Heather27
My story begins in about 1985 at age 9. I started out the chubby one in grade school, and by high school, I was beyond chubby! I went through school with low self esteem, although I was never treated badly.
By the time I made it to college, I really didn't have any direction in my life at all. I do think I let my weight stop me from many things, and one of those being a college education. I dropped out after 2 semesters (I mean, come on, I didn't want to be the fat girl walking around campus, I already did that in high school!).
So after meeting my wonderful husband and getting pregnant, we got married in 1996, and had our first child 4 months later. From there, I was a stay at home mom. Our next child came along in 1999. What's funny is at this point in my life I knew I had a weight problem, just never really cared because I was so happy to have a new family. Sure I would try diets here and there, never getting anywhere.
Well, the weight just kept coming and coming. I joined gyms, tried fad diets, low fat diets, and so on.
Wanting one more child before I was 30, we started ttc in 2004. I asked my OB if this was a good idea because of my weight, and she saw no reason why we couldn't have another. So, after suffering one miscarriage in 2004, we welcomed our final child in 2005.
Since then, I have just felt horrible about myself. I have tried dieting over and over. I just can't control myself with food. I am hoping that RNY will be the just the tool I need in defeating this awful demon, that has taken away my self control for too long!
