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Well, I'm 3 days before surgery.  I can't think of much else... just sort of excited about getting it done and getting my life back on track.  I think I've done plenty to prepare myself to go.  I'm not really scared about the surgery... I saw the doctor yesterday and he said that he thinks I'm a good candidate... so, I trust he feels confident that I should do well.  

I looked at the Victoria Secret webpage to see their sizing... how much would I have to weight to be able to wear something from their store kinda thing... motivation.  I'd like to be able to go into any store and buy clothes.  I'd like (even more) to be able to wear something feminine and feel confident.  

Anyway, I have all of my prescriptions filled and ready to go for after surgery and I've made plenty of arrangements to take care of myself afterwards.  I'm ready to go.

Well... the saga continues.  I've made it to day 4 of the liquid diet.  The slimfast is gassing me up a bit but, I'm doing OK.  I'm trying to keep focused.  I'm excited about the surgery... I'm not really scared about the surgery part.  I'm ready to do it.  I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep... a little anxious, maybe?  It's a big life change and I'm ready to get living.    

Interestingly enough, I'm not as hungry as I was on day 1.  I wasn't sure how I would make it until the 26th on liquids on the first day.  Anyway, the protein bullets (New Whey) things have helped if I drink them on the way in to work.  

I see the doctor on the 21st... Wednesday... there's something about making it through that appointment that has me nervous.  Maybe I'm wondering if something will happen between now and then to delay the surgery... the surgeon will change his mind or something.  I dunno.  

I start clears and bowel prep on the 25th and then, have to be in the hospital for my 8 am surgery on the 26th... there's only 9 more days of liquids... I'm getting close to the half way mark.  I can do it! 

 

My surgeon has patients do a liquid diet for 2 weeks prior to surgery to start to lose some intra-abdominal fat.  I started it yesterday.  

The diet is supposed to be 5 cans of slim fast/day... but, they'll let you use a slim fast bar as a substitute if you need it.  Let me tell you... I needed it.  I was tired and hungry all day.  I stopped at the pharmacy on the way home and bought some bars.  They help.  So does the New Whey protein.  I take that in the morning before work and it keeps me from feeling like I'm starving. 

My officemate is slimfasting with me.  I thought that was sweet of her.  My other office mate is eating away from his desk so I'm not tortured with the smell.  I thought that was sweet, too.  

I just keep telling myself that I only have 12 more days.  I can do it.  

At the emotional eating support group, some post-op folks told me that you aren't nearly as hungry after surgery.  I'm amazed by that... but, am anxiouly awaiting my surgery.  It feels too good to be true... that I'll actually have the surgery.  I hope everything goes OK.  

Well, here I am.  I'm a 34 year old mother of 2... and heavier than I ever thought I would be... 380.  How did I let myself get this fat?  What happened along the way... when did I stop loving myself?  I'm sure everyone here has tried everything and have felt the way I do at one time or another.  I've exhausted all of my options and I'm heading for a lap bypass 02.26.2007.  I start a liquid diet Monday, have all my vitamins, and protein is on hand.  It starts now.  I'm going to be kind to myself...