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Well I am getting nervous I dont have a date set yet but I know the  aproximate timeline which is now looking like August.  I get so excited as I look at the before and after pics of others who have had WLS. There is a part of me that is terrified of all the bad things that can happen the biggest one is a LEAK!! I know that you can get very sick from it and no matter how much they try it still happens to some.  I think everything will be okay I know I have a good surgeon but Im still scared.

Well I screwed up for a couple days and now I am going to start agin. I feel ridiculous because it gets irritating starting over all the time. Maybe the good thing about it is that I am recognizing that I am making bad choices and I want to fix them rather than continue eating like I usually do. Life changes are not easy I know that I have done it before with different circumstances but man this is tough. I will start again and keep starting again until I get this right I am not happy with how I look and feel physically. I need to keep at it.

Okay so I started this knowing that I am overweight and that I need to work on my eating habits because they are destructive.  I am now on a 3 month diet required by my insurance.  I do so well one day and then the next my husband and I are ordering pizza. Even though we feel totally disgusted with ourselves we continue to eat it.  I dont understand why I do this to myself. Its not hard to eat whats on my diet because I still like most of the things I am eating but if I get bored, or someone else is eating by me it sets me off I need to have more self control!!  Today is  a new day and event though I am only hours into it I am doing well I've had my breakfast and I have my meals planned out for the day. I can do this!