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Wow, it's been so long since I have posted.  Times have been hard around here for me.  I'm still recovering from my fractured hip and complications with my knee and ankle on the same leg.  I have hit some turbulence and feel like I'm sinking most of the time but I am still hanging.  My company dropped my health insurance and although they haven't officially terminated my position I know I don't have a job to return to whenever I am able to go back to work.  The insurance carrier for my company has denied my workers comp claim and so now I had to submit it to the state for a hearing.  In the meantime we are living with no paycheck from me, no health insurance and my recovery is slowed down because I now can't continue my treatment & therapy.  It's insane and I just don't understand how our government can do this to it's people.  So on that note I must also add that my weight loss has slowed down unfortunately and it is depressing but I am still working hard at it and I am so thankful for the 100lbs lost!!!   I hope and pray for the balance of the weight drops by my year anniversary...  We will see.  I did go to the store yesterday just to see what size I am in now, all my pants are looking like MC Hammer pants and I can't afford to buy anything new, but I wanted to see how far I've come... well.. drum roll please.......... when I first had surgery I was in a size 26/24 now I fit into a 16/14... I'm so excited!!!  and I can easily get into a large shirt, thanks to my girls disappearing...;-(   oh well, there had to be some sacrifices, right???  I am off my blood pressure meds for good!!!!!  I am so thankful for this... big relief to becoming a healthier me.  
My 2nd oldest daughter graduates this year and she was accepted to the college of her choice!!!  hurray!!!  I am still plugging away at my school and I am also applying to a local university for next fall to finish my degree, that is if I can get through this MATH nightmare...!!!  My husband is so excited to see me shrinking and looking better but he is also getting nervous.. I am still having difficulty seeing the beauty in my new shrinking self and I know I have to work on it.  Like the mirror hasn't changed the reflection for me but looks great to everyone else.. So many changes and challenges you just don't realize until you go through the process..  I am working on getting more updated pictures on here soon, still have the picture phobia thing going on..
Well, it has been an adventure and I know I still have an incredible journey ahead of me.  I am holding on tight and trying to breathe through it. thanks to everyone for their supporting and encouraging words, please keep it coming and congratulations to all my friends that have been so success full....

Ok it's been a wee bit since I have updated my page.  I was finally diagnosed with the cause of my pain, it turns out to be a fractured hip.  Apparently when I fell at work in april I fractred my hip.  Go figure... So bed ridden since the end of April and not sure when the end will come.  No exercize and my weight loss slowed down.. or so it seemed.  I am also losing my hair in major clumps and I developed some kind of hyperpigmentation on my upper lip which the dr. doesn't even know what to do about or where it came from.  So to top this candy dish off, my father in law was diagnosed with nonhodgeskins lymphoma, my grandmother fell and broke her hip and my mother was admitted to the hospital for a diabetic ulcer on her foot..   Then I am dealing with Workers Comp to put the whipped cream on top.. No pay check for weeks and who knows when we will get one..  And I am afraid I may not have a job to go back to.. although I am scared to go back anyhow.. kinda like falling off a horse, you have to get right back into it..  we'll see..  Until I heal I am walking with a walker and if I go out its in a wheelchair.. what a life..  I am feeling pathetic and cursed but I am pulling through..
     I have lost a total of 83lbs to date and although I am way to critical of myself I am glad it's gone and never coming back.  Amazing that the body can change but the mind still keeps a running tab of the negative image we created long ago..
so I'm 4 months out and I have a ways to go the journey has just begun.  I am excited to feel great outside and in, pass by a mirror and actually look in it instead of hide or avoid it, and hear the compliments when people see you.. reassurance that I'm looking good.  And another positive is my blood pressure meds have decreased to almost nothing.. YIPPEEE...
     So many negatives going on in my life, I am trying to keep hope and get stronger in my faith and looking for the beautiful person inside, trying to present herself to the world..
Thank you all for listening, straightening me out when necessary and for all the supportive hugs I have received... I appreciate you all and couldn't get through anything without the support of my family and friends...I will post again when I reach 100 lbs..

