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Where to begin, When I was born I weighed 5lbs 11oz. I was a small baby but I was full term. Growing up I was very thin until I had my tonsils out at age 7. I started to gain weight all through my teen years, I got heavier and heavier, then at age 13 I weighed 147pounds, but I was still able to wear a bikini. By the time I was 17 I weighed 232 pounds. I had a few friends through the years, just like most of you I was made fun of all the time and I would eat to try to forget about it. I met my first husband through a friend and we got married and I continued to gain weight all the way up to 308 pounds, my husband loved to eat deep fried foods, sweets galore, gravies, sauces, you know the drill. I ended up getting divorced, and I lost 50 pounds and kept if off for a year. Then I got married again and gained it all back plus, with this marriage I had two kids, with the first one I gained 10 pounds and with the second I lost weight all nine months. Then 2 years later I ended up divorced again. Now here I am married for the third time and I am thinking here I go again another mistake. It seems each time I get married all I do is gain weight and not in small amounts. The men I married love large women and do not feel it is necessary to lose the weight, they get mad because I gain it and then get mad when I lose it, I guess there is no satisfying them.
In 2002 I started research on WLS and then said no way I do not want an operation to lose weight when I know if I stop eating foods that have fat and carbs I could lose it. Yeah right I tried on my own with no success. So I joined a WL program again and only lost 25 pounds then gained then lost then gained. This is not working for me at all. So I decided to check into WLS again. I have decided that this is the help I need. I told my husband that I am going to do this and he said a flat out NO. I told him I needed to lose this weight for my health and he said that I am fine the way I am you do not need to get thin and leave me. I said that I would not do that, but he is so afraid I will. I told him ok I will leave you if I do not lose this weight but I would not be walking out on him I would be rolled out in a box. He still said NO. I said that he does not have a say in this that it is my body and I am doing this for me and only me. I matter far more than his feelings. Well on 6/18/08 I was diagnosed with high blood pressure, diabetes, high cholestrol, underactive thyroid, and now I am taking 5 different kinds of meds, plus my pain meds and vitamins. I did not want to end up like my Mom and Grandfather taking all kinds of pills well here I am just like them. Since finding this out my Husband has kinda changed his tune alittle he wants to try and help me. It scared him me getting diabetes. Well that did not last to long he is back to thinking that I am going to leave him he even told me he had a dream that I left him. If I ever did it would not be because I lost weight. I have tried and tried to explain it to him but he just does not get it. This is my health I am talking about and I am determined to have this surgery and get healthy.
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