jakyndoc
Waiting to have surgery
Feb 18, 2009
I was told that I have to wait a few more months because I needed a few more Primary Dr visits to be able to have enough documentation for my surgery. Damn... Just look at what I look like. Is'nt that enough information... I was looking forward to having it done as soon as possible. I have been thinking about doing this surgery for years, and now that I have decided to do it. It's not going as fast as I would like it. FRUSTRATING.....I have been feeling very depressed about what I look like. I never want to do anything. I hate they way I loook. The only pictures I prefer is the ones that are from the breast and up, I hate to see pictures of my self.
On Valentines I took my boys to the Local Zoo, and I had a few woman ask me how many months was I. I felt like crawling into my skin, I just laughed and said "no maam ,I am not pregnant, I am just fat". She apologized. I tried to play it off as I was'nt bothered by the the question, though I just wanted to burst out crying.
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On Valentines I took my boys to the Local Zoo, and I had a few woman ask me how many months was I. I felt like crawling into my skin, I just laughed and said "no maam ,I am not pregnant, I am just fat". She apologized. I tried to play it off as I was'nt bothered by the the question, though I just wanted to burst out crying.
Waiting for Surgery:
Feb 07, 2009
I have been completing all the test required by my doctor for surgery. I must tell you that I wish I were doing it tommrow. As the days go by I am more disgusted about the way I look and feel about my self. I am weighing 267 lbs. This is the heaviest I have ever been. I am tired all the time. The weekend I stay in my PJ's all weekend without taking a shower. All I want to do is sleep, and vegitate. I hate looking at what I look like in the nude.
I hate feeling like this. I wanted to do this surgery a few years ago, becaue of everyone telling me not to do it, that it's not good for me. It's dangerous. I just never did it.
Until I had a friend of mine (Wendy) did it, and I saw it with my two eyes how good she looks. How good she feels, I decided that I was going to do this , and who cares what everyone thinks. I want to get healthy.
Now I am just waiting for my insurance to approve the surgery.
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I hate feeling like this. I wanted to do this surgery a few years ago, becaue of everyone telling me not to do it, that it's not good for me. It's dangerous. I just never did it.
Until I had a friend of mine (Wendy) did it, and I saw it with my two eyes how good she looks. How good she feels, I decided that I was going to do this , and who cares what everyone thinks. I want to get healthy.
Now I am just waiting for my insurance to approve the surgery.
