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Well it has been a long time but I thought I would post today. The past several months have been very busy for me.  I started a new job in August and it has been a whirlwind. I will say it is a refreshing change from my last job. Anyway, after I started my job I weighed 223 lbs. Within 2 weeks I was down to 213 lbs. Can you tell they kept me busy?  Since then my weightloss has slowed down but I am losing inches. I'm down to 206 lbs. It is so weird because I am in a size 16. I was not in a size 16 in high school. I'm so excited. My life has really changed this  year.  I thank God for giving me the strength to make changes in my life. You know, I've never felt better in my life. I feel great physically and mentally. 

I still have goals to meet and the holidays are hard for me. In Louisiana all events evolve around food. Every gathering, football game, etc. I'm not going to be hard on myself though. I will take day by day and keep from stressing. That is when I really eat when I am stressed.

Got to go. Have a lot more to write but not the time right now. 

Jamie

Well, I haven't written in a long time. Time flies when you are having fun. Finally, we went on our vacation last week. We all had a great time and I definitely needed it.  Prior to me leaving for my vacation, I received a job offer. I am very, very excited about starting this new opportunity.  I wish things would have worked out where I currently work but it was not a fit for me.  I have beliefs and goals for myself and the area I currently work in goes against these things. That is okay, working here I met a lot of great people and had a some definite learning experiences. 

Now, on another note. I need to get in an exercise routine and get busy losing some more weight. I would love to get down at least 20 more pounds prior to October 11th. That is when we leave for our all girls cruise. That is something else I have to look forward too.

I will say that I have been blessed in my life with a wonderful family, friends and opportunities in life. Sometimes things can get you down but keeping your faith is the key. That is something that I have to constantly remind myself of, God will come through for you if you are patient. He has blessed me in the past several months. I was able to have my surgery in February and everything went awesome. I'm still losing weight. I am starting a new career path in a few weeks. My husband finally decided it was time to build our new home. So, I'm excited about that. I just didn't realize how much work went into that and we have not even broken ground. That's okay, this is something I really want and it will work out. My kids are healthy and loving life. My family is healthy. Things are good. There are bumps in the road and when I am going through the down periods it does hurt my heart and even though I may not be thinking clearly at that time. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. 

I'll post again soon.....

I just have to say, YEAH it is almost the weekend.  LOL  This week has been rough. Anyway, I wanted to note that I didn't make my 5 pound goal but I did lose weight. So, that is great with me. Now, let's talk hair. My hair is falling out in clumps. I'm not understanding because I have been good about eating my protein. My friend told me it was natural and was probably falling out due to the anesthesia getting out of my system. She said her hair did the same thing but it stopped. My hair has changed though and it seems stringy. I have a hair appointment on July 7th so hopefully my hairdresser can help me. I may have to cut my hair and start over. That stresses me out but I know it is just hair and will grow back. On another note, my vacation is only a couple weeks away and I can't wait!!! I really, really need one!

Oh yeah, I finally posted some pictures. LOL

Okay, no weight loss and I have no reason to be mad at anybody but myself. It's funny but with the surgery I have really noticed what my weaknesses are when it comes to food. Stress is my downfall. I have been so stressed out the past few weeks and depressed that I have turned to food. I am making bad choices which is going to stop today!  I cannot let my life's stresses sabotage my weight loss. This is very easy to say but it is going to be very hard to overcome. So, I am going to get myself straight and back on track. I'm too close to my goal to stop. Also, I've wanted this too bad not to do the right thing. I know that everyone makes bad choices from time to time but it is recognizing them that is the key. Hopefully, when I write the next time I can say I lost at least  pounds. Let that be my goal to lose at least 5 pounds by my next weigh in on Thursday. 

On another note, I have uploaded some new pictures finally. LOL I kept saying I was going to do it and never did. I can tell you that taking pictures is the way to go. You know I've mentioned the mind thing. How you know you have lost a lot of weight. Hell, I've lost a small child. LOL But, my mind looks in the mirror and still sees a big old girl. The pictures really show the difference. I have always hated pictures because of my weight. Now, I can't wait to lose enough to take a really cute family picture. 

