emsy2907
3 days to go - aggggghhhhh
Dec 07, 2008
Well only 3 days till my surgery and i am having mixed thoughts, which i guess most people do in this situation.
I have relied on food for so long that it is going to be hard to adjust the relationship i have with it.
In a way im sad that i will no longer be able to eat what i can now - i have hidden behind food for many years and blamed my appeareance and weight for almost every downfall in my life so far.
Take away the weight and i have nothing to hide behind and will have to take responsibility for myself .
At present i dont go out and socialise and i blame it on my weight for the lack of confidence - what if though i still dont know how to socialise when i have lost the weight - its all very scary. Exciting at the same time i guess.
One thing i am looking forward to is being able to go into a regular clothes store and buying anything - not just buying something because it comes in my size !
I cant actually believe how quick things are going and before i know it ill be in theatre aggghhhhhhhh !!!!
I have relied on food for so long that it is going to be hard to adjust the relationship i have with it.
In a way im sad that i will no longer be able to eat what i can now - i have hidden behind food for many years and blamed my appeareance and weight for almost every downfall in my life so far.
Take away the weight and i have nothing to hide behind and will have to take responsibility for myself .
At present i dont go out and socialise and i blame it on my weight for the lack of confidence - what if though i still dont know how to socialise when i have lost the weight - its all very scary. Exciting at the same time i guess.
One thing i am looking forward to is being able to go into a regular clothes store and buying anything - not just buying something because it comes in my size !
I cant actually believe how quick things are going and before i know it ill be in theatre aggghhhhhhhh !!!!
