fiveholts714
I have been overweight all of my life. I can remember being on a diet as a small kid - all the other kids playing at my house got potato chips but I didn't. I even remeber my parents trying to count my calories by figuring out how much school lunch I ate. I had a fit because they were insiting that my lunch must have had a 1/4 cup of pudding, but I didn't want it to count for so much of my calories so I insistent that it wasn't that much. They even got a measuring cup out to show me, which made me even madder!
Like most everyone else on this board, I suffered the indignities of childhood obesity. I was teased mercilessly, the last chosen for a team, left out socially, lost friendships, etc. I was very, very lonely as a child. Food was really my best friend and the only thing I could count on. Being an overweight teen was even worse. I wouldn't relive my high school years for anything. In fact, I graduated a semester early because I couldn't stand the cruelty anymore. I spent that semester sitting at hom, counting calroes so I wouldn't have to go to collegeg fat. I lost about 40 pounds and acutally looked like a normal person at my high school graduation. I was so shocked to see pic of myself many years later - I had no idea htat I looked that thin. I never saw myself that way. That's acutally one of my concerns about losig weight now. Will I see myself as different? I don't want to see that fat person in the mirror if that is not who I am.
I didn't date until I moved to Utah and was in my mid 20's. I dated a bit and then met my husband. People now use the internet, but I saw him in a newspaper ad and my friend dared me to answer the ad. I did and a year later we were married. One thing about Ray is that he loves me the way I am. Fat or thin. My kids know that my weight bothers me a lot, and my 11 year old son keeps telling me that I am not fat, even though I weight 330+ pounds. He tells me, "I've seen people who are fat, and mom, you are not fat". Now my 6 year old daughter keeps asking me if I am healthy. She tells me that I'm skinny.
My twins are little- 6 years old. I hope they don't remember me as a fat mom. My 11 year old will, so I hope I am a good example of getting in shape. I am going to stress with him that he shouldn't get fat in the first place.
