Janice R.

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Well, here it is the middle of July and I don't know what to do.  I need another fill but really feel uncomfortable about making another appt. because it seems when I make one, the office calls me and asks me to change it or they call to cancel and don't ask me when I want to renew.  I know I haven't been a good band patient but do they feel my appts. are not important or what.  I believe the office has canceled about 5 appts. that I have had.  The last one, I was told they had an appt.
conflict and would I please change mine.  I understand later they didn't have but one or two in that afternoon.  The young lady begged me to cancel my appt., so something came up more important than me.  I have to drive 6 hours for my appts. which doesn't really bother me but we do have to rearrange our schedules for the appts. and usually go down the night before, unless the appts. are late in the afternoon and then we drive down that day. Oh well, maybe I am just being paranoid, but cancelling 1 or even 2 appts. would not have seemed so obvious but more than 2 makes a person want to know what is going on.  I guess I can wait a little longer on a fill until I get enough nerve to call the office for another appt.

On March 2lst,. I cut my caloric intake to 500 calories a day, no sodas at all, even diet.  As of this morning, I have lost 20 lbs.
Some mornings, the scales show more weight lose but the last couple of days it has shown 20 lb. lost, so I am going to go with this.  Lowering the calories was not as hard as I thought they would be, until the last 3-4 days.  My stomach has started hurting terribly.  A friend suggested I might not be getting enough water, and she may be right   I think starting tomorrow, I will raise my calories to 800 calories and try my best to increase my water intake.  It is so hard for me to drink water.  This diet is being the only way I can lose weight.  I just hope I can keep this up.

Last Tuesday, Mon., 12,2009, I read Betty's blog.  She was going back to the basics of post op eating
to try to reach goal.  While reading this, a light bulb went off in my head and I thought this is what I should do to try to kick start my weight loss.  This has been a rough, hard journey since WLS and I haven't done well at all.   Now I don't know for sure how long this will last but since last Tuesday, I have lost 1 lb. a day.  I am paying more attention to my meals and still having problems with my snacking, or I should say grazing.  I need more info. from my support group because everything they have suggested, I have tried to do and have had results every time.  They have been such inspiration and support to me.  This is so amazing that these people have just accepted me and generously offered their help.   It is sure taking me a long time BUT I am going to lose this weight someway!!!

I   have walked 988 ft. today in my driveway.  This is huge for me. Kathy posts every day for everyone to exercise and
move today.  For some reason, I just cannot stand for them to exercise w/o me trying.  I could post I am doing this and that,
but I just cannot lie, SO, I thought I would at least try and then post what I was doing.  At first, I didn't try so much, because I could not breathe and my muscles were weak and I am always in horrible pain but when you get online, there is Kathy's post and I want to be normal again too.  I feel great tonight and actually feel like I am breathing better. I believe if I can get to where I can exercise, maybe it will help with my weight loss.

I am so, so disappointed.  Another yr. has gone by and I have not done well with the band again.  I do not know what is wrong with me.  If I could just exercise, I think I could do it.  I am always so excited when I hear of someone losing wt.  I know they have really done amazing things to lose, so why can't I.  I truly do not understand.  Maybe, I do need some psych help!!I use to not have the money to buy anything for me, I had to spend on the children but now I can spend on me.  I can buy whatever I want but even really nice clothes don't look good on someone my size. What is wrong with me???/

I have tried and still not doing ell with the band.  I had a October 24th
meeting but Dr. Lord's office called and cancelled it because of appt.
conflicts somewhere in their office.  According to my scales, I had lost 9 lbs. and really wanted to see the dr. I made another appt. for Nov. 14th but I had to cancel it because of having surgery on my legs for venous inssuffiency.  I have been very down and depressed over the fill cancellations.  Now I can not go back to Dr. until after lst of yr. I do have restriction to a certain extent, so maybe this will help.

 

I saw Dr. Lord, July 8th.  He put 11 cc in my band and I had lost 5.5 lbs. by his scales.  I didn't think this was very good but he said at least I did not gain.  I asked him how he could put 11 cc in a 10 cc band without it bursting and he said he could put up to 120.  I don't know if he meant this or was joking.  I am just glad I got up enough nerve to go back for a fill and start over.  It looks like I may do this, this time.  I sure hope so.  I am going to try to lose 15 lbs. before next fill!!! This is going to be a very expensive "start over".  It cost $185.00, regular unleaded gas, to make a round trip from north Alabama to Pensacola and fill cost!!!!  I have not spent this much money on myself since birth!!!! I would spend this much on my DH, children or grandchildren, but feel really guilty doing all this for me. 

 

 

I had my appointment with Dr. Lord this afternoon.  I was so nervous and
excited.  Of course, he was very nice and kind as usual, but, I feel like
I have failed and disappointed him and me.  I am starting over with the Weight Loss, and I mean starting over.  I now weigh more than I did when
I had weight loss surgery.  I Am Going To DO This!!!!  He put 9.8 cc in my
10 cc band. Tight, but not too tight.

Jan called me back from Dr. Lord's office.  She was very nice and kind.
I have an appointment for a fill, May 27, 2008.  I am very nervous and
also, very excited.  This will be my first fill since Aug., 2007.  I am really
starting over with my weight loss, but, I believe I finally have everything
straightened out in my mind about wt. loss, and, my part in helping the band.
Now, maybe I am ready to Rock & Roll!!!!

I. have found enough courage to call Dr. Lord's office to make a reservation.
I am two years out and going to have to start over, if Dr. Lord will see me.
I am anxiously waiting for Jan to call me back.