bit disappointed. But, it's not going to get me down. Now that I have made my decision, I am ready. I want it yesterday. It is time. I've been working on my lists of things I don't want to forget...and things I hope to do. I can't wait to start losing weight.
7/25/06
Argh. Mounting frustration. It seems my insurance company wants 6 CONSECUTIVE months of dietician appts. So, here I go again. Two more months after today......(went back to the dietician today...) So, it'll be after September at least. I accept it, but sure wish it was now......Still haven't hardly told anyone at work. I want a date before I tell people. Or maybe I'll just take a couple of weeks off, and come back with everyone none the wiser.
8/31/06
Well, got the call today. APPROVED!!!!!!! Surgery date set for 10/23/06. (Was going to do 10/17/06 but the kids are off school at that time...) I'm so excited I could pee. Still have to go to my final dietician appt (LIKE WHY????) but oh well. I can handle that.
10/10/06
Day two of my two week pre-op diet of Optifast, veggies, and pop..... Luckily I can still have my diet coke. It's not going too bad. I know I can do it. Last night I got a little teary just with the whole emotion of everything. My husband looked me in the eyes and said "You can do this." Boy did that help. It made me feel better. And I can do it. 13 more days and I will be having surgery. Two weeks from today, it'll be a done deal. I'll be on my way to finding a beautiful new me.
10/12/06
Day four of my pre-op diet. I'm tired --probably because every night at bedtime I'm so wound up that I can't sleep!!-- but also possibly because the only carbohydrates I'm taking in other that from my Optifast is in the sugar from the carrots I've been eating. I had a difficult and "hungry" day yesterday. I dreamed about eating a very LARGE steak and it was delicious. I'm getting tired of carrots and celery. The shakes are fine. I'm hoping one of these days my stomach will get a little smaller. 11 more days......
