drgnflysmith
day #2
Jan 25, 2011
Oh my goodnes!!!!! She called! I have the date!!! Feb.16,2011- that is in 3 weeks!!! I start my opti-fast on the 1st.
I feel so unprepared, my head is spinning with all the things I wanted to do yet. I am so overwhelmed right now I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Well, this is it, day 2 is turning out to be very momentous. Wow, I can't believe how fast this is moving. This could be my last weekend with my family and friends for a very long time, should I book off work and just be with them? I know I am just rambling on at this point, but that's pretty much how I am thinking right now, not focused. Is this normal? Shouldn't I be ready to start this new challenging path, instead of thinking of all the things I want to do on this current path?
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I feel so unprepared, my head is spinning with all the things I wanted to do yet. I am so overwhelmed right now I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Well, this is it, day 2 is turning out to be very momentous. Wow, I can't believe how fast this is moving. This could be my last weekend with my family and friends for a very long time, should I book off work and just be with them? I know I am just rambling on at this point, but that's pretty much how I am thinking right now, not focused. Is this normal? Shouldn't I be ready to start this new challenging path, instead of thinking of all the things I want to do on this current path?
day 1
Jan 24, 2011
So this is it now. The waiting. Waiting for my surgery date. This is the most nerve racking part of this so far, the waiting. I am scared of what is to come. I am scared the surgery will fail, and I will have gone through all of this for nothing. I am scared of failing myself. I am scared of starting this new life, there are so many unknowns. I have read all the testimonials and I know how much better my life will be afterwards, but either way, I am still scared.
My family and friends are trying to be encouraging, but they are struggling with this as well. They are worried about my health, and the surgery scares them. They are worried about after the sugery, will I be changed so much that I won't be me anymore?
I just want this waiting to be over with. Even if the surgery was a ways off yet, just knowing the date would give me something real to look forward to.
Am I doing the right thing?
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My family and friends are trying to be encouraging, but they are struggling with this as well. They are worried about my health, and the surgery scares them. They are worried about after the sugery, will I be changed so much that I won't be me anymore?
I just want this waiting to be over with. Even if the surgery was a ways off yet, just knowing the date would give me something real to look forward to.
Am I doing the right thing?
