gweathers
I decided after 8 months to have lapband. September 19, 2007 I weighed in at 255lbs. Prior to my 3 day liquid diet I weighed in at 270lbs. Ten months after surgery I was down to 176lbs. I felt great, looked great, and I was happy. Very happy. Then in 2009 I began getting sick. Foods that I was instructed to eat I couldnt tolerate. Foods I ate one day I couldnt eat the next. I began vomiting a lot just to purge the food that was stuck. I began to notice when I would get stressed my band would tighten up. I would instictively go eat and the combination of wanting to eat because I am stressed and then band tightening up due to stress was a receipe for disaster. I have had numerous adjustments to loosen the band so I could swallow my own spit to tightening so I could try to lose what I gained. In the end it has been a vicious cycle and I have gained all but 25lbs of my weight back,. I am utterly embarrassed. I am depressed. I dont want to be in public and I only go to work because I have to take care of my family. I cant fit any of my cute size 12/14 clothes I bought and all the ones I could fit I gave away because I KNEW I wasnt going to gain my weight back. Well Almost 4 years out I am feeling more hopeless, helpless and like a huge failure. The depression is consuming all of me. I once had a plan and now I am lost.
