jeepgirl99
I have struggled with my weight since childhood. In junior high and high school I was teased and picked on. After suffering an injury in college I lost over 60lbs and it was the first time that I began to like the way I looked. However, as time went on the pounds began to creep back. I began to eat more and more with my emotions and things just spiraled out of control. I felt hopeless and found myself looking for help. After viewing some weight loss commercials I decided to attend a seminar at the local hospital. My good friend attended with me. I remember sitting in that meeting room and feeling completely overwhelmed and not quite convinced that surgery was right for me. Five more years passed by before I once again found myself back in that same meeting room. This time, I was beginning to accept the idea of surgery. As I sat there with my older brother, tears fell from my eyes as I just felt like a complete failure and disappointment to myself and family. I keep questioning myself, "how could I have gotten this heavy?" After that meeting we made an appointment with the clinic and started to look into the surgery. To be honest, I still wasn't sure I was quite there. I had other things on my mind. I was getting married, buying and home and surgery didn't seem like a fit. As I look back now, I can see that these were all excuses. It finally took me a year later to jump full in and this time I was serious. On May 28th, I booked my endoscopy and had my consultation on June 6th. From that point on I became so focused that I never thought twice or looked back. My surgery was scheduled for August 18th and I was going to do everything to be successful. As I sit here writing this story, it amazes me of how fast the past few months have gone. Each day has brought many new challenges. But I am continuing to work my way through it.
