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OK, I must say things with my new pouch are getting better. I am able to eat better this week than last and going to the gym has helped out to both phycially and mentally for me. I lost 4 pds in 1 wk. I am going to the gym about 3-4 days a wk right now and have started doing some on the weights. I was thrilled last nite that I could eat the pot roast that I made, I have about 84 more pds to my goal and I go back to work in 6 days so I am hoping that moving for 8 hrs will kick it up a notch more LOL.I would be lying if at one point I wondered if I had made the right choice in have this surgery, That was when I was at a low point about 2 wks out feeling like crap not being able to eat much and missing food.Thank god I snapped out of it and have moved on now. Oh I still have a day here and there that I can't eat as much as I know I should be but it works it's self out it seems the next day. I seem to be able to eat better after I have been up a while, if I try to to soon right after getting up i seem to get nausea so I wait till I am up about 3 hrs before eating something. I do faithly take my vit as soon as I get up though.I am amazed at how little I have to eat to feel full,of course I am still learning how to do things with my new pouch,some times when I eat I feel full fast others times I don't and want to eat more but I have found that if I wait about 10 mins I relize I don't actually want more after all. I have not been counting all my carbs or protein or calories, I just can't do it anymore, I did not have this done so that I would have to do this life long counting crap. I watch what I eat make sure i only have so many gms of sugar per meal and so many carbs per meal ect.. I just don't write it all down cause then it seems like I am still doing all the dieting thing and I know all to well the pitfalls of dieting, if they had worked I would'nt have need this surgery, but they never seem to work for me. So for now what I am doing is working for me and I am happy with that. I have a month till my next checkup(8wk one) and I should be down under 200 pds by then, WOW me under 200 pds have'nt seen that in over 17 yrs it is amazing how my body is changing, I can't wait to see the end result.

Well I called the dr yesterday and talked about my eating or lack of recently, and he told me that what I am experenceing is normal, that the feeling will go away in time. I then spoke to the nut and she and I went over a few things and I think I was eating to fast inbetween bites, she told me that if my food gets cold to reheat it but to make sure I am allowing enough time inbetween each bite. So I made hambuger helper for dinner and WOW I finally ate it and it stayed down!! I also had some baked beans with it, it all went down ok, but yeah had to reheat 1 time because I did go slow, I was so glad that I could eat I think I ate to much, because I had to lay down afterwards for a while to let it all digest, so I have to remember small portions and eat slower. Next month I go to see the doc again for my 8 wk checkup and at that time I will beadvanced to the last stage from there it will just be trial and error to see what I can and can not tolrate, they say just take it SLOW and keep portions low at first till I see how I will react to new foods. I am walking again today at the gym 3 days in a row this week and am doing 1.2 miles and doing 800 steps, could be more but hey it is a start and I am moving and thats better than doing nothing at all. I go back to work in 2 wks so I will be moving alot more then too.I know I will have good days and bad days I just am trying to take one day at a time for now. but hey it is getting better slowy but getting there.

Ok I am 4 wks post-op now and wondering man will I ever feel normal again. I am worried about what I will "look" like with the weight gone, I mean I am not in a finincal way to have any plastics not even in the furture for now,plus I don't know if I could take the pain of recovering again. I look all the time on here at the before and after pics of people and wonder did that one have plastics did that one I mean how much will my skin shrink up? will my belly go down or just hang down LOL. I am trying to eat but still am having a hard time most days, as long as it is a liquids everything goes down pretty well but to try most other things I still am getting the feeling like something gets stuck and to the trash can I go, I have to go back to work in 17 day (6wks off for surgery) an I am still not having alot of energy and I am worried that I will struggle once back to get through the day, I have not been able to exercise alot let due to the cold the snow, and that I also had a very large repair to my dieaphram so no abd exercise for another 4 wks per my dr. so now I am worndering if I will still lose weight while not being able to exercise much yet. Then with all this down time being at home I started smoking again and am very disappointed in my self for that so now I will have to deal with that again in the near furture. I was 33 days from a yr of not smoking and being here at home with nothing to do but sit around and heal well it took it's toll and I broke down and smoked( hubby still smokes so that did'nt help). Anyway I am just hoping that my energy picks up and that I will soon be able to get some good solid food down soon. I want to feel normal again so bad. I want to be able to eat out again tried it once so far and well lets just say it was not pretty nor did it stay down, I tried a chicken leg tonite thing since dark meat is more moist it would stay down nope did'nt work to the trash can I went. I feel so discouraged at times but I am hoping that these "blues" go away soon and I get back to a "normal" way of feeling again.

Well I finally found a protein i really do like and can sip on all day, it is the Isopure drinks, I like about 4 flavors so far and each 20oz bottle has 40mg of protein! So thats helps me so much with getting in the protein I need to, since I am not eating alot right now. I go in 6 days for my 1st follow-up appt since my surgery 14 days ago, and I have so many questions to ask, I am writing them down so I don't forget any. My pain is almost all gone now but seem to feel like food and some liquids sometimes gets stuck will ask about that. I am hoping that after i have my appt and meeet with the nut that day to that I can add more to my meun, I am SO tired of mashed pot and cottage cheese, I want so flavor and something to chew. So I will update again after I meet with my doc, till then...

well today I am 8 days out and doing well. I still have some pain, but it is very managable at this point. I seen my own Dr yeaterday and I am off my sugar meds now. I go see a cardiologist next week and am hoping that I might soon be off bp meds too. I must say I have 13 more days till i go back to see my WLS doc and I can't wait I am tired of the "soft" foods I have to be on for now, I want a little more choices. I will be on my own tommorow hubby goes back to work and I will be home alone , I have 30 days yet till I return, actually I would rather be working, I get bored easily sitting around the house.I am also off my reflux meds wow I was on them for the past 15 yrs never thought I would ever get rid of them, I am just on the start of my journey now on the other side and I am sure it will be a good ride.

