Fuzzywuzzy
MAN OH MAN what a RIDE!
May 19, 2008
Howdy,
well i dont normally do this.. but to be quite honest.. i think i need to start.
I've been feeling my life changeing by leeps and bounds lately. I'm 3.5 months out from my surgery and i have Several Things going on in my head as well as my body. I'm starting to wonder is this NORMAL?!
Let me start by saying that since my surgery on Feb 4th i've lost 70 LBS!
thats a total of 90 lbs!!! I"m now at 280lbs and currently wearing size 42 Pants.
ALong with my weight loss i'm noticing people starting to Notice me..
Its funny how sometimes looking at things IN my life. .i feel like i'm a complete outsider!! but People are starting to be nice to me.. No more averting of their eyes or looking down as they walk past. They are looking Dead into my eyes.. in fact.. they are Opening Doors for me! GOOD LORD!!
In addition to my noticing of how Other people are Treating / Perceiving me
I"m realizing things about myself as well. For instance.. i went to Choral Camp last weekend.. and while there i was at dinner with some new friends.. and they were discussing Musicals.. Now most NORMAL GAY men Adore Musicals.. I'm Gay.. but Very Apparently NOT NORMAL! i HATE Musicals.. i Love Music.. but am not the Least bit interested in Listening to Liza or going to see Babs on Broadway!! ICK!
But during said Conversation.. i felt uncomfortable.. because i could not make any intelligent comments on what was being said.. I noticed (later that night) that i reverted to a more Primative / Sexual nature.. i made a couple of comments that might not have been to "right place right time" but the timing was accurate.. but i realized when i'm nervous i do things like speak in appropriatly.. or even Munch on snacks when i dont need to.
I feel that i might need some Help to resolve some things.. so i'm now looking for a Psycologist who specializes in Pts who have had my surgery.
but the fact that i Realize what is going on gives me Hope.
Anyway.. i guess thats enough for now..
check back later
Huggz
well i dont normally do this.. but to be quite honest.. i think i need to start.
I've been feeling my life changeing by leeps and bounds lately. I'm 3.5 months out from my surgery and i have Several Things going on in my head as well as my body. I'm starting to wonder is this NORMAL?!
Let me start by saying that since my surgery on Feb 4th i've lost 70 LBS!
thats a total of 90 lbs!!! I"m now at 280lbs and currently wearing size 42 Pants.
ALong with my weight loss i'm noticing people starting to Notice me..
Its funny how sometimes looking at things IN my life. .i feel like i'm a complete outsider!! but People are starting to be nice to me.. No more averting of their eyes or looking down as they walk past. They are looking Dead into my eyes.. in fact.. they are Opening Doors for me! GOOD LORD!!
In addition to my noticing of how Other people are Treating / Perceiving me
I"m realizing things about myself as well. For instance.. i went to Choral Camp last weekend.. and while there i was at dinner with some new friends.. and they were discussing Musicals.. Now most NORMAL GAY men Adore Musicals.. I'm Gay.. but Very Apparently NOT NORMAL! i HATE Musicals.. i Love Music.. but am not the Least bit interested in Listening to Liza or going to see Babs on Broadway!! ICK!
But during said Conversation.. i felt uncomfortable.. because i could not make any intelligent comments on what was being said.. I noticed (later that night) that i reverted to a more Primative / Sexual nature.. i made a couple of comments that might not have been to "right place right time" but the timing was accurate.. but i realized when i'm nervous i do things like speak in appropriatly.. or even Munch on snacks when i dont need to.
I feel that i might need some Help to resolve some things.. so i'm now looking for a Psycologist who specializes in Pts who have had my surgery.
but the fact that i Realize what is going on gives me Hope.
Anyway.. i guess thats enough for now..
check back later
Huggz
OY VEY!! OVERLOAD!!
Aug 10, 2007
All of this information that i'm getting.. and i feel like i'm on OVERLOAD!!
this forum is absolutly Astonishing with all of the info and support that people are giving me! I really do apprecaite all the help. I've spoken to BT and i am going to go to my very first DS meeting tomrrow and she is going to meet me at the sizzler.. so i'm really greatful about that.. I dont like going into a strange place with strange people all by myself.. Hell.. i'm lucky that i even go out to Bars.. (which is Rare..) So i have narrowed the Surgery down to TWO surgeries.. either the DS OR the Lap Band.. I've posted a few messages on these boards and gotten Sevearal replies.. and its been wonderful.. but it looks like things are starting to tilt the DS way.. which is one reason i'd like to go to this meeting tomorrow and talk to people IN PERSON.. so i'm looking forward to it.. other than this.. I am still waiting to hear from the CLINICAL REVIEW UNIT of Group health about wheather they are going to accept me or not. i was told it could take up to 6 months.. to get in.. but not told how long it will take for them to respond to me and tell me yea or Nea.. LOL so in the mean time.. its Weight watchers A to cover my insured ASS.. and B to try to retrain my eating habbits.. as a head Start to my new life thats around the corner.. God.. i can only imagine being able to shop at Wal mart and actually LOOK GOOD and find Clothes that FIT!! OY.. that would be SOOO AWSOME!!!
any who.... if anyone knows of any GHC Doctors that will performe the DS please let me know who you recommend.. so that i can start finding my doctor and researching the surgeons..
