Jackie E.
Crazy, Hectic Life!!!
Mar 03, 2008
Things have just been rediculous around here. Since my surgery I had a long recovery, though no complications to speak of. I had a major flu, yuck, especially when you can't really take anything. And I started back to school, before a month was even out. Things are starting to settle down now, but the school thing was just way too soon. I've lost 52 lbs. to date. Not bad if I do say so myself. This was just a quick note. Sorry. I'm off to study for my spanish exam tomorrow. Adios!
Sorry it's been so long!
Feb 03, 2008
I know I promised to keep everyone up to date, well, I'm not so good at that. Everything has been so busy here. I started school back on Jan. 7th. Let me tell you it wasn't the smartest thing I've ever done. I'm just now at the point where I'm not so darn tired all the time. I'm doing really well with my weight loss. I weighed in today at 216, that's 40 lbs. since Dec. 12th. I actually am wearing a pair of large pants. It's the first time since high school I'm wearing a large, not an x-large. Small things make me so happy. This is going to be a quick note because I just finished with my homework and now I need sleep, it's almost 2am here. Anyways, I'm going to try and get pictures posted real soon. Have to find the stupid camera. I personally think I'm looking damn good though. Later.
I'm home!
Dec 16, 2007
Too tired right now to write much, just thought I would let everyone know that I made it home yesterday. I'll write soon about my experience down at Madigan Army Medical Center.
There is a reason people don't post!
Dec 07, 2007
I posted what I suppose was an innocent enough post. Wel, I had some great support and then I had people yelling at me. Geez, get a life people. There is a reason I haven't made many post and there is a reason new people just don't post. Goodness, if anyone's relationship isn't exactly like theirs, or should I say their ideal of the perfect relationship well, you are just up shit creek. I'm just so upset right now. I honestly don't know if I will participate in the board. I will continue to post but there is some very bitter, self rightous people on here. I say so what if my husband becomes the 'Food Nazi'... at least I have someone caring and helping me stick to my diet. Who cares if he reminds me to exercise? My husband has never called me fat, NEVER! How many of these same bitter women can say that? I thought my post would get a few chuckles, but OMG... I just ignore the High School Bullshit and Read the Boards anyways. But I must say I tried to find a place to fit in and I was yelled at and persecuted because my doctor put me on a different plan and my life is different then theirs. I could just block these people, but I do believe in Freedom of Speech.
And for the record, my stuffed isn't usually what most people call stuffed. I'm still managing to eat under 1000 calories a day. That is hard for a lot of post op people that I know personally. Of course, they are all about 5-8 years out. I honestly don't believe people should post anything if they are going to take a 'tone'. I'm a 33 year old, Pre-op patient whose doctor told her to eat every meal as if it was her last. Well, guess what I am. I didn't have to do a Pre-op diet so There. But unlike a lot of you I'm gonna be on basically babyfood for 2 months. Full liquid for 2 weeks and then only soft strainable foods. SIGH!
I'm sorry this is such a rant, and for those of you who have no clue what it is about, I'm sorry that you are reading this now. I just have to get it out and I don't believe it would be productive to rant on the boards or to rant to my husband. Because frankly, I don't mind being fed right now. Because I know it won't last. How many of these same women have to put up with their husbands leaving for months at a time? If I want to suck it up while I can I will. I totally regret posting anything to begin with. I should have just stayed a lurker, because obviously some people need to make others as miserable as they are.
It aggrevates me that people will tell me I'm gonna fail before I even start. I guess they have a crystal ball somewhere.
I will be back to my normal smiling self soon. To those who really don't know me... I'm not normally so bitchy. Today is just special. I was told by so many people including my doctor that Obesity Help would be a great site. Well, it's a great site with a few not so great people. Or maybe they were just having a not so nice day as well. If I saved someone else from getting laid into, so be it. I don't have to comment back and perpetuate the juvenile behavior. Please forgive the spelling errors. I tend to do that when I get upset. Well I'm off! I hope everyone has a wonderful evening. And those who posted the not so nice comments all I have to say is please think twice about what your words can do to someone else. I have never or will ever post something that I know will knowingly hurt someones feelings. These same people could have just rolled their eyes and moved on to another post. That's what I do!
And for the record, my stuffed isn't usually what most people call stuffed. I'm still managing to eat under 1000 calories a day. That is hard for a lot of post op people that I know personally. Of course, they are all about 5-8 years out. I honestly don't believe people should post anything if they are going to take a 'tone'. I'm a 33 year old, Pre-op patient whose doctor told her to eat every meal as if it was her last. Well, guess what I am. I didn't have to do a Pre-op diet so There. But unlike a lot of you I'm gonna be on basically babyfood for 2 months. Full liquid for 2 weeks and then only soft strainable foods. SIGH!
I'm sorry this is such a rant, and for those of you who have no clue what it is about, I'm sorry that you are reading this now. I just have to get it out and I don't believe it would be productive to rant on the boards or to rant to my husband. Because frankly, I don't mind being fed right now. Because I know it won't last. How many of these same women have to put up with their husbands leaving for months at a time? If I want to suck it up while I can I will. I totally regret posting anything to begin with. I should have just stayed a lurker, because obviously some people need to make others as miserable as they are.
