Furrybutt
6 months later.
Aug 14, 2009
Hello everyone,
Sorry that I have not written in a while.....6 months, but I am still here.
I have been seeing my doctor each month since end of March and we started the process to try and lose weight. AND if I do decide to have surgery he has documentation we have been working together.
As of now I am down to 380 from 420 which for 40 pounds gone not bad. I have been trying not to eat a lot of food and cut out the late night snacking (sometime I give in). He also put me on a weight loss pill and it has helped, but I know soon my body will be used to it and it will stop.
As for working out....nope. My right knee is still not 100% before going out before Christmas 2008, but I am no longer using crutches. Still going to therapy each month to work out the pain. Its helping but some days its just bad and hurts to walk.
I have been talking to a lot of people at work who have done either surgery and I believe its helping me to decide on what and have to do. I just want to say THANK YOU to all who have given me your Sage advise. It is needed and wanted. Thank you for lending me your ear and your voice!!!
I see the Dr. on the 17th and I will see if I lost more or gain... I hope for loss or same. I think I will see what he says from the thoughts and fears I have and the advise I have received from my fellow ROLL MODELS.
Peace to all.
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Sorry that I have not written in a while.....6 months, but I am still here.
I have been seeing my doctor each month since end of March and we started the process to try and lose weight. AND if I do decide to have surgery he has documentation we have been working together.
As of now I am down to 380 from 420 which for 40 pounds gone not bad. I have been trying not to eat a lot of food and cut out the late night snacking (sometime I give in). He also put me on a weight loss pill and it has helped, but I know soon my body will be used to it and it will stop.
As for working out....nope. My right knee is still not 100% before going out before Christmas 2008, but I am no longer using crutches. Still going to therapy each month to work out the pain. Its helping but some days its just bad and hurts to walk.
I have been talking to a lot of people at work who have done either surgery and I believe its helping me to decide on what and have to do. I just want to say THANK YOU to all who have given me your Sage advise. It is needed and wanted. Thank you for lending me your ear and your voice!!!
I see the Dr. on the 17th and I will see if I lost more or gain... I hope for loss or same. I think I will see what he says from the thoughts and fears I have and the advise I have received from my fellow ROLL MODELS.
Peace to all.
The Beginning
Feb 01, 2009
Well, here I go about me. Yes me, I never like to talk about me because I was never happy. As of now, I am 420 pound and about to be 40 years old this summer. I never felt good about myself for years. I can not tell you when I felt good or proud of my self. My whole life been a struggle.
Yeah... I was a skinny kid up to the age of 11 but that were it ended. By the time I was 15 I was 25 pounds overweight. My Dad and Step mom would not let me get my license until I lost my weight. And even at times if I sneak a piece of food to eat, for dinner we would go out but I was not allowed to eat. How embarrassing it was for me to hear two grown adults say that I was not allowed to eat to the Waiter. I think from there on if I have food around I have to eat or else someone would take it away from me.
18 I moved out and I would have thought being on my own I would be OK and lose the weight. I was a size 16 at the time and I was that way until I was 20. I still have demons in food and it was bad that I was working in a restaurant.
By then at 22 I meet my husband and how fit and skinny he was. At that time I was 230 lbs. At first we went on a date but he did not call me until 6 months later. He said it was my weight that bothered him, but after dating two more girls, he realized that I was beautiful inside and (wasn't an air head!!).
We got married when I was 24 and even still I gained weight before my wedding not losing. I was 250lbs when I was married. I thought I looked good back then but as I see myself, I was miserable. It was an ordeal in finding a wedding dress that is made in a size 28/30. Finding the right undergarments was like finding a needle in a haystack. One would think," dang it Lisa...lose weight and find what you need to wear!' Nope...after looking I found everything. My wedding day was normal as one could do...but I couldn't dance very long do to breathing heavy.
As two year went by, I was the same weight..."hooray" I thought, not losing but not gaining either....until I collapse at home at the age of 26. Yep...with the weight, my back gave out and I have herniate 3 disk in my lower back. So because of this, I had surgery done. (BIG MISTAKE!!) From that time on, not being able to move or walk, the weight came on with a vengeance.
From age 26 to 39, yes I have tried so many diets and weight lose programs. Yep I lost weight, and at one point I lost 75 pounds, but I gained it back and plus. With my husband he wouldn't eat the way I need and I cook the foods he like and if there are any leftovers I ate because he would only eat them on the day I cooked it and one more day. He being a big eater and works-outs, I had to cook food for a family of 4 and not two (BIG MISTAKE #2).
The last year and a half has been really bad in my health. I have been diagnosed with Sleep Apnea, degenerated disks in my neck, my knees giving out on my and just recently, my right knee gave out as I was walking. YES walk and not running my knee gave out as I was walking up stairs at work. I torn some tendons and rupture a cyst just before Christmas. I was just beside myself and crying as to why. I called my Dad, and he said sorry and that he was worried about my weight (yeah whats new). Again he asked for me to have weight loss surgery and this time I thought about it. For the past 5 to 7 years he really wanted me to do it.
