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I am now down to a 12/14 size depending on the maker of the clothing.  My feet shrunk to 11's and 11 1/2's.  I've had to get rid of my good dress shoes as they are stretched out.  I have had fun shopping at discount clothing stores getting some good buys as I lost weight.  It has been fun picking out lively colorful clothing rather than tents with drab colors.  I am so happy that I had the surgery.l I was mentally ready for this that is for sure.  When I travel on business I can take a small carryon as my clothes are smaller.  My weight is droping still, about 1-2 pounds a week. I've hit my BMI under 23/24 (5''11" and 172).  I have fruit roll ups for boobs (as my daughter calls them) saggy belly skin and bat wings.  Nothing too bad that I have a plastic surgeon on speed dial.  It would be nice to get boobs back though.  My husband loves me no matter what I look like and that is good for me (at least right now! :)) I have more energy, am more flexible, happier, I LOVE LIFE!!

First week of work, not too bad.  Felt good and had energy.  Was very happy that shirts that had been sitting in my closet for over a year + fit!  I have a new wardrobe, at least for a little while.  Haven't gotten on a scale as I am using my clothes to gage my weight loss.  I'll be weighed next week at the Dr. apt anyway. 

Hard part is drinking enough.  My skin is so dry and cracked, I have to push water as I forget.  Maybe I need to get one of those hats that holds beer cans with a straw snaked to your mouth.  If I used water, I could sip without picking up a glass!

First day back to work.  Good energy today, really since Friday of last week.  I was able to wear a shirt today that before was too tight on the arms and I couldn't button it fully.  Nice to have something new in my wardrobe!

I was feeling a bit down as I didn't see any weight loss for a week.  I was losing inches!

So far so good!

two weeks post op.  Yesterday I felt wonderful, had a lot of energy, ate good protien, shopped wth my kids, only a little tired last night.  Today, I couldn't get out of bed to drive my daughter to her bus stop (she can walk if necessary). I could barely drag myself out of bed to get my son to the bus.  I am EXHAUSTED.

I took one of the shortest showers ever as I felt I would pass out.  I want to go back to bed.... I took my B12 andvitamins and had a apple and banana with water.

I dread going to work on Monday as it s very mental, I fear I will be so exhausted that I won't be able to make it the whole day. 

I hope today gets better.

Saw Dr today. Down to 270.5, Eating soft foods without any problems. See him back in 3 weeks.  I keep moving forward

On top of everything, I am severely bipolar, Meds do help, some.  shit

I had been struggling with weight issues since I left High School. Never got compliments from my Mom and was old I was fat. You eventually believe it. Being 6 ft didn't help as I alraedy felt I never was part of a group, had friends etc. In 2002, an older sister had RNY for weight and other healh reasons. She is a success story, but anyway, I thought about it also, I wanted to be thin and this is how I can do it.  So many things were going on in my life at that time so surgery wasn't an option.  I underwent elective jaw surgery to correct severe TMJ with disatrous results, unable to eat, two infections requiring a 2nd surgery. Needless to say, I couldn't chew anything and was on a soft/liquid diet.  I was loosing weight at the same speed as my sister so people thought both f us had the surgery. At the time I was 260 pounds. By the time I recovered from surgery and braces I wasdown to 200. I vowed I would not gain the weight again, getting rid ofall my "fat" clothes. During this time I was having marital difficulties, gave up drinking and found out I was bipolar with severe depression.  A lot for a person to deal with in  1 year. When I was able to eat "normal" food I did and slowly gained back the weight. I still thought about GP yet realized I had to be in the right frame ofmnd or it wouldn't work.  In 2005, I decided to quit smoking and joint WW. I was 216 at this point in the throws of changing up my psych meds. I was successful with the stopping smoking and failed at WW. My weight then ballooned. I still thought about GP but realized that the only way I was able to quit drinking and smoking was because I was mentaly ready for it.  Here is it 2010, a lot more problems arose from 2005 to now which I weathered pretty well.  I finally realizd I was ready for another lifestyle change, mentally.  I began the process Feb 2010, which took 6 months for approval. I hardly went to the DR so there wasn't a lot of WL discussion in my files. 

I had my surgery September 23rd and discharged 25th.  I had to be on a 2 week liquid diet before, I failed realizing I was loosing a friend. I was fully liquid 3 days before surgery so no problems.   Since I have been discharged, I have had little pain, more discomfort, a lot of gas and diarrhea.  I am afraid I am not getting enough water. Difficult time last night, felt like I had gas bubbles that wouldn't go away no matter what.

I do not regret this surgery, I only regret I don't have the support of my husband.  Oh well, I was able to get rid of 2 vices without his help or support and I can do this as well.  My kids love me no matter what.

My highest weight was 295 and as of surgery I was 277 (depends on whose scale you are on). I don't have a goal weight as yet, I wish to be realistic.  My journey has begun! :)