Ok, I am living in HELL...  I started with a bit of a back ache and lower back pain several weeks ago, well progressively it went from discomfort to pain and I went to the doc and he suggested that I injured my SI joint and sent me to physical therapy and possibility of an injection to relieve pain.  So several days went by and I was getting even worse with the pain and I decided to go to an ortho doc and lhe took x-rays and low and behold he suggested the same diagnosis.  So he put me out of work for 1 month and pain killers and physical therapy.  Several days went by and no improvement instead it was getting even worse, so bad I couldnt make it from the bed to the bathroom without crying and my hubby helping me.. so I went to another ortho doc and he thinks it may be a herniated disc, so he ordered an MRI and guess what Im still waiting to get that done.. In the meantime I am living in the worst pain imagianable and still no real diagnosis.. I have been told that I should not have this much pain for an Si joint injury.  So I wait... stay tuned for more to come..

Finally figured out how to add this thing..lol

I hope all the beautiful mama's have a wonderful day !!

Well I am 3 months out and I am sorry I havent posted n a while.  Life has been crazy busy and trying to adjust to my new life style of eating, working and school and kids... Been tough at times but I am holding fast to the end result.. I am starting to see some small changes and it's exciting, of course not fast enough but exciting all the same.. Still holding out to shop for anything yet until at least  the clothes are falling off my bod..lol  I am down 53lbs now and had some stalls which I dont understand but I am losing and not gaining so Im happy for small favors..I am obsessively hopping on the scale daily and I think it's frustrating me more than encouraging me so I am trying to disclipine myself to only weigh once a week, (yea right),, I have met a couple good buddies in my support group and I definately encourage everyone to attend their support groups, it does help.  Im struggling with new food choices, same ole same ole stuff is getting boreing to me. I still can't eat steak and pork chops and shrimp, wow a new defination of getting sick.. so I wait impatiently.  The family went camping last weekend and boy was it hard not having soda, chips and smores, but I did it... Hurray for me...
well, I am seeing my doc wednesday for my 3month visit well see what he says.  Oh btw I did have a spout with my blood pressure where it was actually dropping too low, (imagine that) so the doc had to decrease my meds.. yiipppeee... how exciting.. I did however have a bad set back recently, I injured my SI joint in my back and I can barely move, very painful and start physical therapy tuesday.. Im bummed cause that means no exercize for a couple weeks and trying to work with extreme pain.. Help...
well, I will keep you updated on my progress.. thanks to all my dear friends for support, it means so much..

well it's been  an adventure for sure, I have had a setback with work, I tried going back and almost collapsed so I took a wee bit more time off, my doctor released me to light duty this week but my work doesn't want me back light duty, they want me back full duty!  They are such special people...  I have been released to eat solid foods and I was nervous but excited, now my options are definately more abundant.. I did find my pouch is tempermental and sometimes moody.. I have found that certain foods go down real nicely a few times and then all of a sudden it isn't ok.. Very very sick consequences for this moody pouch.  I did find a web site that is awesome, EGGFACE.com.. wow, the best for sure... please check it out..  I still havent taken pix but Im working on it.. I still am having a hard time doing he pix thing... I have hated my picture taken for so many years it's almost a phobia to me.. my self image is still not good but I am hopeful that as my weight drops and I start feeling better about myself my image will return in a positive direction. 
I am looking forward to the next month and what it has to bring.. I have had decent weight loss but I am quite impatient and want it faster..  Well, week 5 & so on here I come ready or not......

well, I'm back to work tomorrow, I am nervous, it's hard work I just hope I can handle it.  working on getting some updated pictures posted, just havent had the time...

I am 22 days out and no loss in over a week now.. i am a bit concerned... Not sure what Im doing wrong..?  I called the docs office and spoke to the nutritionist and she she it sometimes happens and its normal, but I dont understand..I hope I am not doing something wrong or something isnt wrong with my new tummy...;-(