Twana T.

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I just wanted to share my emotional time last night.   I went to Target last night to try and find some cheap slacks since most of my dress slacks have gotten really big on me.  I was so disappointed at the lack of good slack options at Target and lack of good "plus sized" options in general.  I managed to find one pair of, OK looking slacks and decided to try them on.  Although they were the size I normally wear, when I tried them on they were too tight and looked plain awful on me.  This whole experience just got me a bit down on myself...that I'm not further along, that I still have to shop in the "big" people section, yada yada.  I also got a bit depressed looking at all the cute spring options available to "smaller" people ...why do stores continue to dismiss us larger women, we like lots of choices also!?  

Well anyway I wanted to share that instead of taking that negative energy and stuffing it down with food, or retreating to my house and wallowing in my frustration...I decided to keep my gym appointment instead.  I went to the gym and funneled my frustration into a good workout, it really works although I never beleive it.  This experience with weight loss and the band truly is a journey, but if I can stay focused on the end goal and not get thrown off track by the bumps along the way (or pot holes...lol), I can reach my goals.  I may not get into a size 14 or 16 this spring or summer, but I figure there's always Fall!  Plus the progress I've made and will make going forward will make this summer much better for me.  

Guess the moral is that I'm not where I want to be, but I'm sure not where I used to be.  Stay positvie and keep chugging along, we'll all get there...it is doable with the help of the band.  Be well everyone.

Hi guys, haven't posted in a while, but just popping in to say I'm doing well.  I've finally gotten off the 4 pounds I gained over Xmas and I'm back on track.  I've lost roughly 30 pounds to date and I feel great.  I'd like to loose 20 more before Spring kicks in, and I'm trying to get down to a size 16 for Spring, but I'm not sure I'll make it.  I am a very slow looser, but I'm determined to get to my goal of living a healthier life.

I'm still at fill 2 so maybe I'll think about another fill for next month, if my loss keeps being stalled.  When I get dehydrated, which is often, I get tighter so the thought of a fill scares me.  But if I can keep my fluid levels good another fill might just help me meet my Spring time goal.  Well that's it for now.  Happy New Year Everyone!

And so far I don't feel any different in terms of my restriction.  I've only had soft foods so far today, I'll try some fish tonight and see how that goes down.  To top it off I have this overwhelming desire to eat something really bad tonight...like Friday's Jack Strips.  I'm going to be strong I think it's just TOM cravings.  I was going to skip the gym tonight but I think I should go just to make sure I'm covered with my cravings.  I will not be defeated with my weight and "food issues", I have to stay strong and focused.

I'm doing well, holding steady and managing to eeek out small steady increments of loss.  I'm down roughly 27 pounds and I feel awesome.  I have a scheduled fill appointment this comming Wednesday and I'm excited to see the weigh loss speed pick up a bit.  I work out 4-5 days a week so it'd be nice to see more loss show up on the scale.  I try to switch up my exercise so my body doesn't get used to the same routines.   But over all I feel great and I think you can really see my loss in my new pics.  That's it for now.

I haven 't checked in for while, so I wanted to update you on things.  I 'm doing really well, I 've made a commitment to working out at the gym at least 4-5 days a week and I 've been sticking to that.  I 'm down roughly 25 pounds and down to a size 18/20 top and size 20 bottoms.  Formally I wore 22/24 pants, and in single sizes I 'd be a size 24.  The strange things is whenever I pick up a size 18/20 top I can 't believe it fits me...guess I 'm still much larger in my mind.  I called today to set up for fill number 2, I 've been white knuckling it and I 've decided to go in and get the help the fills will provide.  My goal is to loose 20 more by the end of the year.  If I can loose 20 more that would put me almost to my 50 pound mini goal.  If I can loose the 45 I 'm going to reward myself with a new IPOD...I 'm excited.  Well that 's it for now.

 

 

Well I'm back from vacation and doing well.  Unfortunatly I did not reach my 25 pound loss prior to my first fill.  I was, however, able to maintain my 20 pound loss so I guess I should be happy about that.  I had my first fill today.  The doctor put 2 CCs in my 4 CC band.  I can't really tell if I have restriction or not since I'll be on liquids till the morning.  I'm just ready to see the scale start moving again!

Well guess that's it for now, wish me luck.

Twana

Well I have not been blogging since I didn't feel that I had much to report.  I'm down like 20 pounds since surgery and that feels great.  My appetite is back to normal and I can pretty much eat the way I did pre-surgery.  The good news is that even though I can eat larger portions I'm not choosing to do that...90% of the time.  I've been making it a point to eat smaller portions at each meal.  I've reduced the size of my lunch greatly and that makes me feel great.  I've been snacking on fruit and other healthy foods between lunch and dinner.  I am really ready to change my life and get healthier.  I don't get my first fill until 8/20 since I'll be on vacation Saturday 8/11-  Wednesday 8/15 and my Doc office only does fills on Mon and Weds.   I also didn't want to get one just before going out of town.

I have started back to the gym, which I should be proud of.  My goal is to be down 25 pounds by the time I get my first fill...that will be hard with vacation in there.  Oh well, we'll see.  That's it for now. 

I'm almost one month out and I feel good.  I had a bit of a set back 2 weeks ago with getting something stuck.  But now I have the opposite problem, since my swelling went down I am able to eat more stuff and find that I am getting hungrier more often.  But overall I've been able to be strong and stay focused on my goal of loosing weight.  I feel great!  Well that's it for now.

Oh yeah, I've had folks tell me they can see my loss and that's been wonderful, especially since the scale hasn't really moved.

Banding is one week behind me already..time really flies!  I'm doing well and feeling pretty much back to normal.  I do get tightness in the chest area sometime during the day.  I've had not problems getting my liquids down and liquids going down pretty easily.  I feel good overall and can't wait to start to really see the pounds come off!

So tomorrow morning is my time to undergo my surgery.  Surprisingly, I'm feeling very calm and just ready to get the actual surgery behind me.  Just thinking that this time tomorrow I will have my band makes me feel a bit nervous and excited.  I'm ready for this change!