Jennifer M.

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It has been forever since I left a post. I have had a busy summer with my kids and my brother got married. I helped with making the artificial flower arrangments and other decorations. It took a lot more time than I thought it would. 

I am now down to 171lbs, and I have been wearing 10's or 12's. It is amazing to me that I am wearing those sizes. I haven't worn a 10 since I was in the 9th grade maybe the 8th. 

My weight loss has really slowed down, and it is my fault. I havn't been exercising as much as I was. I have been having headaches daily, and I had to have my gallbladder removed the end of June. That surgery was nothing though compared to all of the others. I was on my way to Daytona Beach 9 days later. I have been having trouble getting back on track. I have sugar cravings like crazy and eventhough I dump I have a hard time resisting them. I have learned to stay away from icecream. even one bite makes me feel really sick.

I am really working on getting back on track and I am posting some more pictures. You would think after losing 100lbs I would be flying high, but I am just out of energy so I am increasing my protein again I let it drop and that can keep me from being as energized as I could be.

Jennifer

Yesterday when I weighed in I was at 193. Which is great. I have lost 80 lbs. I have lost more weight than my 11 year old son weighs. However, and here is the but, I just don't see that much. Everyone says I look great and they are impressed, but I just ain't fellin it. I changed my avatar to flash from before and after, because I was hoping to see it more. 

Don't get me wrong I see weight loss, I just don't think I see a dramatic difference. I just wonder if my perception is off or something. I am seeing myself as anorexic people see themselves. They say they always see themselves as fat. I hope as I lose my last 40 to 50 lbs this will level out for me. That much weight now will probably make way more of an impact than my first 50lbs. 

One good thing is that I am officially just overweight.

Today I am below 200!!! I am at 198 not far below, but still I am finally under my first major goal. With all of the diet's I have tried in the past I can get down to 200, but I have never been able to make it under that weight until now. I am so happy, but at the same time I am so greedy I want more weight loss. 

My brother is getting married on June 23rd, and I am a bridesmaid. I would love to be at 180 for the wedding but it will be a miracle if that happens. I need to lose 2.59 lbs a week to make it to that goal and I have only been losing about 2.5 which isn't much different as long as I don't slow down at all. The dresses she picked out lace up the back so that I can lace it up tighter with out having to take it the dress in, although I really hope I have to have it altered.

In total I am down 75lbs, not bad for just over 4 months, but like I said I always want more. I want to be at goal yesterday.

I have still been working out, but I am trying to use moderation. I was having some dizzy spells, and I don't know if it is from my medicines or if it is from exercising so much on a limited amount of calories. Cutting back on the exercise has helped, but I still have the spells some times. I will post again soon. 

I am now ten weeks out and down 52 pounds. I have been discouraged for a couple of weeks now because I wasn't losing but maybe a pound a week. So I stepped up my exercise and lost 7 pounds this week. I intend to keep exercising as much as I have been and hopefully I will continue to lose weight more steadily. 

My mom tells me I am getting obsessive about exercising, but I don't think so, and even if I am I think exercise is much better than other obsessions. Anyway, I am going to be in my brothers wedding at the end of June and I would like to lose a great deal more weight by then.

It has been a month since my last post, and I have lost 38 pounds total. I lost six before my surgery and 32 after. It is moving along very quickly, but I am so impatient. 

I am on a regular diet now, however I have chosen to avoid sugar whenever I can, because I am such a sugar addict. I have been eating carbs, and should cut back on those to lose weight more quickly, but that is still hard for me. 
Another problem I was having was getting in my water. I decided to try and ignore the nausea, because my doc told me that it is a circle. You feel nausous don't drink and get dehydrated then the dehydration causes nausea. So I just tried to ignore it and it is much easier to drink now. 

I have been going to water aerobics twice a week and am planning to start going more. I want to add yoga as well.  

It has been a week since my surgery, and I have so far lost 12lbs. I can not believe that I have had my surgery and am on my way to being a thinner, healthier me.  I do have to keep reminding myself at times why I have done this. I have not had any complications, but I just wasn't really ready for the gas pain from the laproscopic procedure. I have not burped or passed so much gas in my life. 

I have had trouble finding High protein liquid food that I like, and my medication has not been very easy to take. Having to cut up the pills and take them has made the taste awful, and some of them really make me feel sick. I have talked to my other doctors about decreasing some of the amounts I have to take, and they have agreed. Hopefully that will make it easier.

The only other minor problem I have had is the drain they put in my stomache during the surgery was removed before I came home, but it keeps oozing a yellow mucous. I went to see the nurse today, and she said it is just a little ous, but made me an appointment to see the doctor in a couple of days. 

I am excited about the rest of the year and what happens.

I wanted to post my daily thoughts throughout the last two weeks, but I have been busier than I expected with Christmas.

I haven't really had time to be nervous with everything going on, and it is hard to believe that tomorrow is the big day. I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 in the morning. I am really going to miss spending the day after Christmas with my kids, because that is the day that we all get to stay home and just play with our new stuff. 

One thing that I keep reminding myself is that next year will be even better, because hopefully I won't feel so tired all of the time, and hopefully I will have an excellent summer. Tomorrow will be the start of a very good new year. 

Tonight I am having my Christmas dinner as my final dinner before the big day.

I'll be back in a few days.

After I finished all of my testing and my six month diet trial I had a surgery date within three days. The date only gave me about 18 days to prepare. I am so ready though. I wish it wasn't the day after Christmas, but at least I am going to start this year off right.