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I am glad that crying stuff is over.  I am back on the antidepressants.  I kind of liked the edge I had without them but the emotional part not so much.  I also made the decision to have my DH move out.  I think that we are on different paths and I need to find myself.  We never did get married but he was my domestic partner.  I have removed him from insurance and am now just waiting for him to move out.  I gave him until July 1 so he can get his affairs in order I just hope that he is doing that.  He has never been a motivated type so I think that this will not be as easy as it could be.  I think that he had to know this was coming.  I told him on May19th and had eluded to it before that.  I hope to remain his friend but Dr S said that may not be possible for a while a least. I care about him and want the best but he has said some really mean things to me that I just can;t forget.   My parents are going to move back up here and I think I will live with them for a while to help all of us anyway.  I am still enjoying walking and swimming.  I am looking forward to the True Blood season premier tonight!!

I have been doing really good with a positive attitude and working out.  As of right this second I can't stop crying and that is starting to make me mad.  I must be having a real hormonal moment about right now...

I have started working out in the wellness center at work.  I go walk on the treadmill at lunch and after work.  I have increased my speed and incline already.  I just need to increase my time.  I am also starting water aerobics on 03-31.  I am really excited about that.  I have missed it.  I am working hard!  I went to the WLS group at NKC Hospital on the 19th.   It was a lot different than the others I have been to.  The people were all really nice.  Only a few more pounds and I will have lost 100 since I started this journey seriously.  I will really happy when I can get below 300 then 200!  I have only had a few issues since the surgery so I hope I keep up with that luck.   I am getting a bit frustrated with the DH.   I am working hard at becoming more healthy and he started smoking again.  He is also in the habit of making grilled sandwiches slathered in butter...The food that  I really crave oddly enough is toast.  So the grilled butter bread doesn't help that...  He also brought home an entire pizza and a cake from work.  OK he has to eat so whatever.  My main beef is that he wont go to the Dr and he is on my insurance.  I am paying money for a benefit he doesnt want to use.  Annoying.  We did get new glasses for him and our insurance for vision is  AWESOME.  We only had to pay sales tax so about 22.00 -we saved 348.00 with the insurance.  This is a random bunch of thoughts but I guess that is why it is my journal

I went to Dr S on 2-27 he was proud,  I was glad and much more assured that I am doing ok.  I went to Dr Hoehn 3-2.  I saw Tim.  He also said I was doing well.  I just have to start taking iron otherwise good stuff.  I have had a few dumping problems to be expected but every time I get irritated at myself.  My sweet dog is still sweet but becoming more sure of himself.  What  a little pill.  I am thinking about starting water aerobics this month again.  I love it.  what a rambling bunch of thoughts but hey whatever right?

I went to my "regular" doctor today.  I figured I better check in with her since my new birthday.  She was proud of me and said that I was looking good.  I like that she is so personable.  She was good with me being off the Lisinopril and Metformin.  I also had blood work done to be sent to Dr Hoehn and Dr Holt.  They only took about 5 vials of blood.  I still feel that I need to get more water in.  

I got a new puppy on Valentines day and one dozen longstem pink roses from DH.  It was a really good day.  My pup Emmett is a joy.  I didn't know if it was too soon after Belle but I am glad I have him.  I am already spoiling him too much.  I had all  of these grand plans... He is too cute.  

I wonder if it will be like this for much longer.  I know my body is trying to adjust but geez really?!

I was reborn!  I am so glad I made the decision that I did.  I am still working at getting all of the water in.  In fact I am thirsty now but have to wait...  I get to try some veggies today.  

Today I go back to work.  I am not looking forward to it.  I know that everyone constantly eats around me there.  I will have to keep control of that "head hunger" .  I am looking forward to the people.  I know I will do fine.  I have to keep reminding myself of that.  

The carpet fiasco is done.  The wall in the kitchen is fixed that is after a minor upset of another flooded kitchen.  I am trying to get this place really clean.  I have to go back to work Monday which I am not looking forward to.  I mean really who likes to work.  Actually I will be glad to see all of my friends,  The only set back to that is my car is in the shop... It is only going to cost 195.14 to fix so what  a relief.  I really don't have that to spare.  My DH helped me thank goodness.  I am not sure when It will be fixed by so I have to get a ride on my first day back.  I did take the car to the shop yesterday and then I walked home.  It is a little over a mile which is really good for me.  It was just really cold but I did it!  DH was there encouraging me along and I appreciate that.   I think I may get Emmett next week!  Things really won't be back to normal then.  I am getting prepared.  I can't wait.  Honestly I still can't believe I walked home yesterday.  Hills and everything  yahoo for me!

A pipe burst in the kitchen on Friday.  I still have fans going to dry the carpet.  I am so glad that I am still off work.  I can only imagine how much worse it would have been.  The apartment people are coming this week to fix the hole in the wall.  It ends up that it was the pipe to the outside spicket that broke...  Brad stir fried some tofu for me yesterday.  He was really good about light seasoning.  It was awesome.  I ate it for 5 meals.  Yummy.  I went to the new Vitamin Shoppe by Target today.  I am thrilled.  They carry the Nectars and my vitamins.  I can just go there.  Much better than driving to Kansas or ordering online.  My car is messing up still.  It won't accelerate so that concerns me.  I have to go back to work on the 26th.  I am glad in a way.  I just had so much going on here since I have been off.  My parents have been gone a week.  I wish they were still here.  I have cleaned a lot around here.  Then the water pipe crap happens so everything is in disarray.  I am getting ready for the new puppy.  I am excited.  I  am just rambling in this post but I guess I can do that.  I want Brad to take pics of me at the 1 month mark so I can post them.