It aggrevates me that people will tell me I'm gonna fail before I even start. I guess they have a crystal ball somewhere.
I will be back to my normal smiling self soon. To those who really don't know me... I'm not normally so bitchy. Today is just special. I was told by so many people including my doctor that Obesity Help would be a great site. Well, it's a great site with a few not so great people. Or maybe they were just having a not so nice day as well. If I saved someone else from getting laid into, so be it. I don't have to comment back and perpetuate the juvenile behavior. Please forgive the spelling errors. I tend to do that when I get upset. Well I'm off! I hope everyone has a wonderful evening. And those who posted the not so nice comments all I have to say is please think twice about what your words can do to someone else. I have never or will ever post something that I know will knowingly hurt someones feelings. These same people could have just rolled their eyes and moved on to another post. That's what I do!
OMG, OMG, Oh My GAWD!
Dec 07, 2007
5 Days! Only 5 Days! It is just hitting home that I'm having surgery in 5 Freaking Days! So Many questions running through my head. Am I doing the right thing? I am doing this for my health right? I'm not really as big as the doctors are saying, am I? I'm not going to leave my husband alone to raise our two children am I? I know I can't truely answer any of these, but this is what is going through my head. I was so certain, I am so certain that this surgery is what I need and that it is for me. It's just I'm so afraid. I don't even think I'm afraid of dieing. I'm afraid of failing. My insecurities, etc. are coming through thinking that I'll be the one person in 100 that fails. I keep thinking I'll lose 10 pounds, maybe, and that will be it.
I know I'm being completely unreasonable, but I don't know anyother way! My husband is feeding me so much, stuffing me like a Christmas Goose. I've had people basically snap at me saying that I'm basically going to fail because I'm letting him get away with this now. (The messages probably didn't mean anything near that, but in my frantic mind that's what they said.) Am I going to fail because I'm giving in to him because I want him to feel in control of something. Oh why, oh why did I post a stupid message anyways? I should just keep things to myself. SIGH! You see I've never been really good at accepting compliments or criticism. I've always been that girl with the popular crowd that hung in the back. I wasn't the leader, and I wasn't really a follower. I was invited to the parties, but decided to stay home most nights. Sorry, wow, that was some tangent! LOL! You'll notice that about me, I tend to get 'Lost' sometimes, especially when my mind is on a thousand different things.
You know what I might be completely terrified, but I'm still going to just sit here and dance. No use dwelling on something so out of control anyways!
I know I'm being completely unreasonable, but I don't know anyother way! My husband is feeding me so much, stuffing me like a Christmas Goose. I've had people basically snap at me saying that I'm basically going to fail because I'm letting him get away with this now. (The messages probably didn't mean anything near that, but in my frantic mind that's what they said.) Am I going to fail because I'm giving in to him because I want him to feel in control of something. Oh why, oh why did I post a stupid message anyways? I should just keep things to myself. SIGH! You see I've never been really good at accepting compliments or criticism. I've always been that girl with the popular crowd that hung in the back. I wasn't the leader, and I wasn't really a follower. I was invited to the parties, but decided to stay home most nights. Sorry, wow, that was some tangent! LOL! You'll notice that about me, I tend to get 'Lost' sometimes, especially when my mind is on a thousand different things.
You know what I might be completely terrified, but I'm still going to just sit here and dance. No use dwelling on something so out of control anyways!
DELIVERY MAN HAS ME SO MAD!
Dec 01, 2007
Though to be fair it really isn't his fault. My husband and I purchased a new desk for our children, as a christmas present (aren't we boring). They had been asking for one for a long time now because theirs was just falling apart. Well, we ordered one on the internet from Office Depot. (We trust this company completely) The delivery date we were given was 10 December. Yeah! the kids would be in school so we could hide it and still surprise them. Well, it didn't work out that way at all. Stupid truck delivered it on Friday while the kids were home. SIGH! There is no possible way of hiding it. And, of course, my husband has duty til Sunday. Yep! Looks like Mom is putting together yet another furniture piece. I like to describe my abilities as Picasso-ish! LOL! 
I really need a Fairy Godmother at times like these! 
Well, between the 12 and 11 yr. olds, the dog (11 month old beagle), and my chuddy, short digits I finally got it together. I even tightened all the screws, but one, and really I'm sure that one won't count too much. 
I'm so proud of myself, I can't even describe the feeling. The kids love their new desk and I don't have a huge box in the middle of my floor. I hate boxes, it's the worst part of moving. Plus, I didn't have to ask my husband to do it.
My surgery time is inching closer too, so hours I'm fine and others I'm scared to death and have to constantly remind myself why I'm doing it. Reading all the blogs and stories on this site helps. I love looking at the before and after pictures. Maybe I'll be able to find time soon to describe the process of going through the military to get this surgery. It was pretty drawn out for me, but still much easier then a lot of stories I've read. Til later. ~Jackie
I couldn't get the 12 yr old off it long enought to take a picture. Guess he really likes it!
