IzzyFain
It's been awhile I am 10 mos, 2 weeks and 5 days out and 90 lbs
Aug 22, 2007
I have been so bad about writing a blog about this weight loss thing. I was going to write a blog at least the first Friday of every month, but I have not done it. I am 10 months and almost 3 weeks out. I have lost exactly 90 pounds. I really feel like I should have lost more by now. However, I am not complaining. My weight loss luckily has been porportionally correct, and I have lost all over. I just want to loose this last 50 to 60 pounds. I am going to have to start working at it. Sometimes I can eat so much (at least I think it is alot), that is scares me, I am petrified I will gain the weight back and I am petrified I will not loose it all. I want to be the one that looks REALLY good, not just better, and not still having a fat mass or bmi above 30. I hope that is not asking too much, I just don't want to settle anymore. Sometimes I can eat almost normal, sometimes I dont eat at all. Anyway, I am in 16's and larges so that is good, much better than 24/26. My goal is to be at least a 10. I dont know I still feel like I stumble everyday, I went to my first support meeting last night, I think I need to go more. I think like Weight Watchers, it will keep me in touch better and more focused. I dont know. It seems like a lonely journey for me. I dont know anyone that has had this surgery and everyone I know that knows someone says how great they are doing and I just feel like I wish I had more friends that are where I am. You know? anyway, gotta run. Maybe I can get on the good foot and finish this race!!
6 weeks out today!
Nov 14, 2006
Well, Friday Nov 10, I had my 5 week check up. I had lost 30 pounds. The Dr. did not even see me, just the nurses. So it was pretty uneventful. I was told I could now have some soft fruits, soft veggies and some whole wheat carbs..I asked if my weight loss was ok, and I was told a 10% weight loss in the first month is pretty right on. Which would be my weight loss for the first month, so I am happy. I have decided not to weigh all the time, maybe 1 time a month, so I won't be freaking out all the time. I still feel like a stumble around and try to find out what I should be eating, what sits well, etc. I guess I will just keep trying. I am still in search of the protein that I can tolerate. I have spent way too much money on this, and I am a little frustrated. But I know the importance of this, so I will keep on trying. I am feeling better, and I started working out on Sunday with my bowflex. Boy am I out of shape, but it felt really good to work out again. I just pray I will be successful and stay healthy. I am good about my vitamins, fair about my liquids and not as much about protein drinks, but I am eating a higher protein diet. I wish I had a little more support. I feel very much alone in trying to do this thing and do it right!! There is always so much going on, not a lot of time for me. Anyway, I'm out for now. More to come..
Friday Nov 3
Nov 03, 2006
Still really busy. I am feeling better each day. I am experiencing some hunger. I have been living off of tuna salad and chicken salad. I bought some of those Kashi wheat crackers. I know we are only supposed to have protein, but I need some fiber. I only have been going about once a week, and that gets old..I need to be more regular. i know more water, but I am drinking all I can hold. The only thing I really miss is being able to buy something to drink..ie tea or diet coke. The Crystal Light ruby red grapefruit is really good! I am able to take bigger swallows, but I stll have to be very careful, or the liquid even feels like a thud in my widdle pouch! Well, I am off. Gotta run. I will try to post once a week and post a picture every couple of weeks. I go back for my 5 week check up next week, so I will have an update then. I will at least have my first real weigh in...so until then...
First diary blog
Oct 27, 2006
Well, it is October 27. I had surgery on October 3. I have lost around 30 pounds, which is awesome. I am self pay, my insurance would not pay for it, so we indebted ourselves so I can become healthier and have a better quality of life. The pre-op went very smoothly. My bloodwork, ekg etc were all clear and fine. I did not have sleep apnea, although I can see myself developing it if I kept on in the direction I was heading in. So..when I went to surgery, I must tell you, the nurse that started my IV had had the surgery 2 years prior and you would have never known she had ever been overweight. So my husband and I drilled her with questions, which I think, really calmed us both from being a little nervous. Anyway, they got me on time around 10:00 am. I remember going in to a room and when the anesthesiologist came in and talked to me, and next thing I knew I was waking up. I was never in a lot of pain. It was surreal. I was just so thirsty, I have never had dry mouth like that in my entire life. I will have to say the Dr Richard and the staff at Northeast GA have this thing down. I was wheeled to my room and honestly, the only pain I had was the dang drain. For some reason, my drain was so painful, I could not stand up straight. The drugs were great and just right. I was pretty much comfortable, even the catheter did not bother me. Later that night, I was given ice chips, which were the most wonderful thing I ever had. Anyway, I am 3 weeks and 3 days out, and I am feeling pretty good. Still very tired. I am going to try to blog at least once a week to keep up with what is going on. Alot has happened in the last three weeks, I really enjoyed my time off, I took almost 2 weeks, and to tell the truth, I could have used a 3rd. Last week I was dragging everyday, I am still very tired, but I am 27 pounds down so I am happy about that. It is a daily struggle in trying to get my calcium and protein in. Some days everything goes down great and the next day I feel queesy all day. So I am stumbling through this process. I have had some days where I cannot quit crying, and I have had a few really good days. I feel bi-polar. ha ha! But all in all, I am stabilizing out. Anyway, gotta run I am at work. I will post next Friday and see how things are going at that time.
