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I am now two weeks out of surgery and I can't believe it!!  It feels sooooo good to be on the other side of this process.... WOW!  I am so glad!!!  I feel really great and my surgery went very very well!  I thought I was going to be scared and anxious and that they were going to have to drug me just for that... but I felt an amazing peace!  (Praise God!!)   My husband stayed sweetly by my side and kept me company until they took me back....  I was so glad to have him with me, too!

I can't believe I actually have come this far and have now gone through with the surgery!  What a journey!  And now I am excited to have a whole new journey and to see what happens now !!  

Thank you to everyone for all your prayers and wishes! 

I can't wait - I am scared, but I just want to move past this step and be okay... I feel so unprepared, I didn't write my kids letters (just "in case") and I probably should have.... but it seems if I write them a final letter it feels like the possbility of something going wrong is higher. 
But I guess I'll write a few thoughts here:
I love my kids sooooooo much - they are so wonderful and I am so proud of all three of them.  They make me laugh and cry!  They are so creative and funny... dramatic and imaginative... goofy and silly... loving and sweet!  Serious and thoughtful... loving and amazing!!!!   I love them!  I love them!  I love them!!!  I adore them and I want to live a long healthy life so I can be with them and love them and watch them grow up.  I want them to always know how special they are to me.  I love them now and forever.  I hope they will never doubt how much I love them.

So, now it's off to finish packing and then trying to sleep (it is almost 1am)... I write more when I am on the losing side of things!! 

I am sceduled to have my surgery on 10/28/2008!

I am excited, but scared, too!!!  I feel like I can't keep my head on straight!  If any one reads this, please say a prayer for me.  Thanks!

It is 1:00 AM and I can't sleep!  My Pre-Op Visit is tomorrow!  I finally get to meet with the surgeon and take the final step before surgery!  I think I am actually exited!  Still scared, too, though... I keep thinking... Should I write each of my kids a final letter?  Just in case????  Or should I focus on the hope for the positve?  Did I mention I can't sleep!

Back in June I successfully passed my sleep study and my psych. eval!  I meet with my surgeons staff on July 8th and it has just been a waiting game since then. 

At the end of September I finally got the call - my surgery date is set!  October 28th, 2008! 

Wow... am I actually doing this?  I think so!!!

I have been sitting on my paperwork and "application" to be considered for the bariatric surgery program for almost a year.  Sure, I had the paperwork filled out, but just haven't been able to muster up the courage to send it in.  I have been so afraid of the surgery... my thoughts always come back to my three little ones.  Is it selfish of me to do the surgery and take the risks?  Or is it worth the risk to be at a healthier weight?  It is an inner struggle I haven't quite come to peace with, yet.... I am, however inching my way closer to doing it.  Through finding this website and being encouraged by other OH members, I finally decided to send in my paperwork and take the next step ... setting up a one-on-one with the surgeon (already been to the group educational meetings about it).   So now I am actually kind of anxious for a call from the Doctor!  I even called them to find out how long I'd have to wait before I hear from them now that they have my papers - they said it might be 3-4 weeks!  It is funny - now that I sent it all in, I am kind of excited to see if I get accepted and can meet with the surgeon.  That surprises me!