Until next time.,,,,,,,

Forgot to post about my Drs appointment the other day.  I went to see my PCP on 06/12/07 for the lump I found on the tip of my sternum.  The doctor is kind of stumped too. She said it was not a lipoma because it was to hard. She said it almost feels like it is part of my xyphoid process (tip of my sternum) however, she said that it is not normally like that.  So, she sent me for x-rays. Hopefully, they will call me today with the findings. It doesn't hurt but I can feel when something pushes against it, it is very uncomfortable for me. Who knows what it is? It could have been there for a while but I never found it due to my weight. Guess I can't worry but that is my nature. 

Over the past few weeks I have been tired. Guess it is that I have been so stressed over things at work, I haven't slept. This has been going on for several weeks now.  So, it is time for me to make some changes and look for another job. When a job starts affecting your health both physically and mentally it is time to move on. 

Enough of  that stuff, Thursday is my official weigh date. I'm so excited I'm down 61 pounds. I haven't measured lately but I can tell that I am losing a lot inches. I bought some smaller clothes and they are beginning to get bigger. It feels good but a person's mind can play tricks on them. I know I still have a lot of weight to lose and I look in the mirror and still get depressed. From my clothes and the scale it is proof of the weight loss but my mind is crazy. I'm sure once I get closer to my goal it will get better. 

Now, let's talk about hanging arms. It is gross!!!!!  My arms have always been big but never hung like bat wings. LOL  I'm hoping that as I lose some more weight that will start disappearing. When I wave my hand my upper arm waves too. HA HA HA  I always said I wouldn't get plastic surgery but I feel it coming. 

Got to go, I have a meeting. Woo-hoo  Will write more later.

02/08/07  Starting Weight 290

Week 1    02/15/07   267 (23 lbs down)

Week 2    02/22/07  267 (no change)

Week 3    03/01/07   267 (no change)

Week 4    03/08/07  263 (4 lbs down total 27 lbs)

Week 5    03/15/07   263 (no change)

Week 6    03/22/07  258 (5 lbs down total 32 lbs)

Week 7    03/29/07  254 (3 lbs down total 36 lbs)

Week 8    04/05/07  250.6 (3.4 lbs down total 39.4 lbs)

Week 9      04/12/07  245.6 (5 lbs down total 44.4 lbs)

Week 10   04/19/07  243.8 (1.8 lbs down total 46.2 lbs)

Week 11   04/26/07  242.6 (1.2 lbs down total 47.4 lbs)

Week 12   05/03/07 240.4 (2.2 lbs down total 49.6 lbs)

Week 13   05/10/07  238.2 (2.2 lbs down total 51.8 lbs)

Week 14   05/17/07 235.2 (3 lbs down total 54.8 lbs)

Week 15   05/24/07 233.4 (1.8 lbs down total 56.6 lbs)

Week 16    06/07/07  231.8  (1.6 lbs down total 58.2 lbs)

Week 17   06/14/07   229 (2.8 lbs down total 61 lbs)

Week 18  06/21/07   229.2 (0 lbs down total 60.8 lbs)

Week 19  06/28/07   225.4 (3.8 lbs down total 64.6 lbs)

Week 20  07/05/07   223.8 (1.6 lbs down total 66.2 lbs)

Week 21  07/12/07    223.2 ( .6 lbs down total 66.8 lbs)

Week 22  07/19/07  Didn't weight went on vacation.