I really need a Fairy Godmother at times like these! Well, between the 12 and 11 yr. olds, the dog (11 month old beagle), and my chuddy, short digits I finally got it together. I even tightened all the screws, but one, and really I'm sure that one won't count too much. I'm so proud of myself, I can't even describe the feeling. The kids love their new desk and I don't have a huge box in the middle of my floor. I hate boxes, it's the worst part of moving. Plus, I didn't have to ask my husband to do it.My surgery time is inching closer too, so hours I'm fine and others I'm scared to death and have to constantly remind myself why I'm doing it. Reading all the blogs and stories on this site helps. I love looking at the before and after pictures. Maybe I'll be able to find time soon to describe the process of going through the military to get this surgery. It was pretty drawn out for me, but still much easier then a lot of stories I've read. Til later. ~Jackie
I couldn't get the 12 yr old off it long enought to take a picture. Guess he really likes it!
New Photo's Posted!
Nov 26, 2007
I finally got brave enough and posted some pictures. I tried for full body, but I couldn't be too picky when my husband was taking the pictures. He did an awesome job as is. Thank you honey! I think sometimes we forget how much our spouses do for us. He has started writing a list of questions that he wants to ask at our upcoming WLS meeting. Guess he's finally getting in gear with the surgery. He's always been supportive, he just doesn't like to talk about the surgery much. I believe that has to do with his own fears though. I have noticed that if I give him a couple minutes to wake up he is willing to talk at 3 in the morning when I can't sleep because I'm scared.
Fear is such a silly thing to admit to. But yes I'm afraid. I'm excited as well, but I find I need reminding occasionally as to why I'm having this surgery. Yep, yep... I know for my health, however let us all be honest. We all dream about what we will look like in those "skinny jeans". So here's to everyone's "Skinny Jeans" (even if they are really a little black dress *wink*). *toasting*
Fear is such a silly thing to admit to. But yes I'm afraid. I'm excited as well, but I find I need reminding occasionally as to why I'm having this surgery. Yep, yep... I know for my health, however let us all be honest. We all dream about what we will look like in those "skinny jeans". So here's to everyone's "Skinny Jeans" (even if they are really a little black dress *wink*). *toasting*
I Survived Turkey Day!
Nov 24, 2007
OMG, Didn't think I would make it. My doctor doesn't have me on a special diet before surgery. He actually told me to enjoy every meal and eat like it was my last. Well, I didn't eat nearly 1/3 of what I had last year, but I'm so stuffed STILL I don't think I can eat anything. I can't even imagine what next year will be like. My husband just told me that in his effort to support me this Christmas (since I will still be on liquids), He is gonna take the kids out for Christmas dinner. That way I won't have to smell all the yummy goodness. We have never done all the cookies and pies and such, so that won't be a big deal. He and the kids are currently setting the tree up next to where I will be recouping. That way, just in case, the tree will be close to me. After all this time of being passive, supportive he's finally thinking about what he can do. This is huge for us. Some of you might not think so, but for me I love it. He just fixed the wireless router for our laptop, so I won't have to stress about checking email, etc. He even went out and got a laptop web cam, so I can still video chat with my Sister in Japan. I think he's going a bit over board, but I'm not saying no. LOL! Every store he goes to he looks to see if they have a protein that I haven't tried and grabs one small one, etc. I think he just really needs to feel like he's a part of all this. Whatever it is I'm just gonna let him do it, cause I know it's not gonna last forever.
We have a little beagle as well, he's 10 months old now and such a Momma's boy. Well, he always jumps on me. No one else just me! My entire family is currently trying to teach him not to. I feel like such a bad Mommy though. He just doesn't seem to understand that I still love him He just can't jump on me. If anyone reading this has any suggestions I would really appreciate them. Well, I'm off, gotta pull my husband from in front of the television.
We have a little beagle as well, he's 10 months old now and such a Momma's boy. Well, he always jumps on me. No one else just me! My entire family is currently trying to teach him not to. I feel like such a bad Mommy though. He just doesn't seem to understand that I still love him He just can't jump on me. If anyone reading this has any suggestions I would really appreciate them. Well, I'm off, gotta pull my husband from in front of the television.
I Have A Date!
Nov 16, 2007
OMG, I have a date. December 12, 2007. I'm so excited and scared at the same time. I'll write more later, just had to share for now.
I'm finally meeting the Surgeon!
Nov 14, 2007
I just received a phone call from Madigan Medical Center. I
have an appointment this Friday with Dr. Beekley. He must be one of the new
surgeons. I'm so excited. They told me that it could be as short as a week after
the meeting before having the surgery. I can't believe how things can happen so
quickly. It seems like things speed up then stop, then speed up again. Stop and
go would probably be a better way of explaining it. My husband is still deployed
though he is getting back soon, I hope. It has been a roller coaster ride and
I'm not ready to get off yet.
About Me
Silverdale, WA
Location
33.3
BMI
Surgery
12/12/2007
Surgery Date
May 26, 2007
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