What really helped me this time is when my chiropractor sent me to an orthopedic for my knee. He did warn me the DR. was rude but knew his field. I went and this is what the Dr. said. "people like you I would not do any surgery on because of the weight" and in the note he sent back to my Dr. was this; " I strongly advised her to do what she needs to get a stomach stapling or similar activity also. This is because if her symptoms do recur and surgery is judged to be needed, the results tend not to be good in people her size." When I first told him my insurance would not pay and I don't have money in the bank for it, he said; " Find a rich relative" WHAT AN ASS AND JERK!!
However, this was a wake up call. For 25 plus years it is now time for me to fight and really try and have the lap band done. I went this past Wednesday and talked to my family Dr. He was very happy that I finally made up my mind and said that the only thing I need to do was find the policy from my insurance company on the Lap band and give it to him. The rest he will do and set up the things we both need to do in order for me to have the surgery done.
Outside of writing this here, the only other people who know are my Dr, my husband and my manger at work so when I need to take the time off, he knows. I am afraid in telling everyone else is just in case I back out I don't disappoint my family and friends again. I want to do this but I am scared.
Well.... I will let you all know as to what I will do next. I hope and pray that I follow throught this and get down in my weight.
lisa
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Yeah... I was a skinny kid up to the age of 11 but that were it ended. By the time I was 15 I was 25 pounds overweight. My Dad and Step mom would not let me get my license until I lost my weight. And even at times if I sneak a piece of food to eat, for dinner we would go out but I was not allowed to eat. How embarrassing it was for me to hear two grown adults say that I was not allowed to eat to the Waiter. I think from there on if I have food around I have to eat or else someone would take it away from me.
18 I moved out and I would have thought being on my own I would be OK and lose the weight. I was a size 16 at the time and I was that way until I was 20. I still have demons in food and it was bad that I was working in a restaurant.
By then at 22 I meet my husband and how fit and skinny he was. At that time I was 230 lbs. At first we went on a date but he did not call me until 6 months later. He said it was my weight that bothered him, but after dating two more girls, he realized that I was beautiful inside and (wasn't an air head!!).
We got married when I was 24 and even still I gained weight before my wedding not losing. I was 250lbs when I was married. I thought I looked good back then but as I see myself, I was miserable. It was an ordeal in finding a wedding dress that is made in a size 28/30. Finding the right undergarments was like finding a needle in a haystack. One would think," dang it Lisa...lose weight and find what you need to wear!' Nope...after looking I found everything. My wedding day was normal as one could do...but I couldn't dance very long do to breathing heavy.
As two year went by, I was the same weight..."hooray" I thought, not losing but not gaining either....until I collapse at home at the age of 26. Yep...with the weight, my back gave out and I have herniate 3 disk in my lower back. So because of this, I had surgery done. (BIG MISTAKE!!) From that time on, not being able to move or walk, the weight came on with a vengeance.
From age 26 to 39, yes I have tried so many diets and weight lose programs. Yep I lost weight, and at one point I lost 75 pounds, but I gained it back and plus. With my husband he wouldn't eat the way I need and I cook the foods he like and if there are any leftovers I ate because he would only eat them on the day I cooked it and one more day. He being a big eater and works-outs, I had to cook food for a family of 4 and not two (BIG MISTAKE #2).
The last year and a half has been really bad in my health. I have been diagnosed with Sleep Apnea, degenerated disks in my neck, my knees giving out on my and just recently, my right knee gave out as I was walking. YES walk and not running my knee gave out as I was walking up stairs at work. I torn some tendons and rupture a cyst just before Christmas. I was just beside myself and crying as to why. I called my Dad, and he said sorry and that he was worried about my weight (yeah whats new). Again he asked for me to have weight loss surgery and this time I thought about it. For the past 5 to 7 years he really wanted me to do it.
What really helped me this time is when my chiropractor sent me to an orthopedic for my knee. He did warn me the DR. was rude but knew his field. I went and this is what the Dr. said. "people like you I would not do any surgery on because of the weight" and in the note he sent back to my Dr. was this; " I strongly advised her to do what she needs to get a stomach stapling or similar activity also. This is because if her symptoms do recur and surgery is judged to be needed, the results tend not to be good in people her size." When I first told him my insurance would not pay and I don't have money in the bank for it, he said; " Find a rich relative" WHAT AN ASS AND JERK!!
However, this was a wake up call. For 25 plus years it is now time for me to fight and really try and have the lap band done. I went this past Wednesday and talked to my family Dr. He was very happy that I finally made up my mind and said that the only thing I need to do was find the policy from my insurance company on the Lap band and give it to him. The rest he will do and set up the things we both need to do in order for me to have the surgery done.
Outside of writing this here, the only other people who know are my Dr, my husband and my manger at work so when I need to take the time off, he knows. I am afraid in telling everyone else is just in case I back out I don't disappoint my family and friends again. I want to do this but I am scared.
Well.... I will let you all know as to what I will do next. I hope and pray that I follow throught this and get down in my weight.
lisa
