irishgirl1975
On My Way
Jan 25, 2010
It was last March that my doctor suggested sugery and I hated it her for it. I refused to go back to her. If I was sick, I went to prompt care. I was going to show her. I was going to go back in 6 months, 50 pounds lighter on my own. And then I came to terms with the truth. I was going to be able to lose it on my own. I wasn't able to before, and I knew deep down I wouldn't be able to now. It was December 5. I saw two friends who had had the surgery and they looked amazing. Then I got on facebook and saw another dear friend and found out she had also had it and she looked AMAZING (Jen;)! So, I called her up and asked her about it. It was after talking to her that I knew what I needed to do. I cried myself to sleep. I mourned for the old me who I had grown so accustomed to.
I met with my doctor and told her about my decision. She was so happy for me and so was the nurse who took my vitals. Ever since I made my decision, I have felt a sense of relief. For the first time, in a very long time, I am so happy. I know that my life will change, my self confidence will grow and I will finally be able to go out and not plan out my route how to get from the table to the restroom without my ass squeezing between chairs. Goodbye squeezing into booths, goodbye pouring over into the next seat of the airplane, goodbye having to put the armrest up at the movies, goodbye foot problems, goodbye high blood pressure, goodbye c-pap!
I told my parents and my sisters. I didn't know how they would react. I gues I was hoping for, "What? No...not you. Are you crazy? You don't need it!" However, what I got was, "Awesome! Good for you!" Which, don't get me wrong, is really great that they are supportive, but I guess it has gotten that bad.
Since then, I have met with a surgeon, who is AWESOME! Have decided to see a psychologist, not just for an eval, but for help in changing the way I think and to get to the bottom of why I over eat. I am very excited to see her. She specializes in patients having weight loss sugery and has had it herself. I have tried to work throught his woth other therapist, and not that they didn't try, it was just not their specialty.
Today, I met with the directing RN of the weight loss clinic at the hospital, Sally. She was so great. This whole experience has gone so well and everyone has been so helpful and kind.
So, I have a Medical Eval on the 12th, a presurgical visit (6 hours..yikes!) on the 17 and an appointment for the pysch eval sometime in Feb. And then I am good to go!!
I have decided to have the sleeve since my insurance will cover it and hoping to have it by the beginning of April. (We are in a contract year and I am worried my insurance will change, leaving me with high co-pays or deductibles.)
Wish me luck!!!
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I met with my doctor and told her about my decision. She was so happy for me and so was the nurse who took my vitals. Ever since I made my decision, I have felt a sense of relief. For the first time, in a very long time, I am so happy. I know that my life will change, my self confidence will grow and I will finally be able to go out and not plan out my route how to get from the table to the restroom without my ass squeezing between chairs. Goodbye squeezing into booths, goodbye pouring over into the next seat of the airplane, goodbye having to put the armrest up at the movies, goodbye foot problems, goodbye high blood pressure, goodbye c-pap!
I told my parents and my sisters. I didn't know how they would react. I gues I was hoping for, "What? No...not you. Are you crazy? You don't need it!" However, what I got was, "Awesome! Good for you!" Which, don't get me wrong, is really great that they are supportive, but I guess it has gotten that bad.
Since then, I have met with a surgeon, who is AWESOME! Have decided to see a psychologist, not just for an eval, but for help in changing the way I think and to get to the bottom of why I over eat. I am very excited to see her. She specializes in patients having weight loss sugery and has had it herself. I have tried to work throught his woth other therapist, and not that they didn't try, it was just not their specialty.
Today, I met with the directing RN of the weight loss clinic at the hospital, Sally. She was so great. This whole experience has gone so well and everyone has been so helpful and kind.
So, I have a Medical Eval on the 12th, a presurgical visit (6 hours..yikes!) on the 17 and an appointment for the pysch eval sometime in Feb. And then I am good to go!!
I have decided to have the sleeve since my insurance will cover it and hoping to have it by the beginning of April. (We are in a contract year and I am worried my insurance will change, leaving me with high co-pays or deductibles.)
Wish me luck!!!
