gr8hands4u2
today
Sep 17, 2008
As of today I AM PRETTY MUCH IN THE SAME BOAT I (opps all caps) have been in, It helped meeting up with my friend Tina by lifting my mood. I am now taking things truely one day at a time. Trying to eat better and not to be so hard on myself. If there were more people out there like miss Tina it would be easier to handle and trust people. I thank God for the people in my life. Even though I havent gotten any closer to the WLS dream I will not give up. So to all of you out there if I sound like you just remember it is only over when you give up, there are good caring people out there. May you be one for someone. 
ho hum
Jul 18, 2008
I feel so bad today. I feel lonely, unwanted. I am surrounded by loved ones but don't feel like i am seen. My heart is lonely. I feel as if I will never get to where I want to be. I think Ill go home and turn off the phone and close the door. Hope to be better tomorrow. 
another let down
Jul 08, 2008
you know it just kills me that people like me need help and cant get it. I go to try to get on tenncare and they tell me that because i am not on disability and am an adult i am not able to get it, so they give me another way but id have to pay a deductable of 200 a month. Call me crazy but i cant afford that!!! So now i ask about disability because i am unable to get work and i find out that i may not because i havent worked a hole lot. I cant beleave how hard it is. You get looked down at because of you fat then when you try to do something about it there isnt any help because your just outta range for any help. So tell me what are you suppose to do? I was fighting back tears in the tenncare office 
. Im not going to give up so please if anyone reads this and you have any news to help me please do let me know and if not please pray for me...
. Im not going to give up so please if anyone reads this and you have any news to help me please do let me know and if not please pray for me...
still alive
Jun 15, 2008
Yes i am still kicking lol and not only to put on pants 
. I am at the point it is hard to do everyday things like stand for any time longer than 3min. I have to sit to wash dishes and sit up to sleep.I am trying to get help and i know that this is hard but i hate the idea of not being able to just do for myself. I dont want to have a hard time checking the mail box or walking wal-mart but i dont seem to have a clue on what all i should be doing. I may be still kicking but i am soooo bored with my life. so what else is there?
. I am at the point it is hard to do everyday things like stand for any time longer than 3min. I have to sit to wash dishes and sit up to sleep.I am trying to get help and i know that this is hard but i hate the idea of not being able to just do for myself. I dont want to have a hard time checking the mail box or walking wal-mart but i dont seem to have a clue on what all i should be doing. I may be still kicking but i am soooo bored with my life. so what else is there?