Week 23  07/26/07  220.8 (2.4 lbs down total 69.2 lbs)

Haven't wrote in a while, I have been having a lot going on. My work is driving me nuts. I'm in the process of finding another job and hopefully something will come up soon. Work has had me stressed to the point that my memory has been bad. My friend told me I repeat things that I have told her all ready. I can see that happening. I haven't been sleeping well and when I do it is such hard sleep that it is not rest. Anyway, in the midst of all this my husband threw me a surprise birthday party last Friday. It was so nice and I was very surprised. Since last week my eating has not been good. I have been making bad choices but not so much that as I have just been eating to eat. So, I have vowed to get back on track and not let the stress sabotage me. Also, I've been going out to eat a lot more than usual. That doesn't help either. My son finished his baseball season this week and I am kind of sad. I really enjoyed going to the ballfield and watching him play. Also, I met a lot of nice people this year. On another note, I can't wait until my vacation. I really, really need one.

Went to see Dr. Hargroder Wednesday, actually saw Holly his PA. The visit went well. According to their scale I am down 56 pounds according to mine, it is only 55 but that is not a big difference. I'm right on track with everything. I'm feeling very good physically.  The only thing that has me bothered is the knot I found in my stomach several weeks ago. I thought it was a hernia but Holly said it wasn't a hernia. She wasn't sure what it was and recommended I make an appointment with my general physician. She did say that it may be a fatty tumor. She said that is common and happens to anyone not just the obese. So, I made an appointment with my GP on June 12th. I really wasn't worried about the knot because I thought it was a hernia. Now, that I have found out otherwise I am worrying. I've been a little depressed too. Of course, it is in my nature to think the worse about things. So, I'm thinking that one of my biggest dreams was to have weight loss surgery. I did it and I am so happy. Now, I have this growth inside my body and it may change everything. I'm going to try and stay positive. So, I guess I will find out on the 12th. Well, got to go. I have a meeting in 20 minutes that is all ready making me nervous. (You know me, thinking the worse. LOL) Of course, I am getting my performance review at work and that would make anyone nervous I'm sure. Plus I have a new Manager who has only been in the position about 3 weeks. I guess that is why I am nervous because she doesn't know me or my work. Life is too hard. I don't like being an adult. LOL Way too many worries and responsibilities. LOL HA HA HA  I just keep telling myself, only a short time until my cruise in October. I can't wait!! I am going to destress!

Haven't written in a while, same old things going on. Work is giving me the fits. I'm trying to deal with that though. Tomorrow, I have an appointment with Dr. Hargroder's office. I'm nervous and excited.  I have lost 54 pounds and that is exciting. However, I found a knot between my breast, like right under my bra line. It was never there before unless it was and because I was so fat I never noticed it. Now, that some of my weight is off I feel it . It doesn't hurt or anything. I'm thinking it might be a hernia. I guess the doctor will tell me tomorrow. I'll write more tomorrow after my appointment at 1:30.

Yesterday, I went to Canton, MS to the big Arts & Craft festival. We left at 2:30 a.m. and was on the road for the 3 hour drive. On the way, my  youngest sister wanted to stop at Waffle House. I was good in what I ate. Only a little scrambled eggs, 1 piece of bacon and 2 bites of hasbrown. Then we were off again. Once we got there it was 6:10 a.m. We had a lot of fun shopping. I mostly drank lemonade while I was there. Then my sister got a chick-on- a stick. It is a piece of fried chicken, onion and pickle. My other sister got a plate of fried pickles only. I ate a few onions and pickles. After that, I got so hot I really didn't want anything. We walked and didn't stop until almost 3 p.m. When we finally got on the road my sister wanted an ice cream. Now, here is where my mistake came in. I decided I would get one too. I got a hot fudge sundae with nuts. After I ate it, I started feeling very ill. I was so nauseated and felt bad all over. My stomach hurt but it was a different kind of hurt. I felt terrible and even cried. It took all the ride home for me to feel any better. Afterwards I felt like a mack truck hit me. Once we got home, I had to immediately leave and go to my son's baseball game. By the time I got home from the game I had gotten my second wind. I took a bath and went laid down to watch t.v. and finally fell asleep. Today I am feeling it. However, I did lose another pound. Hopefully, all that walking yesterday will kick my weight loss up a notch. Guess we will see.