Well I got home on the 9th(had surgery on the 7th), And I think I am doing ok. I know I am not getting in the amount of protein that they want me too, but I am trying.I was so shocked at what the doctor said about my hernia. I am grateful that he was able to fix it and contiune the surgery as a lap, but man am I sore!! he told me I would be since it was like 2 major operations in 1. I did "dump" the first time I put anything into my mouth, it was my morning meds, and boy that was a very uncomfortable feeling to have my hair was soaked with sweat for about a hr. I guess my biggest disappointment was the nursing care i got afterwards. I was afraid that I would not get good care and I was right. I would never let anyone I know go there and stay alone after a surgery at that hosp ever. The Doctors care was fine, it was the nursing aftercare that I had trouble with.I have wondered the past couple of days how much i have lost, but I will wait till I see my dr to find out my post-op 2wks loss. My hubby has been wonderful in helping me, but I like doing as much for  me as possible to keep moving.I have to call tommorow and get my PCP follow-up appt made. I can't wait till I can take a bath, I am a bath person and I can't do them for right now and I am so wanting to soak right now. I can't wait to go though to my appt and see what meds I will be able to go off of. Anyway I will post more later when I have some # to put down ok.

Ok in 12 hrs I will be in surgery, Wow it is so hard to believe. I was looking at photos I found of me a couple of yrs ago and I just began to sob, I could not believe I got to where I am looking like this and just how badly this all has effected my health the most..I know my hubby is a little nervous about this too he was more quiter than usual tonite, and he gets that way when he gets nervous. But I will keep them photos so everytime I want to "give in" to things I know I should'nt I want to look at them and remember that was how I got to where i am and what I have had to go through to lose it.of course to nite in am very emotional and as I sat in the tub tonite I "talked" with my lord and said my prayers. I am just so excited that I will be off most of my meds, man saving that money will be nice every month, and the fact that I will not have to face every morning with a handful of pills will be easier to swallow too LOL.I am thankful for the support I have from my family and friends altough some friends didn't like me having this, but then again they are not faced with the health problems that have plagued me more and more every yr.So anyway going to take a sleep med to help me sleep tonite to hyped up LOL.
looking forward to working with my new tool and becoming healthy and alive again, what a way to start 2009!!!

Ok I have done my final weigh-in I am off to surgery in 2 days.my final weigh-in is 246.7 lbs,  at 5'1.I am on my way to my friends place so we can do my measurements so I can keep track of inches lost. I am off work tommorow and then work 1 more day then surgery. I am so nervous and excited to be getting this chance, I am going to keep my before pic on my pc monitor soIf I ever feel like "cheating" or going back to old habits all I will have to do is look at what the end result will be if I convert to old habits ever again.I thank god I have been given this tool to help me gain control over my life and health again.

Well only 8 days till surgery and for some strange reason today all I want to do is cry, I for some odd reason feel as though I am grieving although I don't know for what. I wonder if others have felt this way before surgery. I know how much better my health will be for this and for giving myself the chance to finally live and be here for my grandchildren. I have no regrets so I can't understand why I am crying, I think part of it is that all my life this has been a security for me in some way and now I will feel"naked" to the world in some way. I saw one of my docs today( I work in a hosp) and he asked me how much longer till my surgery I told him, 8 days and he reinstilled in me that this is the best thing I could do for my self and my health, and not to mention the money i would be saving on meds hahaha,anyway I told him how I was feeling today and he told me that it is not uncommon for some to feel like this right before something like this. any way just hoping tommorow is better. I will post again soon till then later..

Ok well today is dec 26th 2008 and I only have 11 days till my new life will start. I am so excited and scared, so many emotions in my head I want to jump for joy one moment and cry the next. I want to cry because I i can't belive I got to a place like this in my life, how did I get this low and this fat? I work with a few people that have had this surgery done most are 2-3 yrs out and they are eating again like they used too and some are regaing weight I am so afraid that that will happen to me. I pray that anything with sugar make me dump terribly, I pray that I will never again be able to have bad simple carbs with out paying for it by dumping,cause I am one that if that happend alot I will somehow learn in my mind of minds that I will not ever eat that again.I am a worrier by nature so of course I am wondering "what if I don't like the new me" what if all the loose skin will just makes me sick to look at and we are not at a place in our lives money wise that ps is even close to being an option right now or 4 yrs from now, so what the hell am I gonna do with the skin? OMG I have to stop worry like this or else I will develop an ulcer again LOL. I have done that in the past, I stress way to much over some things at times.Oh well I think alot of this is pre-op jitters so I am gonna go take a hot bath relax  deep
 breath soak and then watch a funny movie. later